[ Reminisce of childhood. ] { A distraction for myself } @RockOnRatchet95

Uploaded March 2019 | Updated September 2026, 2 weeks ago

Yesterday my mind simply started to force and shove bad thoughts into my head and I began to cry and simply feel very bad. This happened while I was finally editing another edit again, but I couldn't focus enough on that edit anymore as I felt like I hated what I was making. I looked up a tutorial for an effect that I wanted and I heard this song in the background of that tutorial. I quickly looked it up bc it sounded interesting, and I felt like this quickly became my current favorite song.
I also quickly began to get video ideas for an edit with this song, so, this was the result.
This isn't a vent edit, more of a simple distraction. Also since I didn't feel like the lyrics of the song, at the time, but more like the general sound of this song.
After finishing this edit, I didn't feel well again, and I felt like I was empty, just in a state of existing rather than feeling anything.
I would really like to say, tho, that I did begin to feel better later on, yesterday night, too, after I went on a spree of listening to active and happy music, hoping that it could help me feel better, which it did! After I think three or four songs, and some other things, I started smiling and feeling a bit happier again. This could also be a thing that I could try to do other times, and something that I might recommend y'all to try if you feel the need to! I know it can be hard to listen to anything positive, and also positve music, when you simply don't feel like it, but I've recently learned that it could help because your brain expects to see what it hears in the music, so it could try to generate the energy of the song into your emotions as well.
So today I'm doing good again.
I wasn't sure if I wanted to upload this but now I've decided to do so, since I have done a couple new-ish things in this edit, even if it's very simple.
Also my main focus in this edit wasn't the effects but simply to put emotion into it.
And honestly I want to say that I'm glad to be editing again after, what feels like, a very long time of not having the motivation to. We'll see if I'll end up finishing any project soon or not ^^''
I actually have mid-semester showcases happening rn, so, oof ^^''
Speaking of not editing for a while, I was actually wondering what it would be like to get back into the feel of editing. At first it was a little uncomfortable to edit this bc things weren't looking the way I wanted them to, but as I edited I finally got back into the zone of doing things and then I was able to do what I wanted.
Aaaand only as I began rendering I realized that I hadn't added my watermark, but I suppose that isn't a big problem here.
This also took 6 minutes and 34 seconds to render which is very good ^^
I also wanted to add lyrics for the start of the chorus but by the end of making this, I didn't have the energy to. I simply wanted to get this done and over with.

This wasn't the first thing I imagined that I would upload after this time, but maybe that edit will see the light of day sometime soon too ^^ We'll just have to wait and see.

With all of this being said, I hope that y'all enjoy this very simple, and honestly, emotional edit. And have a good day/night as well.

~

Song: Rauf & Faik - Детство
Program: Sony Vegas Pro 14
Layers: 20
Time taken: 3 hours
Media: Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children, Crisis Core: Final Fantasy VII, Final Fantasy VIII

