Matthew LuppinoBased On Real Events. Life is a balance of holding on and letting go. As Matthew Luppino reflects on his past, he finds closure in the small fragments of his life.
Winner of 50 international awards including: Best Short Film Best Long Short Film Best Drama Best Romance Best Cinematography Best Screenplay Best Original Screenplay Best Director Best Original Director Best Editing Short Film Best Actor
“Fragments” has earned another 19 other nominations as well.
Showcased all around the world from Los Angeles, California; South Pasadena, California; Las Vegas, Nevada; New York, New York; Jacksonville, Florida; Chicago, Illinois; Atlanta, Georgia; Hawaii; Mexico City, Mexico; Rome, Italy; Florence, Italy; London, England; Zurich, Switzerland; Geneva, Switzerland; Amsterdam, Netherlands; Paris, France; Berlin, Germany; Barcelona, Spain; Tokyo, Japan; Sillod, MaharashtraI, India; Aurangabad, Maharashtra, India; Sydney, Australia; To here at home in Montreal, Vancouver, and Toronto, Canada.
Written, Directed, And Produced By: Matthew Luppino Story By: Matthew Luppino and Laura Luppino
Starring: Matthew Luppino as Younger Matt/Himself Laura Luppino as Therapist/Herself
Executive Producers: Laura Luppino Stephen Goulet
Director of Photography/Cinematography: Matthew Luppino
Camera Operators: Matthew Luppino Laura Luppino Stephen Goulet Jesse Miceli
Editor: Matthew Luppino
Boom Operator: Matthew Luppino Stephen Goulet Laura Luppino
Gaffer: Matthew Luppino Stephen Goulet Laura Luppino
Visual Effects: Matthew Luppino
Music: ILLENIUM, Teddy Swims All That Really Matters WMG (on behalf of Warner Records Label); Sony Music Publishing,BMI Broadcast Music Inc., Ultra Publishing, MRRA,,Reservoir Media (Publishing), laris Hub AB, and 4 Music Rights Societies
(No Copyright Music) By: Scott Buckley Broken Elegance Vlad Gluschenko Alex Productions Punch Deck Adi Goldstein
Special Thanks: Laura Luppino Stephen Goulet Jesse Miceli Michelle O'Neil Kim Luppino Guy Luppino Andrew Luppino Jessica Lavergne Diana Dutka Amanda Pare Photography Storyblocks
Locations: Essex, Ontario, Canada McGeachy Pond Conservation Area, Erieau, Ontario, Canada Point Pelee National Park, Ontario, Canada Tecumseh, Ontario, Canada Kingsville, Ontario, Canada Wheatley Provincial Park, Chatham-Kent, Ontario, Canada Lakeshore, Ontario, Canada Windsor, Ontario, Canada
Shot on a Canon 5D Mark III with Carl Zeiss Prime Lenses
A huge thank you to Canon and Carl Zeiss for helping me tell my story and create my vision.
Fragments - Official Short Film [4K]Matthew Luppino2023-09-18 | Based On Real Events. Life is a balance of holding on and letting go. As Matthew Luppino reflects on his past, he finds closure in the small fragments of his life.
Winner of 50 international awards including: Best Short Film Best Long Short Film Best Drama Best Romance Best Cinematography Best Screenplay Best Original Screenplay Best Director Best Original Director Best Editing Short Film Best Actor
“Fragments” has earned another 19 other nominations as well.
Showcased all around the world from Los Angeles, California; South Pasadena, California; Las Vegas, Nevada; New York, New York; Jacksonville, Florida; Chicago, Illinois; Atlanta, Georgia; Hawaii; Mexico City, Mexico; Rome, Italy; Florence, Italy; London, England; Zurich, Switzerland; Geneva, Switzerland; Amsterdam, Netherlands; Paris, France; Berlin, Germany; Barcelona, Spain; Tokyo, Japan; Sillod, MaharashtraI, India; Aurangabad, Maharashtra, India; Sydney, Australia; To here at home in Montreal, Vancouver, and Toronto, Canada.
Written, Directed, And Produced By: Matthew Luppino Story By: Matthew Luppino and Laura Luppino
Starring: Matthew Luppino as Younger Matt/Himself Laura Luppino as Therapist/Herself
Executive Producers: Laura Luppino Stephen Goulet
Director of Photography/Cinematography: Matthew Luppino
Camera Operators: Matthew Luppino Laura Luppino Stephen Goulet Jesse Miceli
Editor: Matthew Luppino
Boom Operator: Matthew Luppino Stephen Goulet Laura Luppino
Gaffer: Matthew Luppino Stephen Goulet Laura Luppino
Visual Effects: Matthew Luppino
Music: ILLENIUM, Teddy Swims All That Really Matters WMG (on behalf of Warner Records Label); Sony Music Publishing,BMI Broadcast Music Inc., Ultra Publishing, MRRA,,Reservoir Media (Publishing), laris Hub AB, and 4 Music Rights Societies
(No Copyright Music) By: Scott Buckley Broken Elegance Vlad Gluschenko Alex Productions Punch Deck Adi Goldstein
Special Thanks: Laura Luppino Stephen Goulet Jesse Miceli Michelle O'Neil Kim Luppino Guy Luppino Andrew Luppino Jessica Lavergne Diana Dutka Amanda Pare Photography Storyblocks
Locations: Essex, Ontario, Canada McGeachy Pond Conservation Area, Erieau, Ontario, Canada Point Pelee National Park, Ontario, Canada Tecumseh, Ontario, Canada Kingsville, Ontario, Canada Wheatley Provincial Park, Chatham-Kent, Ontario, Canada Lakeshore, Ontario, Canada Windsor, Ontario, Canada
Shot on a Canon 5D Mark III with Carl Zeiss Prime Lenses
A huge thank you to Canon and Carl Zeiss for helping me tell my story and create my vision.
