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6th January 1996
live at Nightclub 9:30, Washington, DC
amazing alternate version (wearing pijamas)
streaming of the full night here: bit.ly/5W35Rv
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Bleed in your own light
Dream of your own life
I miss me
I miss everything I'll never be
And on, and on
I torch my soul to show
The world that I am pure
Deep inside my heart
No more lies
A crown of horns
An image formed deformed
The mark I've borne
A mark of scorn to you
Consume my love, devour my hate
Only powers my escape
The moon is out, the stars invite
I think I'll leave tonight
So soon I'll find myself alone
To relax and fade away
Do you know what's coming down
Do you know I couldn't stay free?
I shall be free
I shall be free
I shall be free
I shall be free
I shall be free free
Free of those voices inside me
I shall be free
I shall be free
6th January 1996
live at Nightclub 9:30, Washington, DC
amazing alternate version (wearing pijamas)
streaming of the full night here: bit.ly/5W35Rv
---
Bleed in your own light
Dream of your own life
I miss me
I miss everything I'll never be
And on, and on
I torch my soul to show
The world that I am pure
Deep inside my heart
No more lies
A crown of horns
An image formed deformed
The mark I've borne
A mark of scorn to you
Consume my love, devour my hate
Only powers my escape
The moon is out, the stars invite
I think I'll leave tonight
So soon I'll find myself alone
To relax and fade away
Do you know what's coming down
Do you know I couldn't stay free?
I shall be free
I shall be free
I shall be free
I shall be free
I shall be free free
Free of those voices inside me
I shall be free
I shall be free
![Smashing Pumpkins - Jellybelly (old version) - Enter Sandman/Paranoid (tease)
1992-01-28
Luxor, Koeln (DE)
Enter Sandman [Metallica] tease during the song; and Paranoid [Black Sabbath] tease at the end.
About the song:
This song is rather mysterious. There are only 3 recordings of it. The first time it was played, it was very raw, and had lyrics from STP for two verses and then Offer Up lyrics over the outro. The second time it was played, it was a bit more structured, and it just had lyrics from STP. The third time, it had lyrics from STP and Offer Up. So it was branded Offer Up (long) for a while, and then it was just admitted that no one knew what to call it. Recently, Billy identified the song as an early version of Jellybelly. Whether the song just had its title lifted or somehow developed over time is unknown, but the officially released song Jellybelly as we know it is not similar at all. The lyrics listed are from the 1/20/92 performance.
(from spfc.org)
Lyrics
[unintelligible]
this is where i left my friends
some are real and some pretend
all of you, you knew me well
because ive never ever been
so strong
now alone
this is where i left my friends
some are real and some pretend
all of you, you knew me well
because ive never ever been
so strong
now alone
now alone
now alone
now alone
offer up your vanity
offer up your sanity
offer up your everything
offer up to me
offer up your sanity
offer up your vanity
offer up your everything
you offer up your everything Smashing Pumpkins - Jellybelly (old version) - Enter Sandman/Paranoid (tease)](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/fJCsXIb_vQc/mqdefault.jpg)









