Uploaded May 2025 | Updated September 2026, 6 hours ago
This fan project is a fan reimagining of Matthew eder’s cjd with new tracks and remastered old songs.
Month one:
Side A: Working memory no longer gets consolidated into long-term memory as easily. Fond memories from long ago compensate for trouble processing the present. The world seems to be ending with a whimper, but memories made along the way make this life worth living.
00:00 - A1 - A sad song to remember the days gone by
03:12 - A2 - Summer breeze warms my aching heart
05:47 - A3 - What if I felt alive again
06:12 - A4 - Missing the time we’ve spent
09:13 - A5 - Looking back to when things were easy
11:37 - A6 - The glory days gone to the past
14:48 - A7 - Grains of hope
Side B: You can't shake the feeling that you're mistaken. You used to only twitch while angry, but now you twitch no matter what. If your hands weren't being pricked with tiny pins, you'd just stay in bed all day. You can't feel happy, and you can't feel your fingers; the only thing you feel is somber, mistrustful fear.
18:46 - B1 - Our whole lives
22:33 - B2 - Misfortunate soul
25:46 - B3 - Shaky hands
29:46 - B4 - Agitated confusions
32:33 - B5 - Helpless denial
34:28 - B6 - Doubtful confidence
37:02 - B7 - Downward spiral
month two:
Side C: You can't speak your mind. At first it was because you didn't trust them; now the words just come out wrong. The enemy came out of hiding and now patrols your neighborhood. You're being stalked by masters of stealth noticed only by yourself. Can't remember where they're from, but you're sure you've fought them before. You remember your entire life that way. As far as you know, you always have.
40:03 - C1 - In the corner of my eye
42:15 - C2 - The sands of time are going by too fast
44:40 - C3 - Jumbled Syllables
47:51 - C4 - A helpless song
49:55 - C5 - Grains of delay
52:13 - C6 - My whole reality
54:57 - C7 - Misfortunate hope
Side D: You're being tripped and shocked and they won't leave you alone. You've surrendered, retreating to a select few rooms you feel safe in. You don't sleep. You don't know anyone. You only remember those times you saw them do something, and you can't hold onto those moments like you used to. You can't hold onto anything anymore.
57:30 - D1 - Hands flowing easy
1:01:13 - D2 - All faces melt away
1:04:26 - D3 - A hopeless spiral
1:07:15 - D4 - Sleepless nightmares
1:11:23 - D5 - Grieving for myself
1:13:30 - D6 - Fractured reflections
1:16:15 - D7 - True rejoice
Month three:
Side E: With the way you carry yourself, most people would think you don't have the slightest idea who you are. You do have the slightest idea. That's all you have. Loyalty and camaraderie define the very best moments of your life, and underpin the worst. Your mind hopelessly wanders between the two, trying to understand the present through the cracked lens of an incomplete past.
1:18:25 - E1 - Felt gather rejoice
1:19:09 - E2 - Sands soul time
1:21:17 - E3 - Agitated time missing
1:23:42 - E4 - Summer hands burn
1:25:46 - E5 - Helpless hope
1:28:10 - E6 - I hope it's all a horrible nightmare
1:31:33 - E7 - Last complete memories
Side F: You did something with someone and it was good. Things were good. This is all you can think about, and you're thinking yourself in circles. You used to walk in circles, back when it wasn't so dangerous. Now you're thinking in circles. You're in a rut that's about to give way to the gates of hell.
1:35:15 F1 - Half thought
1:38:12 F2 - Holes ripping reality
1:41:40 F3 - Corroding memories
1:45:19 F4 - Simple time
1:48:16 F5 - Vision's blurring
1:51:23 F6 - Circle trigon new
1:55:54 F7 - Into darkness
Month four:
Side G: Your mind is no longer your home, thoughts crash into eachother like waves in a vast ocean. Strange people surround you, you don't know them, you've never met them in your life, their words are alien to you, they call themselves your family. You're taken to a place with other people just as, if not more deteriorated than you. They are not your friends, you have none, not even your own self. Looking into a mirror, you can't recognize the face that looks back at you.
1:58:43 G1 - Mind ripping pain
2:01:47 G2 - Spasmic terror
2:08:03 G3 - Zenith in limbo
Side H: The world around you that you once called paradise, is now just nothing but a place of despair. You had lost lots of what made you, you. Your trapped in your bed and can’t get out to stand as you feel like your legs are just malfunctioning.
2:12:28 H1 - Lost in disrepair
2:19:17 H2 - Neuronal labyrinth
2:25:36 H3 - The past is gone
Month five:
Side I: Nothing is real around you and the whole world is just a blur. Soon everything turns to black and now have became a husk of what you formerly were now rotting away.
2:29:29 I1 - Fading out of conscience
2:35:51 I2 - Disconnected singularity
Side J: Nothing can be done in these circumstances
2:50:37 J1 - universe withers away
3:04:11 J2 - the end of a horrible nightmare
3:09:15 Credits
This fan project is a fan reimagining of Matthew eder’s cjd with new tracks and remastered old songs.