#luppostudios #fragments #grief #awardwinning #drama #romance #adventure #loveFragments - Official Trailer [4K]Matthew Luppino2023-03-20 | Based On Real Events. Life is a balance of holding on and letting go. As Matthew Luppino reflects on his past, he finds closure in the small fragments of his life.
Winner of 50 international awards including: Best Short Film Best Long Short Film Best Drama Best Romance Best Cinematography Best Screenplay Best Original Screenplay Best Director Best Original Director Best Editing Short Film Best Actor
“Fragments” has earned another 19 other nominations as well.
Showcased all around the world from Los Angeles, California; South Pasadena, California; Las Vegas, Nevada; New York, New York; Jacksonville, Florida; Chicago, Illinois; Atlanta, Georgia; Hawaii; Mexico City, Mexico; Rome, Italy; Florence, Italy; London, England; Zurich, Switzerland; Geneva, Switzerland; Amsterdam, Netherlands; Paris, France; Berlin, Germany; Barcelona, Spain; Tokyo, Japan; Sillod, MaharashtraI, India; Aurangabad, Maharashtra, India; Sydney, Australia; To here at home in Montreal, Vancouver, and Toronto, Canada.
Starring: Matthew Luppino & Laura Luppino Executive Producers: Laura Luppino, Stephen Goulet Cinematography: Matthew Luppino Camera Operators: Matthew Luppino, Laura Luppino, Stephen Goulet, Jesse Miceli Editor: Matthew Luppino Boom Operator: Matthew Luppino, Stephen Goulet, Laura Luppino Gaffer: Matthew Luppino, Stephen Goulet, Laura Luppino Visual Effects: Matthew Luppino Music: Adventures — CRASTEL (No Copyright Music)
Special Thanks: Laura Luppino, Stephen Goulet, Jesse Miceli, Michelle O'Neil, Kim Luppino ,Guy Luppino, Andrew Luppino, Jessica Lavergne, Diana Dutka, Amanda Pare Photography, Storyblocks
#luppostudios #fragments #grief #awardwinning #drama #romance #adventure #mentalhealth #therapyLove Always Finds A Way - The Luppino Wedding (09.26.2020)Matthew Luppino2021-09-26 | The Luppino Wedding (09.26.2020)
Against all odds, in the middle of a pandemic, Matthew Luppino and Laura Holman (Laura Luppino) finally tie the knot under the tree in their own backyard at 3PM on September 26th, 2020. Love always finds a way.
Starring: Matthew Luppino & Laura Luppino
Directed By: Matthew Luppino Director Of Photography: Matthew Luppino
Camera Operators: Matthew Luppino Jesse Miceli Aaron Demars
Second Camera Unit: Nikki Talic Jessica Modestino Courtney Holman Jessica Luppino
Edited By: Matthew Luppino Visual Effects By: Matthew Luppino
Music: Wanted - Hunted Hayes Just The Way You Are - Bruno Mars Cover - The Piano Guys
Special Thanks To: Laura Luppino
Aaron Demars Jesse Miceli Stephen Goulet Andrew Luppino
Jessica Modestino Sarah Holman Jessica Luppino Courtney Holman Ashley Holman
Kim Luppino Guy Luppino
Marilyn Hamelin
Ninfa Luppino Jack Luppino
Bill Holman Tammy Krabbenbos Kinsley Holman Frank Portelli Essi Mccandless
Marie Holman Craig Holman
Doug Carr
Austin Mcqueen Jordan Lavergne
Ross Luppino Alessia Luppino
Vendors:
Amanda Pare - Amanda Pare Photography Lorraine Parent and Decorating Team - Anything and Everything Gord Raymond - Beats Per Minute Disc Jockey Service Gloria and Murray Steacy - Royal Wedding Gardens Chapel
Windsor Cruze Limousines
Jeanie Campbell - Old School Cakes
Koolini's - Food Don Malek - The Party Rental Company Sophies Gown Shoppe Windsor
Freeds of Windsor Just Cork It - Lasalle Jeff and Lisa Gaspar - Projector
Produced by: GYVUS Written, Recorded, Mixed and Mastered by: Matthew Luppino Written By: Matthew Luppino And Laura Luppino
Starring: Matthew Luppino
Directed By: Matthew Luppino Director Of Photography: Matthew Luppino Camera Operator: Laura Luppino
Edited By: Matthew Luppino Visual Effects By: Matthew Luppino
Special Thanks To: Laura Luppino
Official Lyrics:
1st Verse: It’s like when I grip the mic All I do is swing at strikes See, you and me, we are not alike
You’re a mac and I’m a PC Opposites in this industry When I’m in the zone, I am finally free eh No body Will ever work as hard as me
Working hard, saving for a dream Losing my self-esteem
Me and my fiancé are a team Out here plotting a new scheme
Now I know it’s been a minute I’ll admit But I’m back on my shit
Scheming, daydreaming Just caught in my feelings They come and go like the seasons
Going back and forth, trying to find the urge to write I see the spark in sight But how do you paint the picture when you only see black and white?
