Uploaded April 2020 | Updated September 2026, 14 hours ago

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Lyrics:
Why do I always end up the enemy in my mind?
Racing with fear and jealousy
How are you laughing and smiling so easily?
Every day playing pretend takes it out of me
I just want to feel that thrill

For the first time I don't wanna die
Still I'm never satisfied
Can't see eye to eye for the life of me
And I'll tell you how I feel inside
But your mind is occupied
There's more important things to do than pity me

Sometimes I don't even give them the time of day
I'm just passing time until I can say what I wanna say
It's a state of mind
I feed off of you and I need it to breathe

For the first time I don't wanna die
Still I'm never satisfied
Can't see eye to eye for the life of me
And I'll tell you how I feel inside
But your mind is occupied
There's more important things to do than pity me

Never have I lived so hard
Never have I loved so much
Never have I crashed so low
Never has my heart just thud
Never have I hurt so much
Never have I cried so long
Never have I felt so high
Never was my trust so strong
Remember
Do you remember what you started?
Remember how you tore me apart when we parted?
Remember
Remember singing out my name
Thought I'd never feel like that
Thought I'd never love again
Remember
The promises they said you'd break
Warnings I ignored cause you didn't make me feel insane
Remember
I couldn't bring myself to breathe
The years I went without 'cause I thought that I had everything
Remember
Remember
Remember
Remember
Remember
Remember