Uploaded July 2020 | Updated September 2026, 2 weeks ago

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my original songs: youtube.com/playlist?list=PLK_x34Gzu38P9gNiDNdjK-s3h5LsqnXwG


Lyrics:

last night I had a dream that I was awake
my mind wasn't chained
finally I could escape time
that mine was a fate undefined by the pain
and I was finding my way through a time and a place
the likes of which I've only encountered at night in my brain
that could never be found in the world outside of it
way realer than life
and older than time
a home to my soul, once lost
that I've finally awoken inside
and as I'm moving through it, I'm peering through the past
and hearing its youth
while the seeing the youth of its future laugh
each of whom is breezing through it, thinking the view will last
and I feel the sting in the beauty of moving past
but this too will last
because this home I see is sown full of meaning
exactly the way it's supposed to be
then suddenly, I feel a sadness creep...
I have to leave
cuz I'm waking up again
to go back to sleep

when my eyes open they shed life on a long tear
never have I ever felt like I belonged here
year after long year
hearing this song clear
but not nearly able to sing what haunts me
are there any pieces of mine in this world?
there might have been, when I'd have given my life for this girl
but time has unfurled
the looking glass shattered
and so it seems
now the only time that I'm awake is when I go to sleep
and in my home I see a scene that washes over me
and cloaks the deepest part of my soul in a peace
that no one even could begin to comprehend
words would be air
cuz where it is I'm currently staring,
I would spend eternity there.
then how absurd to be caring what happens in this life
after that
guess it is why I feel like I'm practicing inside
when I'm back, having to sit and sigh
distracted for wishing I could entirely skip the night
and wake up home