So I got engaged And now I trace the lines on the page And erase the rhymes filled with rage And embrace the girl waiting for me back stage
Damn man I missed this feeling Tried to bottle it but I missed the meaning Tried to write all my demons But I’m still breathing Under water, under the ceiling Inside my home, they are still feeding Off my heart, internally bleedin’ Now I keep seeing And hearing Voice of reason Trying to tell me to give up, to stop dreaming It’s got me sleeping On my work, freezing On the mic, while I write, needing More to this game than I thought, leaving The past behind but losing my entire being So now I’m cleaning out my closet I met the love of my life She told me don’t stop believing
So, I’ve been doing me I’ve been writing free Yeah, doing what’s meant to be
Riding around with my queen Pulling up in a limousine On my way to the silver screen I’m off the meds, I’m finally clean
And I visualize Life neutralized And I realized This is “the rise”
In the middle of the night I found my way to the light So now I write About all the demons I used to fight
Yeah, the worst is over, yeah I survived Happy to say that I feel good inside I’ve killed the thought of suicide I’m back, yeah I revived
And now looking back in retrospect I guess I did resurrect
As an artist It was in the days that were the darkest That I started to harness My love and rise above the darkness
Like a phoenix from the ashes I had to burn, to find my passion Now it’s movie magic Lights, camera, action
You only get one life, so now I’m down to the wire Soaring higher In pursuit of setting my soul on fire
I'm following my destiny By giving the world the best of me This divine design is my human supremacy So like the phoenix, I’m back to leave my legacy
Written, Directed, And Produced By: Matthew Luppino Starring: Matthew Luppino
Executive Producers: Laura Luppino Stephen Goulet
Pete Pestowka Michelle O'Neill
Cinematography: Matthew Luppino
Camera Operators: Matthew Luppino Laura Luppino Stephen Goulet
Grip: Stephen Goulet
Editor: Matthew Luppino Visual Effects: Matthew Luppino
Music: Matthew Luppino
Special Thanks: Laura Luppino Michelle O'Neill Stephen Goulet Pete Pestowka
Filmed at The Windsor Amateur Boxing Club, Windsor, Ontario, Canada.
Official Lyrics:
1st Verse: Living life in the extremes Manic bipolar is what I mean
Have you ever taken a loss? Gave it everything you had and still failed Been knocked down, take a deep breath, and inhale This is just a classic tale Of an underdog, back against the rail Let me tell you why you'll prevail
So you've lost of all hope And you're backs against the ropes Down and out, so I ask you what's next? Yeah okay, okay I guess I'm perplexed That answer is So complex
I know it's hard, but don't give in, think back to your aspirations Your inspiration, your motivation, What was your salvation? Why are you quitting on the dream you've been chasing?
So you lost the drive, not the destination Now that your hearts racing Trust that sensation That is the foundation To your every creation
Hook: Yeah I know it's hard to proceed when you’re in defeat But just believe what is meant to be will be Back against the rope, it’s just me vs. me So find that hope and let it set you free
I know you’re lost in the dark, but don’t let your spark run out of light Just get back up and fight Back against the rope it’s just me vs. me So find that hope and let it set you free
2nd Verse: So when I won my first award, I was an inspiration But as I got better, the awards lost their sensation And I kept winning, but it’s like I lost the celebration And with every creation I was waiting For a new vibration
Some days I'm in this mood I can't break And sometimes I'm falling deeper in mistakes
I’m just a rapper with a dream Watching the stars as they gleam Shining like I’m designing My rhyming And I’m just defying Gravity
Now I’m Falling apart I gotta get back up and start Creating that art With all my heart
I’m just a diamond in the rough waiting for my time But people tend to throw rocks that always seem to shine So I’m just under pressure, following my design
So don’t give up in something you can’t see Have faith and find hope in what’s meant to be
Hook: Yeah I know it's hard to proceed when you’re in defeat But just believe what is meant to be will be Back against the rope, it’s just me vs. me So find that hope and let it set you free
I know you’re lost in the dark, but don’t let your spark run out of light Just get back up and fight Back against the rope it’s just me vs. me So find that hope and let it set you free
1st Verse: I'm so tired of the hatin' The constant fakin' Makin' False accusations Just be real, we could be amazin' Because my heart is still achin' Missing my pieces, waitin' Not loving what I’m creating So we’re Isolating
Yeah, we stopped communicating I love you but you ain’t reciprocating It’s devastating No, it’s fucking intoxicating Your love was so damn captivating So hate me, just know that I'm suffocatin' I am here for you, no matter what I'm facin'
Yeah, I’m still high off the butterflies I’m still drunk on your lies Sinking ships, drowning in your whisky eyes Why does love always have to die?
