Radiarc | Radiarc - You may not rest now @Radiarc_ | Uploaded June 2024 | Updated October 2024, 12 hours ago.
There are monsters nearby.
deviantart.com/freeedon/art/Sunshine-656571465
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/you-may-not-rest-now (it's free, just enter 0)
As I stare up into the open sky, an ethereal blaze casts forth heavenly rays, brushing in shimmers across a vast, breezy field of gold. I sit briefly to rest, to feel the land's embrace, but I know where I am, and what lurks beyond. Through the waving grains walk the old ones, beasts great and small, prowling without end, relentless to all else disturbing their brutish peace. There is no reasoning with them, few remain to tell of them, and most refuse to recall they'd ever witnessed them. Looking forward, there is no way around, only through, and I take what moments of stillness I can find.
Things never quite seem as they are, and I find as much in taking my first steps forward. Swiftly, I am noticed and marked to be devoured, and the fields spring to life with ravenous intent. Through many moments, I find no opening, and I pay for it with blood atop waning sanity, but exhausted and wounded, I escape their grasp. The plains stretch onward as far as I see, and all throughout wanders chaos untamed. Passing horde after horde, I think back to the time not so long ago when there was nothing but the knowledge of what was to become reality, admiring the deceptive allure of this place. Moments of rest into a world of conflict, but I still breathe, and I still fight through. After a while, time slips away from me almost entirely, and I only act. None leave this place without facing death, painted generously over the face of all who reside here, decorating every den of gnarled behemoths. On the horizon, docile pastures lie in waiting, verdant, dormant, beckoning, and I sprint with the last of my will despite the rage trailing my every step. As I near the fields' edge, the watchful eyes wane and the roars quiet to a muted fury permeating the air, soon vanishing into an uneasy silence. I stop to breathe, to recollect, and I look back to the fields. It's a wonder I ever make it through; none are meant to be there, and any in disbelief find themselves immediately mistaken. I enjoy the journey, though, and I'm certain I will find myself in the eye of that storm once again. Nature is truly fascinating.
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I struggled a lot with this one, not necessarily in composition, but in what I'm looking for in terms of sound. Usually I don't think that much about it, but I know my uploads are pretty quiet in comparison to a lot of other videos, and some of it has to do with me going off of LMMS's redline and the rest is me knowing absolutely nothing about mastering. I kinda just make stuff and upload it when I feel it sounds about right, but as of late, I've really questioned what that is, and how much it matters. I want to keep getting better, assuredly, but it can take a very long time to get it to sound "perfect", which takes away from time I could spend just coming up with something new. I tried some different things with this one to try to bring the elements out more without making too much of a "drone", but it might sound a bit strange. I'll never know how much it really matters, but I suppose it's worth it a shot.
As far as the rest goes, I've been away from social media because things haven't been so well in real life, and it doesn't feel very good to only have bad things to share with people. I'd rather try to remain productive and have something to show for it than to keep showing up when I'm really not up for talking. Work has me worn out most days, and I kind of want to shut everything out and unwind, but I recognize that I have connections, and I want to be there for who I can be. I haven't been able to find a good balance as of late, which leads to a lot of late responses, but I give what I feel I'm able to. I guess I also was never prepared to see so many people respond to my work, or to me; I used to care about views, but I just wanted to get better and keep going, so over time, I didn't really think much beyond that. I'm stunned by many of the comments I receive, and I truly don't know how to respond, I'm just immensely grateful anyone would speak so kindly. It's a big part of what pushes me to keep producing, and I hope what I've made is enjoyable.
As last time, a compilation of most of what I've made can be found here:
https://onlymares.horse/Radiarc.zip
WIPs, unreleased stuff, and all that.
I don't like a lot of my old stuff, or even some of my more recent stuff, but I leave it all because it's a marker of progress. I started with no knowledge of DAWs or really anything in regards to music production and orchestral, and over time, I picked up concepts and better instruments, and applied it to the degree that I could over time. I've felt like most people are way ahead of me, and I really don't know how my music sounds to others, which leads to me worrying a lot about what I upload. I want to make sure I've genuinely tried.
