Uploaded September 2025 | Updated September 2026, 4 days ago
Oh, um, hi! decided to read huh?… Ok then.
Well, I want to do more to refine my skills and try new things, but I'm struggling again with my anxiety. It's MUCH better than how it was just a year or two before, and I'm aware and acknowledge it's at a chronic level and that won't go away (though I wish it weren't the case). I'm doing better, but my anxiety still hinders me in some cases and or events, almost severely. Another thing I have been diagnosed with is CPTSD (Complex post-traumatic stress disorder), and when mixed with my anxiety and ADHD, it can create such strong emotions that I cannot cope at times, needing to be removed from the scene.
I also sometimes feel as though, as soon as I have some slack to try making my own life choices, I'm suddenly yanked back by someone or something who wishes to interfere. Making statements that I'm not making the right choice, it's for the "best", or simply forcing me into a situation I had no desire to be a part of. What a mess, huh? This feeling is what inspired this particular piece.
Oh, um, hi! decided to read huh?… Ok then.
Well, I want to do more to refine my skills and try new things, but I'm struggling again with my anxiety. It's MUCH better than how it was just a year or two before, and I'm aware and acknowledge it's at a chronic level and that won't go away (though I wish it weren't the case). I'm doing better, but my anxiety still hinders me in some cases and or events, almost severely. Another thing I have been diagnosed with is CPTSD (Complex post-traumatic stress disorder), and when mixed with my anxiety and ADHD, it can create such strong emotions that I cannot cope at times, needing to be removed from the scene.
I also sometimes feel as though, as soon as I have some slack to try making my own life choices, I'm suddenly yanked back by someone or something who wishes to interfere. Making statements that I'm not making the right choice, it's for the "best", or simply forcing me into a situation I had no desire to be a part of. What a mess, huh? This feeling is what inspired this particular piece.