Blood in the water, we will never cleanse There’s truly no way to make amends I guess all good things must come to an end And I guess now we are no longer friends
Chorus: Remember all the memories we used to create? Now your memories of me have warped into hate And every time I think of you, I patiently await The day you'll want me back, sadly it will be too late
I've tried to go back and retrace But I've lost the memory of your face So I guess in life we just create and erase Yeah, we just create and erase
2nd verse: Take it from me, nothing feels the same I still see your face in my empty picture frames I guess my mind likes to play these little games Inside my brain, I'm burning by my own flames When can I erase your name?
You and I had a love that defied logic We almost had it but we fucking lost it And together we were psychotic We brought the best and worst out in each other, how ironic That we were so toxic A catastrophic Bittersweet Heartbeat
We had a love I still can’t explain And you and I went through so much pain Every fight, every storm, every hurricane But you and me, we were fucking insane
2017 Bonnie and Clyde And the truth is I’d Always stand by your side So just know I’m truly satisfied Because at least we can say we fucking tried
Chorus: Remember all the memories we used to create? Now your memories of me have warped into hate Every time I think of you, I patiently await The day you'll want me back, sadly it will be too late
I've tried to go back and retrace But I've lost the memory of your face So I guess in life we just create and erase Yeah, we just create and erase
Written, Recorded, Mixed and Mastered by: Matthew Luppino Produced by: tunnA Beatz Hook By: Mr. Probz
Starring: Matthew Luppino and Laura Luppino
Directed By: Matthew Luppino Director Of Photography: Matthew Luppino
Camera Operators: Matthew Luppino Laura Luppino Kim Luppino
Edited By: Matthew Luppino Visual Effects By: Matthew Luppino
Special Thanks To: Laura Luppino Kim Luppino
Official Lyrics: Waves
1st Verse:
You've made me a better artist But the pictures I've painted have made me heartless Took my craft to the limit so that I could capture and harness Now I'm the farthest I've ever been from being me Can't look myself in the mirror and envision where I want to be
Damn I don't recognize who I am Maybe it's masked behind all the work that I just keep creatin' Sedatin' My mind from fading Away to black That's why 50 songs later, I'm still writing the same old track
This shit used to be healing Then, one day I lost that feeling The urge to write wasn't so appealing Tragically trapping my thoughts under this ceiling
Couldn't raise the bar, no way to raise this roof Feeling so Claustrophobic in this booth Now trying to prove To myself I can do What I set my mind to
Emotionally distressed Lonely and depressed Just getting this demon off my chest
Hook: I'm slowly drifting away (drifting away) Wave after wave, wave after wave I'm slowly drifting (drifting away) And it feels like I'm drowning Pulling against the stream Pulling against the stream
2nd Verse:
Feeling emotional, the colours blended all the same 50 shades of shame Colours wash away in the morning rain Smeared and faded colours of emotional pain
God, where do I belong? I’m trying to do right but I still do the wrong Yeah, I guess I still write my feelings in this song But those feelings seem to remain after all those memories that have gone
Maybe feeling emotional is just part of growing up And maybe hitting rock bottom is part of going up
You left me stranded, lovesick on your potion I left my heart out in the open Only hoping That I wouldn’t drown in the ocean My brain lost in an hour glass playing in slow motion Still trapped in this glass case of emotion
I’m telling myself to smile, but I’m still frowning Because missing you comes in waves, and tonight I’m drowning
Hook: I'm slowly drifting away (drifting away) Wave after wave, wave after wave I'm slowly drifting (drifting away) And it feels like I'm drowning Pulling against the stream Pulling against the stream
Written, Recorded, Mixed and Mastered by: Matthew Luppino
Starring: Matthew Luppino
Directed By: Matthew Luppino Produced By: Matthew Luppino and Laura Luppino
Director Of Photography: Matthew Luppino Assistant Camera Operator: Laura Luppino
Edited By: Matthew Luppino Visual Effects By: Matthew Luppino
Special Thanks To: Laura Luppino
Official Lyrics:
1st Verse: Compulsive, obsessive All these curses I've been blessed with Keep me on the ledge, but emotion just gave me a death wish Searching for my ghost but I'm left breathless Fuck if I know where I'm headed, truth is I'm helpless
He said, it's getting harder to find people that understand The voice of genius that plays inside these grains of sand Tiny moments he holds within the palm of his hand Contemplating life in past tense, there he goes off the rails again
Because this love don't feel right anymore And I am once again forced to close another door This pain is just something I can't ignore I'm just a lost soul with trapped wings, trying to soar
And as my thoughts keep me company in this abandoned realm, my tears fall like acidic rain Destroying everything in my path with dark, demonic pain Dark demonic pain Inside my brain Help me Lord, I’m going insane
2nd verse: Waiting for my mind to drift away Like my body is at the gateway Am I in hell? Could this be the day? Could it all end in disarray?
Raw emotion weeping in pain Rawest potion deep within my veins Carry my burden oh father, I exclaim Help me fight the darkness inside my brain
Been through this ring of fire once before But now I have to cross the devil once more Up against the wall, bagging on the floor Help me stop this devilish game, please just restore On the front lines, but I've always been this prisoner of war
I'm in hell, this could be my day It could all end here, death is underway Flesh turned to ash, my soul left to decay Burning in the fires of hell, my mind is left to fade away
I'm a problem child drowning in a think tank Releasing venomous ink but my page still remains blank
Thank you for the last 10 years! Here's to the next 10!