Month one:
Side A: Working memory no longer gets consolidated into long-term memory as easily. Fond memories from long ago compensate for trouble processing the present. The world seems to be ending with a whimper, but memories made along the way make this life worth living.
00:00 - A1 - A sad song to remember the days gone by
03:12 - A2 - Summer breeze warms my aching heart
05:47 - A3 - What if I felt alive again
06:12 - A4 - Missing the time we’ve spent
09:13 - A5 - Looking back to when things were easy
11:37 - A6 - The glory days gone to the past
14:48 - A7 - Grains of hope
Side B: You can't shake the feeling that you're mistaken. You used to only twitch while angry, but now you twitch no matter what. If your hands weren't being pricked with tiny pins, you'd just stay in bed all day. You can't feel happy, and you can't feel your fingers; the only thing you feel is somber, mistrustful fear.
18:46 - B1 - Our whole lives
22:33 - B2 - Misfortunate soul
25:46 - B3 - Shaky hands
29:46 - B4 - Agitated confusions
32:33 - B5 - Helpless denial
34:28 - B6 - Doubtful confidence
37:02 - B7 - Downward spiral
month two:
Side C: You can't speak your mind. At first it was because you didn't trust them; now the words just come out wrong. The enemy came out of hiding and now patrols your neighborhood. You're being stalked by masters of stealth noticed only by yourself. Can't remember where they're from, but you're sure you've fought them before. You remember your entire life that way. As far as you know, you always have.
40:03 - C1 - In the corner of my eye
42:15 - C2 - The sands of time are going by too fast
44:40 - C3 - Jumbled Syllables
47:51 - C4 - A helpless song
49:55 - C5 - Grains of delay
52:13 - C6 - My whole reality
54:57 - C7 - Misfortunate hope
Side D: You're being tripped and shocked and they won't leave you alone. You've surrendered, retreating to a select few rooms you feel safe in. You don't sleep. You don't know anyone. You only remember those times you saw them do something, and you can't hold onto those moments like you used to. You can't hold onto anything anymore.
57:30 - D1 - Hands flowing easy
1:01:13 - D2 - All faces melt away
1:04:26 - D3 - A hopeless spiral
1:07:15 - D4 - Sleepless nightmares
1:11:23 - D5 - Grieving for myself
1:13:30 - D6 - Fractured reflections
1:16:15 - D7 - True rejoice
Month three:
Side E: With the way you carry yourself, most people would think you don't have the slightest idea who you are. You do have the slightest idea. That's all you have. Loyalty and camaraderie define the very best moments of your life, and underpin the worst. Your mind hopelessly wanders between the two, trying to understand the present through the cracked lens of an incomplete past.
1:18:25 - E1 - Felt gather rejoice
1:19:09 - E2 - Sands soul time
1:21:17 - E3 - Agitated time missing
1:23:42 - E4 - Summer hands burn
1:25:46 - E5 - Helpless hope
1:28:10 - E6 - I hope it's all a horrible nightmare
1:31:33 - E7 - Last complete memories
Side F: You did something with someone and it was good. Things were good. This is all you can think about, and you're thinking yourself in circles. You used to walk in circles, back when it wasn't so dangerous. Now you're thinking in circles. You're in a rut that's about to give way to the gates of hell.
1:35:15 F1 - Half thought
1:38:12 F2 - Holes ripping reality
1:41:40 F3 - Corroding memories
1:45:19 F4 - Simple time
1:48:16 F5 - Vision's blurring
1:51:23 F6 - Circle trigon new
1:55:54 F7 - Into darkness
Month four:
Side G: Your mind is no longer your home, thoughts crash into eachother like waves in a vast ocean. Strange people surround you, you don't know them, you've never met them in your life, their words are alien to you, they call themselves your family. You're taken to a place with other people just as, if not more deteriorated than you. They are not your friends, you have none, not even your own self. Looking into a mirror, you can't recognize the face that looks back at you.
1:58:43 G1 - Mind ripping pain
2:01:47 G2 - Spasmic terror
2:08:03 G3 - Zenith in limbo
Side H: The world around you that you once called paradise, is now just nothing but a place of despair. You had lost lots of what made you, you. Your trapped in your bed and can’t get out to stand as you feel like your legs are just malfunctioning.
2:12:28 H1 - Lost in disrepair
2:19:17 H2 - Neuronal labyrinth
2:25:36 H3 - The past is gone
Month five:
Side I: Nothing is real around you and the whole world is just a blur. Soon everything turns to black and now have became a husk of what you formerly were now rotting away.
2:29:29 I1 - Fading out of conscience
2:35:51 I2 - Disconnected singularity
Side J: Nothing can be done in these circumstances
2:50:37 J1 - universe withers away
3:04:11 J2 - the end of a horrible nightmare
3:09:15 Credits
