Uploaded January 2026 | Updated September 2026, 10 hours ago
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Tessa explains her struggle with NPD (Narcissistic Personality Disorder) -- how she abandoned her past self and modeled a new persona on a celebrity to remake herself, how she lost her passion for life, and how she's trying to rebuild herself with real connection.
0:00 Replacing the Worthless Past Self w/ a New Perfect One
1:45 Fragmentation / No Coherent Sense of Self / The Ego
4:52 Obsession w/ a Celebrity & Modeling Herself After Her
7:30 What Happens to the Past Self? Emptiness & a PD
12:40 “NPD sucks the life out of you”: Lost Passion and Regret
14:35 Being Terrified of Real Connection / Shutting Off to People
17:14 Not Wanting to Suffer Anymore / Being Self-Aware Hurts
Disclaimer: "Please be advised this video may contain sensitive information. All content found within this publication (VIDEO) is provided for informational purposes only. All cases may differ, and the information provided is a general guide. The content is not intended to be used as a substitute for medical advice, diagnosis, or treatment. If you have specific questions about a medical condition, you should consult your doctor or other qualified medical professional for assistance or questions you have regarding a medical condition. Studio Comma The, LLC and BorderlinerNotes does not recommend any specific course of medical remedy, physicians, products, opinion, or other information. Studio Comma The, LLC and BorderlinerNotes expressly disclaims responsibility and shall have no liability whatsoever for any damages, loss, injury, or suffering as a result of reliance on the information in this publication."
If you or someone you know is considering self-harm or suicide, it’s okay to ask for help. 24 hour support is provided by hopeline-nc.org (877.235.4525), suicidepreventionlifeline.org (800.273.8255), kidshelpphone.ca (800.668.6868).
The 1-hour-long extended split-screen version of this interview w/ Tessa is available for Tier 2 channel members and at the shop, along with the other PD Project material: shop.mndflds.com/products
Become a member here: youtube.com/borderlinernotes/join
Tessa explains her struggle with NPD (Narcissistic Personality Disorder) -- how she abandoned her past self and modeled a new persona on a celebrity to remake herself, how she lost her passion for life, and how she's trying to rebuild herself with real connection.
0:00 Replacing the Worthless Past Self w/ a New Perfect One
1:45 Fragmentation / No Coherent Sense of Self / The Ego
4:52 Obsession w/ a Celebrity & Modeling Herself After Her
7:30 What Happens to the Past Self? Emptiness & a PD
12:40 “NPD sucks the life out of you”: Lost Passion and Regret
14:35 Being Terrified of Real Connection / Shutting Off to People
17:14 Not Wanting to Suffer Anymore / Being Self-Aware Hurts
Disclaimer: "Please be advised this video may contain sensitive information. All content found within this publication (VIDEO) is provided for informational purposes only. All cases may differ, and the information provided is a general guide. The content is not intended to be used as a substitute for medical advice, diagnosis, or treatment. If you have specific questions about a medical condition, you should consult your doctor or other qualified medical professional for assistance or questions you have regarding a medical condition. Studio Comma The, LLC and BorderlinerNotes does not recommend any specific course of medical remedy, physicians, products, opinion, or other information. Studio Comma The, LLC and BorderlinerNotes expressly disclaims responsibility and shall have no liability whatsoever for any damages, loss, injury, or suffering as a result of reliance on the information in this publication."
If you or someone you know is considering self-harm or suicide, it’s okay to ask for help. 24 hour support is provided by hopeline-nc.org (877.235.4525), suicidepreventionlifeline.org (800.273.8255), kidshelpphone.ca (800.668.6868).