When I started this journey back in 2011, I never would have believed in my wildest dreams that I would be where I am today. I was just a kid with a camcorder trying to make sense of the world around me. Now, I look back at the countless hours I spent perfecting my craft over the many projects I have accomplished in the last 10 years. I glance at the 21 international awards that all have my name on them. And I remember all the wonderful memories with each and every one of you through the years. It has been a journey of pain, passion and love. And I would do it all over again exactly the same, in a heartbeat. No regrets.
I have self-indulged in my art for the last 10 years and looking back at all of my creations only further inspires me to continue creating.
Thank you film, for being my medicine, making me better than I've ever been. You have saved the artist within me.
Song Credit: James Arthur - Medicine
I do not own the copyright to this song. It was used for non-profit and creative purposes only.
Enjoy!Matthew Luppino - Ink Stains (prod. Marzen Rouse) [Official Music Video]Matthew Luppino2020-09-27 | Produced by: Marzen Rouse and Kyu Tracks Written, Recorded, Mixed and Mastered by: Matthew Luppino
Starring: Matthew Luppino & Laura Holman
Directed By: Matthew Luppino Director Of Photography: Matthew Luppino 2nd Camera Operator: Jesse Miceli & Aaron Demars
Edited By: Matthew Luppino Visual Effects By: Matthew Luppino
Special Thanks To: Laura Holman Aaron Demars Jesse Miceli
Official Lyrics:
1st Verse: I heard the weatherman say it’ll be cold, cold weather You know as long as we are together I don’t need no one other No matter the rain and thunder
I will write the story line For my dearest valentine Cause baby you make the sun shine
I wanna wrap you up and kiss your lips I wanna feel your fingertips
Marked on the calendar, September 26th, 2020 Palms will be sweaty Knees will be weak, arms will be heavy But on that day, I promise, I’ll be ready
From now until infinity I want to make you feel wanted Unconditionally Just you and me
2nd Verse: Peanut and Hiccup forever and ever To the moon and back forever, together
You are mine until the last star dies In every galaxy all across the skies So I vow to compromise To always harmonize All these butterflies That I feel when I look in your eyes
Thank you God, I finally found my nemo And I can’t wait to call her Mrs. Luppino
I vow to always love you each and every day I vow to never walk away Through sickness and in health For better or for worse I vow to always love you beyond this verse
Love is patient and love is kind And in my mind With every kiss, hands intertwined Our stars have finally realigned
And when the ink fades, I’ll be here for you, dancing in the rain And these vows will always remain I love you peanut, more than I can ever explain These are my ink stains
Truly yours... Every minute with you is like watching the sunrise Baby you got me so hypnotized
I’ll love you until our hearts are empty And on that day I will kiss you so gently These are just my ink stains
1st Verse: Feeling hopeless Holding moments I notice This rope it’s Tightening, I’m losing focus Knots in my stomach, at my lowest I feel explosive Loaded the gun, devoted But still frozen With diagnosis Broken, searching For motive I’ve opened Emotion, Corrosive Commotion, my head is ferocious I need a Higher dosage No, I can’t be homeless, ahhh
Yeah, I can’t seem to escape it I just ignore it and keep sedating; Like I’m chasing These faded Eraser shavings The raging Thoughts keep racing Pacing These halls Changing Within these walls
I’m sitting in the aftermath Like a maniac Flashing back To your photograph
I’m going under, I’m starting to drown I’m looking all around I guess I did let you down Damn
Hook - Alex M. Brinkley: Wonder what you think of me now? Wonder if if i’ll turn around Wonder what you think of me now? Wonder if i let you down
2nd Verse: I carry myself like I have things all together But deep inside, I am lonelier than ever
I can’t seem to get this off my chest I often wonder why I’m still depressed But every morning, I get dressed Look in the mirror, and say I’m just stressed
You gotta know it’s hard to start Creating art With all my heart When it feels like I lost that spark
But my passion is still lurking in the dark So I’m trying to make my mark While the world is still trying to drown this shark
Yeah, I know, I let myself down and Damn near a thousand times
But one moment Will not define My life, I need a line Within my mind Searching but cannot find I guess I’m still searching for closure with these rhymes
So I switched up my style, pushed back the album Focused on myself just to see a difference in the outcome
Hook - Alex M. Brinkley: Wonder what you think of me now? Wonder if if i’ll turn around Wonder what you think of me now? Wonder if i let you down
#fireflies #luppostudios #covid19 #quarantine #lockdown #coronavirus #shortfilmMatthew Luppino - Here But Gone [Official Music Video] (prod. Blunted Beatz)Matthew Luppino2020-04-27 | Beat produced by: Blunted Beatz Written, Recorded, Mixed and Mastered by: Matthew Luppino
Starring: Matthew Luppino
Directed By: Matthew Luppino Director Of Photography: Matthew Luppino Camera Operator: Matthew Luppino Edited By: Matthew Luppino
Special Thanks To: Laura Holman Aaron Demars Jesse Miceli
Location: Essex, Ontario, Canada
Official Lyrics:
1st Verse: Man what’s wrong with the world, shit I don’t know Stuck in the house all day, no place I can go Hitting an all-time low Let it go, I need to let it breathe But can we agree to disagree This quarantine life just ain’t meant for me
Here but gone We’re all pawns in this game A speck of dust passing through this frame Look at this world, we’re all the same
Sitting in four walls we all feel this pain Sitting in the dark, trying to stay sane We fight a war inside our brain Watching the world go insane On the other side of the window pane
Here but gone But What’s really going on?