$[ Reminisce of childhood. ] { A distraction for myself } Yesterday my mind simply started to force and shove bad thoughts into my head and I began to cry and simply feel very bad. This happened while I was finally editing another edit again, but I couldnt focus enough on that edit anymore as I felt like I hated what I was making. I looked up a tutorial for an effect that I wanted and I heard this song in the background of that tutorial. I quickly looked it up bc it sounded interesting, and I felt like this quickly became my current favorite song. I also quickly began to get video ideas for an edit with this song, so, this was the result. This isnt a vent edit, more of a simple distraction. Also since I didnt feel like the lyrics of the song, at the time, but more like the general sound of this song. After finishing this edit, I didnt feel well again, and I felt like I was empty, just in a state of existing rather than feeling anything. I would really like to say, tho, that I did begin to feel better later on, yesterday night, too, after I went on a spree of listening to active and happy music, hoping that it could help me feel better, which it did! After I think three or four songs, and some other things, I started smiling and feeling a bit happier again. This could also be a thing that I could try to do other times, and something that I might recommend yall to try if you feel the need to! I know it can be hard to listen to anything positive, and also positve music, when you simply dont feel like it, but Ive recently learned that it could help because your brain expects to see what it hears in the music, so it could try to generate the energy of the song into your emotions as well. So today Im doing good again. I wasnt sure if I wanted to upload this but now Ive decided to do so, since I have done a couple new-ish things in this edit, even if its very simple. Also my main focus in this edit wasnt the effects but simply to put emotion into it. And honestly I want to say that Im glad to be editing again after, what feels like, a very long time of not having the motivation to. Well see if Ill end up finishing any project soon or not ^^ I actually have mid-semester showcases happening rn, so, oof ^^ Speaking of not editing for a while, I was actually wondering what it would be like to get back into the feel of editing. At first it was a little uncomfortable to edit this bc things werent looking the way I wanted them to, but as I edited I finally got back into the zone of doing things and then I was able to do what I wanted. Aaaand only as I began rendering I realized that I hadnt added my watermark, but I suppose that isnt a big problem here. This also took 6 minutes and 34 seconds to render which is very good ^^ I also wanted to add lyrics for the start of the chorus but by the end of making this, I didnt have the energy to. I simply wanted to get this done and over with. This wasnt the first thing I imagined that I would upload after this time, but maybe that edit will see the light of day sometime soon too ^^ Well just have to wait and see. With all of this being said, I hope that yall enjoy this very simple, and honestly, emotional edit. And have a good day/night as well. ~ Song: Rauf & Faik - Детство Program: Sony Vegas Pro 14 Layers: 20 Time taken: 3 hours Media: Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children, Crisis Core: Final Fantasy VII, Final Fantasy VIII$ ${{ Blind edit }} [ No RAM previewing ] This was a seriously random idea XD This started when I was talking to BethTheFallen, and she wanted to say deaf edit at one point but she accidentally said blind edit and then I was struck with a catastrophe of an idea XD My first thought was that I could cover my eyes by tying a scarf over them, and she could try to tell me where my cursor is on the screen, but since that Disaster went exactly Nowhere, I tried a form of a blind edit that she suggested - to make an edit but not watch it on the preview screen - basically, I wasnt allowed to RAM preview this and hear it with the audio, or hear any audio, and I could only use my arrow keys as a form of previewing. What made it difficult was that the waveforms for this song all seem so...similar, so it was kinda hard to tell whats what sometimes, and Im kinda annoyed that I did something off the beat near the end XD Also yes, its this song again. Heavily inspired by my season 0 The Devil edit bc what is Effort XD Now that I think back to it, it wouldve been neat if I at least added the orange-yellowish color of Haous eyes into the isolated colors, but oh well. I had literally no other idea for what song to use, and I thought that this song is generally fun to edit with, so ye. The overall idea of an edit with this song and Judai and Haou actually came to me about a month ago - but it was def meant to be a more professional edit than this. I also wanted to use that same clip and audio that I used here at the end, but it was meant for a different point in the song. The ending of it, to be precise. There were points where I accidentally pressed the spacebar, and therefore I heard the little part at 0:08, but oh well. At least then I knew that it was on the beat XD Speaking of beats, this result feels interesting, but very wrong to me??? Everything feels misplaced, oml XD The only thing that I knew was gonna be the way it was was the start - I knew that that part was gonna have those lyrics, so thats the only one I added lyrics _to._ I didnt even try with the flickers. I only added one. I was pretty surprised when I finally RAM previewed this after I felt like I was done. First of all I was surprised that my laptop was able to preview the whole video at once without me needing to cut the watching into little pieces. But I really felt like there were missed opportunities here XD I did a little cheating, maybe, at the end, bc I changed the position of the anime audio and the fades a little, but I didnt touch the actual clips. This whole thing was like a deaf edit except I knew what song I was using and I wasnt able to play the thing lol Aaaalright, guess thats all! Hope yall enjoy this, and have a great day/night c: ~ Song: Blue Stahli - The Devil Program: Sony Vegas Pro 14 Layers: 6 Time taken: ~4 hours (it took 2 hours and 21 minutes to render) Media: Yu-Gi-Oh! GX$

Tifa Lockhart and Aerith Gainsborough // Only A Girl ; [ Dedication ]