Alice Phantom | {Terra x Beast Boy} Say Goodbye (Ventish) @AlicePhantom | Uploaded 6 years ago | Updated 18 hours ago
First off, yea it's a vent video. It's not as drastic as any of my other vents, so nothing for anyone to worry about. I just had this song inside my head since I've heard it the first time. Ps: this was actually done within 24 hours lmao.

Okay so I know canonically, Terra was the one who left Beast Boy. (In both TT and Judas Contract) Just bare with me, please. I did this for a reason. The voice overs are there for pure angst. Also I cried making this, and cried as I was writing the description, so I hope y'all do too. :)

Vent:

Lately i've been thinking about life. Mostly about my one friend and how things aren't the same anymore. We knew each other when we were 14, and now we're adults in college. He's still around, but not as much and it kinda sucks. Hell I just saw him over the weekend cause we had a Crew lock in, and a couple meetings before that. It was like things haven't changed.

We do text each other every so often, and we keep up with each others snapchat so it's not like we don't keep tabs on each other. (I don't mean it in a creepy way.) I do care about the other kids in Crew don't get me wrong, but it's him I care for more cause of everything that happened in our lives.

I actually don't know why it hurts so much, since its out of our control and just how life happened. Maybe it's just because I suck at saying goodbye, or because I want everything to stay the same like it was when we were kids.

We're planning a summer trip in August to DC and he may not be able to go, and for a good reason. It's basically an A and B situation, but he can't have both. Like either way it's a good outcome but the other thing doesn't happen. Like I want him to go, but I also want him to become RA for his college so his tuition goes down. It really wouldn't be the same without him. But it's a good outcome regardless of what happens.

Sure I won't be the only girl going this time, but sometimes I need someone who's my age there to hang with. Sometimes I need someone who knows the real me and doesn't judge me based on what I say or do that's not 'normal'.

I hope he's happy like we've always been in Crew. I'm not exactly alone because I do talk to the other members, but it's not the same. I doubt I'll ever click with them like I do with him. He's the only person where his presence effects my entire mood. I'm way happier than I usually am whenever he's present.