It’s a state of emergency Living life with uncertainty Living in fear Universally Suffering internally eh
We’re all trapped in the house like prisoners I guess We all feel like visitors
It feels like we are losing our freedom And we’re Feeling defeated, broken and beaten Our people are running out of ideas
Losing our rights, it doesn’t feel right They say we need to stay at home, and save a life
That we need to Wear masks and gloves Stay at home to protect the people you love
Chaos in the streets Silent tears of the deceased We all hold on to the edge of our seats For all every breaking news press release
Insanity will be the next wave Trapped like a slave 6 feet apart they rave Like they’ve already dug our graves
Sold out essentials It only resembles The levels Of our world’s mentals
And we’re all scared, and we all know it Some of us just different ways to show it
It feels like we’re all alone And we’ve lost our control Fearing the unknown Here but gone, But we’re all Waiting on A new tomorrow I’m gone
Jan Branicki; DJ Pain1p/k/a DJ Pain 1 (Collaborator); Dar'rell Banksp/k/a Dar'rell Banks (Collaborator); Izk Jenkinsp/k/a IkeThaWrita (Collaborator) ("Songwriter")
Official Lyrics:
1st Verse: I've been passing different levels Battling different devils
It’s like I'm still searching For what's still lurking And even though I've been working I can't find the right wording
Time is passing, and I find myself asking I keep looking to the old me, like that's where I'm supposed to be
Life was so different back then I was engulfed in passion every time I held the pen And when I created; I was in some sort of zen
Like within that moment I was frozen, I was so focused I was broken but I found enjoyment I was an open poet Then I lost the one component That kept me growing
I keep looking back, not knowing That I'm moving forward
And it's my duty to fulfill Some sort of thrill With my creations But I'm in the midst of transition I have to switch my position While still trying to accomplish the same mission
2nd verse: Do what you love, that's when you're the happiest But what is the price of happiness?
If I could see some perspectives Maybe if I take a second And watch my reflection But all I see is a bunch of different directions
See I've been buying time Writing down another line Like it's just another rhyme Without following my divine design So I go back to intertwine Every sign Redefine The story line
But no matter how much you love your craft Sometimes it just doesn't love you back
I'm so scared of the future and what it will hold Fighting for a dream that might not unfold I still believe in myself and my goals Going the distance with all my heart and soul
Where I will go, I don’t know But deep inside, I know I will grow
So as I write These words tonight Imma fight So that my fire doesn’t lose its light
1st Verse: I’m so lost in the moment I have to pinch myself to stay focused Kind words left unspoken It’s Left me heartbroken And the closest Thing to you is a distant memory I don’t wanna reflect on it mentally I can’t believe we turned into enemies Can’t believe I put your love in jeopardy But honestly, If I could restart the page and throwback to that track Flip the disc and relive our synergy I would do so many things differently To see you once more, to end this misery This shit is true Ain’t a day that goes on that I don’t miss you
I’m still searching for what used to be Stuck in the past, it was just you and me Now were distant memories Trapped in a bottle, forgotten A colossal, coffin, that’s still rotting Filled with a broken promise At the bottom of the sea, I see A Goddess that’s left demolished
Hook: Haunted by these memories Of you and me Haunted by the very possibility Of destiny But honestly
I will love you from afar No matter where you are
But honestly, I’m haunted by these memories Of you and me I have to let you go, I have to set you free So now there’s no you and me I have to let you go, I have to set you free So now there’s no you and me There’s no you and me
2nd Verse: She said smile because it happened But now I’m sitting here rapping
Thinking about me and you And all shit we put each other through But when sorry doesn’t cut it Sometimes you gotta walk away I’m torn between a rock and a hard place Gave her my heart but she wanted space So I left the pages open, Hoping to return Closed our chapter, but then she burned The book And now I look For her in every face In every smile, in every place Only to find the empty space In my heart where memories are now erased
So Will you remember me when I’m gone? Or will this just be another sad song?
