Uploaded October 2025 | Updated September 2026, 3 weeks ago
This is the reason why I made the name Schizomanicman. I am a CODA (Child of Deaf Adults), and when I was a kid, people used to take the piss... But I always fought back, and hit much harder. I wrote a poem a very long time ago now, and this is the realisation of it into song. This one is for me.
Lyrics:
[Intro]
You fucking made me—
Now choke on what you built.
[Verse 1]
I was just a kid, you smug piece of shit
Taught your spawn to laugh while I took the hit
You pointed fingers, made me the freak
Now I’m the monster that you helped breed
You wore your hate like a badge of pride
I swallowed silence while you crucified
But I kept the names, I kept the scars
Kept them warm like lanterns in the dark
[Pre-Chorus]
You thought I’d break, thought I’d bend
You were dead wrong — I’m the end
[Chorus]
I’m the scream behind your smile
The reckoning you denied
I’m the fire in your veins
The blade that carves your name
You’ll pay for every goddamn mile
[Verse 2]
You taught them how to throw the stones
I learned to throw them back, break bones
I stood my ground and cracked your heads
Left your arrogance soaked in red
I didn’t beg, I didn’t cry
I learned the art of making men lie still
You birthed a soldier out of spite
Now I march at noon to end your night
[Pre-Chorus]
You thought I’d break, thought I’d bend
You were dead wrong — I’m the end
[Chorus]
I’m the scream behind your smile
The reckoning you denied
I’m the fire in your veins
The blade that carves your name
You’ll pay for every goddamn mile
[Instrumental]
[Verse 3 — cold, predatory]
I count the debts by crooked teeth
I trace the lies beneath your wreath
Every shove you gifted me
I sharpened into industry
I don’t forgive — that’s for the weak
I harvest terror when you sleep
You made the lesson, I paid the fee
Now I cash in with brutality
[Pre-Chorus — rising]
You thought I’d break, thought I’d bend
You were dead wrong — I’m the end
[Chorus — stacked, crushing]
I’m the scream behind your smile
The reckoning you denied
I’m the fire in your veins
The blade that carves your name
You’ll pay for every goddamn mile
[Bridge]
No mercy.
No peace.
No fucking forgiveness.
Just me — and the patience of a killer.
[Breakdown]
You taught me hate. I made it art.
I struck the vein and stopped your heart.
You fed the poison; I became the cure.
No redemption—only more.
[Extended Breakdown]
I broke them once. I’ll break them twice.
I keep your fear tucked in my coat
Wear it when I speak your name aloud
I don’t forget, I don’t relent
I am the sentence you invented
When morning comes you’ll taste the debt
When evening falls you’ll feel regret
You carved my bones — I carved your fate
This is the hour you should have stayed awake
[Final Chorus — obliterating]
I’m the scream behind your smile
The reckoning you denied
I’m the fire in your veins
The blade that carves your name
You’ll pay for every goddamn mile
[Outro — cold, final]
You fucking made me—
Now I’ll make you bleed.
This is the reason why I made the name Schizomanicman. I am a CODA (Child of Deaf Adults), and when I was a kid, people used to take the piss... But I always fought back, and hit much harder. I wrote a poem a very long time ago now, and this is the realisation of it into song. This one is for me.
Lyrics:
[Intro]
You fucking made me—
Now choke on what you built.
[Verse 1]
I was just a kid, you smug piece of shit
Taught your spawn to laugh while I took the hit
You pointed fingers, made me the freak
Now I’m the monster that you helped breed
You wore your hate like a badge of pride
I swallowed silence while you crucified
But I kept the names, I kept the scars
Kept them warm like lanterns in the dark
[Pre-Chorus]
You thought I’d break, thought I’d bend
You were dead wrong — I’m the end
[Chorus]
I’m the scream behind your smile
The reckoning you denied
I’m the fire in your veins
The blade that carves your name
You’ll pay for every goddamn mile
[Verse 2]
You taught them how to throw the stones
I learned to throw them back, break bones
I stood my ground and cracked your heads
Left your arrogance soaked in red
I didn’t beg, I didn’t cry
I learned the art of making men lie still
You birthed a soldier out of spite
Now I march at noon to end your night
[Pre-Chorus]
You thought I’d break, thought I’d bend
You were dead wrong — I’m the end
[Chorus]
I’m the scream behind your smile
The reckoning you denied
I’m the fire in your veins
The blade that carves your name
You’ll pay for every goddamn mile
[Instrumental]
[Verse 3 — cold, predatory]
I count the debts by crooked teeth
I trace the lies beneath your wreath
Every shove you gifted me
I sharpened into industry
I don’t forgive — that’s for the weak
I harvest terror when you sleep
You made the lesson, I paid the fee
Now I cash in with brutality
[Pre-Chorus — rising]
You thought I’d break, thought I’d bend
You were dead wrong — I’m the end
[Chorus — stacked, crushing]
I’m the scream behind your smile
The reckoning you denied
I’m the fire in your veins
The blade that carves your name
You’ll pay for every goddamn mile
[Bridge]
No mercy.
No peace.
No fucking forgiveness.
Just me — and the patience of a killer.
[Breakdown]
You taught me hate. I made it art.
I struck the vein and stopped your heart.
You fed the poison; I became the cure.
No redemption—only more.
[Extended Breakdown]
I broke them once. I’ll break them twice.
I keep your fear tucked in my coat
Wear it when I speak your name aloud
I don’t forget, I don’t relent
I am the sentence you invented
When morning comes you’ll taste the debt
When evening falls you’ll feel regret
You carved my bones — I carved your fate
This is the hour you should have stayed awake
[Final Chorus — obliterating]
I’m the scream behind your smile
The reckoning you denied
I’m the fire in your veins
The blade that carves your name
You’ll pay for every goddamn mile
[Outro — cold, final]
You fucking made me—
Now I’ll make you bleed.
