Uploaded February 2016 | Updated September 2026, 14 hours ago

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"How Rare and Beautiful It Is To Even Exist"

Wow. Where do I even start with this one? I feel like this video was a long time coming. I haven't vidded supernatural in YEARS. Years. And it breaks my heart. But it is because it became so much more than it was five years ago. So many more emotions were poured into it with the additional six seasons that I didn't even know how to start. How did I pick a song? Did I try to do the whole series or focus on a storyline? HOW DO I DO THIS ANYMORE? Well. What I truly wanted was a video that encapsulated all of the emotion I feel about these two and this wonderfully heartbreakingly beautiful relationship that I have more love for than I can actually put into words... and this is it. This song is my favorite song ever. EVER. I have listened to it endlessly and I never though i'd be able to tackle it because of how big it is and how much emotion comes out of it. but with these two, it was the easiest thing in the world. The second I started I couldn't stop. I have been sitting at my computer chair for the majority of the last 48 hours and, for a girl who pretty much hasn't vidded in close to four years, got a 5 minute video out of it.... And its all because of these two boys.

I love them. I love this show. I love their story and their unconditional love for each other. I love how emotional they make me. I love this family. I love the people these two have brought me to. I feel like the luckiest person on the planet to have been able to be a part of this crazy supernatural family and to have such an amazing cast that keeps going because they love it just as much as we do. There is so much more I could say but I know i'm babbling. I just hope I portrayed my own emotions about them as well as their wonderful broken but beautiful brotherhood as well as I hope I did. So, enjoy this rollercoaster of emotions. And thank you all for sticking around. I miss you all so much :)

Special Dedication To:
Sequoya: I know you've lost track of this show and these boys but I know how much you loved them and still love them, and these two are one of the reasons I found you and I feel like the luckiest girl in the world to have found such an amazing friend through our love of the same things. I miss you all the time and everytime I TOUCH SPN for a video I think of you. I can't tell you how many times I wish you were on MSN so I could reference my human database of clip locations. I love you to the moon and back and I always will, and I hope that we will both be dedicating videos to each other years from now when we are old and grey.

And all of my other SPN ladies. GABY, EMMY, JENNA, TANJA, STEPH, MICHELLE, ASH, CHRISTINA. All of my babies who I still talk to and also the ones I haven't talked to in years. I dont even know if you're still on here, but I still watch your videos and I still think of you when I see anything supernatural. I found you all through this show and I love that so much. I hope you see this and I hope you love it.