Hook: Haunted by these memories Of you and me Haunted by the very possibility Of destiny But honestly
I will love you from afar No matter where you are
But honestly, I’m haunted by these memories Of you and me I have to let you go, I have to set you free So now there’s no you and me I have to let you go, I have to set you free So now there’s no you and me There’s no you and me
1st Verse: Ayo, Yo, look... I’ve grown and seen some nasty shit Old friends turned to ghosts real quick Fake hoes, with the fakest love, real friends turned to foes I guess that’s just how this shit goes
Whack haters, public enemies, I see all the fakes Turn to my direction; I can see all the hate
Inside the frame I can see you playing two different plains Good cop, bad cop, always switching lanes Trying to be one in the same
But I see right through the mask Right through the glass I will blast right through this past
So I gotta burn the bridge to never cross it again Look, I’d burn the world down if I never had to see you again Damn
I always knew you were a poser I’ll keep my friends close, and keep my enemies’ closer I used to overdose; and now it’s over And now it’s closure
I’m showing no remorse I’m just going to let karma take its course
Hook: You can run but you can’t hide In the sand, I’m drawing a line to divide The real from the fakes The grass from the snakes You ain’t gonna make or break I’m coming for you, no matter what’s at stake
I’ll make you wish that you never lied Choose your side I’m drawing the line to divide The real from the fakes The grass from the snakes You ain’t gonna make or break I’m coming for you, no matter what’s at stake
2nd Verse: Homies up and left like a bad habit It's got me hip hopping on these rhymes like a bunny rabbit But you know what though, I've had it Stop lying to me, you trailer trash maggot
Before, after and during Feelings recurring Stirring And transferring Emotions always blurring
And I’mma direct Thoughts into effect You just lost my respect I’m coming for all the times that you’ve wrecked
Whatever it takes I’m cleaning out the fakes It’s time to ghost all the snakes Eh
Hook: You can run but you can’t hide In the sand, I’m drawing a line to divide The real from the fakes The grass from the snakes You ain’t gonna make or break I’m coming for you, no matter what’s at stake
I’ll make you wish that you never lied Choose your side I’m drawing the line to divide The real from the fakes The grass from the snakes You ain’t gonna make or break I’m coming for you, no matter what’s at stake
1st Verse: 2019, supposed to be equal But it's a human kind of evil When stress changes people Telling someone their not good enough should be illegal
The dust had settled, and of course I recovered But mentally, I was still stuck in that summer And no one truly knows how much I've suffered Been told all my life I'm nothing and I'm discovered The sad true colours Of my once true lovers
I got back up, started writing again I picked up the pen, I did it for me And made some sort of attempt To vent
And lay it all across the page Once and for all, finally release the rage Though it's just a phrase, maybe wounds heals with age
Years of therapy thought it would heal But the truth is what's lurking needs to be revealed And though love is a battlefield I can't seem to contain these demons that I've concealed
2nd Verse: Yo I ain't scared of the dark Because I've lived with monsters right from the start
I guess you could say I was bullied or abused What's the difference, see I am still confused? I was bullied by kids in school that disapproved I was different, so I made it my sole purpose to prove And when I got successful, you still refused To show gratitude Instead you tore me down, told me I was nothing
But no more patterns, I'm ending this discussion You’re not loving You're disgusting And I'm brushing you off Like you are the one that's nothing Because the truth is, I know I'm something
Everyone will doubt me, I don't give a fuck At the end of the day, I know I make my own luck
Back against the wall, I'm forced to start over I guess I'm going to have to heal with no closure
3rd Verse (Exclude): Despite your opinion of me, I know I'm imperfectly perfect But all of your neglect Has left me with this defect And mentally, I can't accept 100 percent And nothing is good enough for what I expect So I guess I have you to blame for this mindset But when I resurrect I promise you’ll go to repent But I won't forget The times you’ve left me wrecked and depressed Going back to reflect On the demons that left me in torment
1st Verse: Yeah it’s crazy… That I still look back, and it hurts all the same The door's locked, but I still peak through the window pane Watching lost time play inside the frame I guess you could say you still live inside my brain
Passion turns into pain and pain back into passion It's just a chain reaction When I look for satisfaction In another distraction Tell me what happens When that tragic magic Turns back to ashes? So…
I’m trying to move on, not sure who I’m becoming But I guess I’m still missing something I guess what they say is true, time heals nothing
Still stuck in this loop, lost in my feelings I wish I didn’t feel things I guess I had the real thing But will my heart ever stop bleeding?
So, I'm still searching for closure, I'm lost in the dark And even though it's over, I know I’ve lost my spark
2nd Verse: I want you to know I’ve been struggling with shit every single day And I can’t write what I need to say
My first love ripped me apart But God gave me my art And helped me pick up the pieces to restart Healed with no closure and fixed my broken heart
But I guess I still wear my heart on my sleeve Yeah I guess I never know when to leave
So I can agree What we perceive Is what we believe And without it, life’s not as complete In between Proceed or retreat? Admit defeat and hit delete Should I succeed in deceit? Searching way back to summer sixteen
We would share our scars Sitting in that car We talked about life under the stars
I was at my lowest when I lost focus I’m still a broken poet Looking back at life, I guess all we have is moments
3rd Verse: So yeah I’ll admit I’m still searching Yeah I guess I’ll admit I’m still hurting
I’m just a starving artist Just a man working his hardest To harness The darkness That still makes me heartless
My first love tainted my perception It’s like what I created I’ve learned to question I feel like I’ve wasted my perfection But it’s complicated when you go through depression
So many faded reflections Led to an elevated obsession Of Infatuated affection So frustrated with my direction All I painted was valentine’s deception
You know I used to think we would last But now I’ve left you back in the past
I told you one day I’ll explain The pain That lives inside my brain
I know everyone’s got their demons, but mine are taking over And even though I’m still hurting, I’m still searching for closure eh
1st Verse: You believed in me when no one else would Together, we were misfits misunderstood
That was way before any award or recognition We were two geniuses sharing the same vision We were ambitious, we created with conviction Believed in our mission like it was our religion We were so driven, we crafted with precision
That took us out to the city of angels Where we celebrated with congratulations Thank our lucky constellations We won because of our imagination But along the way, there was a complication See we had the drive but we lost the destination Our contagious Motivation Turned to frustration I guess we lost the inspiration With empty sensation So I went back to the basics And then you became my acquaintance I guess we just have painful expectations For what was supposed to be our creation Now we are just strangers With so many great memories inside our pages
We were supposed to be brothers You saved me like no other Why did you have to go and show me your true colours?
