Papa Rat | [SPEEDPAINT] Usually (Vent?) @PapaRatHahahahLink | Uploaded 5 years ago | Updated 9 hours ago
Hey guys..

So I went back into the hills today. I like doing that when I feel bad. It ended up giving me nostalgia from back when I only had about 100 subs and everyone was so supportive and we had our own group of friends... But it reminded me.. Half of them I dont even speak to anymore. Ive lost friends at school to and I think its my fault- Ive been more annoyed and angry at everyone because of the stress doing YouTube is giving me- but if I stopped doing YouTube, Id be even more stressed. I used to think having more popularity would be better, but It just brought more and more hate and negativity towards my posts.

So here's my resolution. Instead of striving to do more work, I'll do less so I can stop and actually enjoy everything. I'll only join maybe 5 MAPs at a time and wait to try starting up a series after many failed attempts. I will get more sleep too, because I didnt sleep much this year and I'm still sick. I'll try to react to criticism better too- I know i