There are monsters nearby.
deviantart.com/freeedon/art/Sunshine-656571465
radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/you-may-not-rest-now (it's free, just enter 0)
As I stare up into the open sky, an ethereal blaze casts forth heavenly rays, brushing in shimmers across a vast, breezy field of gold. I sit briefly to rest, to feel the land's embrace, but I know where I am, and what lurks beyond. Through the waving grains walk the old ones, beasts great and small, prowling without end, relentless to all else disturbing their brutish peace. There is no reasoning with them, few remain to tell of them, and most refuse to recall they'd ever witnessed them. Looking forward, there is no way around, only through, and I take what moments of stillness I can find.
Things never quite seem as they are, and I find as much in taking my first steps forward. Swiftly, I am noticed and marked to be devoured, and the fields spring to life with ravenous intent. Through many moments, I find no opening, and I pay for it with blood atop waning sanity, but exhausted and wounded, I escape their grasp. The plains stretch onward as far as I see, and all throughout wanders chaos untamed. Passing horde after horde, I think back to the time not so long ago when there was nothing but the knowledge of what was to become reality, admiring the deceptive allure of this place. Moments of rest into a world of conflict, but I still breathe, and I still fight through. After a while, time slips away from me almost entirely, and I only act. None leave this place without facing death, painted generously over the face of all who reside here, decorating every den of gnarled behemoths. On the horizon, docile pastures lie in waiting, verdant, dormant, beckoning, and I sprint with the last of my will despite the rage trailing my every step. As I near the fields' edge, the watchful eyes wane and the roars quiet to a muted fury permeating the air, soon vanishing into an uneasy silence. I stop to breathe, to recollect, and I look back to the fields. It's a wonder I ever make it through; none are meant to be there, and any in disbelief find themselves immediately mistaken. I enjoy the journey, though, and I'm certain I will find myself in the eye of that storm once again. Nature is truly fascinating.
----------
I struggled a lot with this one, not necessarily in composition, but in what I'm looking for in terms of sound. Usually I don't think that much about it, but I know my uploads are pretty quiet in comparison to a lot of other videos, and some of it has to do with me going off of LMMS's redline and the rest is me knowing absolutely nothing about mastering. I kinda just make stuff and upload it when I feel it sounds about right, but as of late, I've really questioned what that is, and how much it matters. I want to keep getting better, assuredly, but it can take a very long time to get it to sound "perfect", which takes away from time I could spend just coming up with something new. I tried some different things with this one to try to bring the elements out more without making too much of a "drone", but it might sound a bit strange. I'll never know how much it really matters, but I suppose it's worth it a shot.
As far as the rest goes, I've been away from social media because things haven't been so well in real life, and it doesn't feel very good to only have bad things to share with people. I'd rather try to remain productive and have something to show for it than to keep showing up when I'm really not up for talking. Work has me worn out most days, and I kind of want to shut everything out and unwind, but I recognize that I have connections, and I want to be there for who I can be. I haven't been able to find a good balance as of late, which leads to a lot of late responses, but I give what I feel I'm able to. I guess I also was never prepared to see so many people respond to my work, or to me; I used to care about views, but I just wanted to get better and keep going, so over time, I didn't really think much beyond that. I'm stunned by many of the comments I receive, and I truly don't know how to respond, I'm just immensely grateful anyone would speak so kindly. It's a big part of what pushes me to keep producing, and I hope what I've made is enjoyable.
As last time, a compilation of most of what I've made can be found here:
https://onlymares.horse/Radiarc.zip
WIPs, unreleased stuff, and all that.
I don't like a lot of my old stuff, or even some of my more recent stuff, but I leave it all because it's a marker of progress. I started with no knowledge of DAWs or really anything in regards to music production and orchestral, and over time, I picked up concepts and better instruments, and applied it to the degree that I could over time. I've felt like most people are way ahead of me, and I really don't know how my music sounds to others, which leads to me worrying a lot about what I upload. I want to make sure I've genuinely tried.
