Uploaded May 2020 | Updated September 2026, 9 hours ago
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Lyrics:
Maybe I can be so sad when I’m not
Life can be so lonely and I’m stuck up in the thoughts
Everything I’m wanting I can have it at the top
But I’m at the bottom I’m surrounded by the rocks
If I had love would I still feel this lonely
I was by myself and nobody had to show me
Never gave a fuck nobody tried to know me
Handing out these guns but nobody tryna blow me
I don’t wanna be here I just wanna go
Wanna leave my family everybody that I know
Suicidal thought will they miss me when I go
Tryna get high i been riding all the lows
Finally getting sober and it bringing back the pain
Sunny for a minute now it’s cloudy with the rain
Shit falling down and it bringing back mistakes
Future looking blurry I don’t see it in my fate
Why oh why
I don’t wanna be here I just wanna die
Always been sad It'll never be alright
Why oh why
I don’t wanna be here I just wanna die
Always been sad It'll never be alright
Please come and save me I really need saving
These are not just lyrics I’m really not playing
This life that I’m living I feel like I’m faking
If I can’t be real then it time for the taking
Come take my life and my soul
When I’m not even old
I been searching for hot cause my heart is so cold
Say I don't listen not doing I’m told
Don’t fit the system I’ll never be gold
If I hit escape would i just fall and go to hell
Moses say I would but who is he to go and tell
Wanna judge me now but not gon hear me when I yell
I been crying out said I really need some help
Nobody wanna talk nobody picking up the vibes
Smile on my face but they can’t tell that it’s a lie
Cover for the sorrow that I’m feeling deep inside
Hit em with the shock when they hear i wanna die
Why oh why
I don’t wanna be here I just wanna die
Always been sad It'll never be alright
Why oh why
I don’t wanna be here I just wanna die
Always been sad It'll never be alright
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Lyrics:
Maybe I can be so sad when I’m not
Life can be so lonely and I’m stuck up in the thoughts
Everything I’m wanting I can have it at the top
But I’m at the bottom I’m surrounded by the rocks
If I had love would I still feel this lonely
I was by myself and nobody had to show me
Never gave a fuck nobody tried to know me
Handing out these guns but nobody tryna blow me
I don’t wanna be here I just wanna go
Wanna leave my family everybody that I know
Suicidal thought will they miss me when I go
Tryna get high i been riding all the lows
Finally getting sober and it bringing back the pain
Sunny for a minute now it’s cloudy with the rain
Shit falling down and it bringing back mistakes
Future looking blurry I don’t see it in my fate
Why oh why
I don’t wanna be here I just wanna die
Always been sad It'll never be alright
Why oh why
I don’t wanna be here I just wanna die
Always been sad It'll never be alright
Please come and save me I really need saving
These are not just lyrics I’m really not playing
This life that I’m living I feel like I’m faking
If I can’t be real then it time for the taking
Come take my life and my soul
When I’m not even old
I been searching for hot cause my heart is so cold
Say I don't listen not doing I’m told
Don’t fit the system I’ll never be gold
If I hit escape would i just fall and go to hell
Moses say I would but who is he to go and tell
Wanna judge me now but not gon hear me when I yell
I been crying out said I really need some help
Nobody wanna talk nobody picking up the vibes
Smile on my face but they can’t tell that it’s a lie
Cover for the sorrow that I’m feeling deep inside
Hit em with the shock when they hear i wanna die
Why oh why
I don’t wanna be here I just wanna die
Always been sad It'll never be alright
Why oh why
I don’t wanna be here I just wanna die
Always been sad It'll never be alright