So I drank until I was no longer sober I guess some things you don’t get over And as I grew older I held on to the past, still wounded with no closure
Hook: Took a look in the mirror, I’m ready to cleanse And view the world through a different kind of lens I’m ready to heal; this is where the pain ends It’s time that I turn the page and forgive all my friends
So as I gain a new perspective I take a second And think back to all my exes I thank you for all the lessons You taught me to be respected
And though it's over
At least now we will have some closure, yeah…
2nd Verse: When life got confusing We spent the nights cruising Talked about life, you asked how I was doing Life was a mess; I told you I might be moving So you sat with me and waited through the ruin
Why did you have to go, I guess I'll never know I’m grateful, you taught me how to grow So now I will do my best To get this off my chest I love you, I was blessed And even though I'm on a different quest Just know I am thankful You were my angel
I've loved and lost in a downward spiral I nearly took my life, I was that suicidal But you were my idol Guiding me to revival
You gave me hope for another day And if I could say One thing, I would unwind The rhyme And remind You all of all the great times
And I‘m sorry that we became distant But if you can find some closure while you listen I'll promise I'll find mine because of your very existence
Hook: Took a look in the mirror, I’m ready to cleanse And view the world through a different kind of lens I’m ready to heal; this is where the pain ends It’s time that I turn the page and forgive all my friends
So as I gain a new perspective I take a second And think back to all my exes I thank you for all the lessons You taught me to be respected
And though it's over At least now we will have some closure, yeah…
1st Verse: It’s like when I grip the mic All I do is swing at strikes See, you and me, we are not alike
You’re a mac and I’m a PC Opposites in this industry When I’m in the zone, I am finally free eh No body Will ever work as hard as me
Working hard, saving for a dream Losing my self-esteem
Me and my fiancé are a team Out here plotting a new scheme
Now I know it’s been a minute I’ll admit But I’m back on my shit
Scheming, daydreaming Just caught in my feelings They come and go like the seasons
Going back and forth, trying to find the urge to write I see the spark in sight But how do you paint the picture when you only see black and white?
So I got engaged And now I trace the lines on the page And erase the rhymes filled with rage And embrace the girl waiting for me back stage
Damn man I missed this feeling Tried to bottle it but I missed the meaning Tried to write all my demons But I’m still breathing Under water, under the ceiling Inside my home, they are still feeding Off my heart, internally bleedin’ Now I keep seeing And hearing Voice of reason Trying to tell me to give up, to stop dreaming It’s got me sleeping On my work, freezing On the mic, while I write, needing More to this game than I thought, leaving The past behind but losing my entire being So now I’m cleaning out my closet I met the love of my life She told me don’t stop believing
So, I’ve been doing me I’ve been writing free Yeah, doing what’s meant to be
Riding around with my queen Pulling up in a limousine On my way to the silver screen I’m off the meds, I’m finally clean
And I visualize Life neutralized And I realized This is “the rise”
In the middle of the night I found my way to the light So now I write About all the demons I used to fight
Yeah, the worst is over, yeah I survived Happy to say that I feel good inside I’ve killed the thought of suicide I’m back, yeah I revived
And now looking back in retrospect I guess I did resurrect
As an artist It was in the days that were the darkest That I started to harness My love and rise above the darkness
Like a phoenix from the ashes I had to burn, to find my passion Now it’s movie magic Lights, camera, action
You only get one life, so now I’m down to the wire Soaring higher In pursuit of setting my soul on fire
I'm following my destiny By giving the world the best of me This divine design is my human supremacy So like the phoenix, I’m back to leave my legacy
1st Verse: Trying to do the best that I can But you gotta understand That I'm just a man
Sometimes there's not enough seconds in a day I'm always needing an escape Trying my best to elevate My mental state
I’m blessed But I’m cursed with Emotions Depressed I became a wordsmith It feels like I'm always searching But I’m just returning To the past, to reword it
Yeah See, I'm just a phoenix trying to harness my darkest demons Just a Genius searching through harboured feelings Trying to find closure, searching for a meaning Just an artist with this weakness searching through my pieces
2nd verse: You gotta smile once in a while But if you had to walk a mile In my shoes You might refuse And choose To walk down different avenues I think we just have different views
The truth is I’m really falling apart Just trying to solve the riddle of my heart Go back to start Call it phase 2 art
There was a point in time when you saw my demons There was a point in time when you saw my reasons And now we've gone through so many seasons But sometimes I can’t explain this feeling This late in the evening
But we fight it out because we know it's worth it I know I can be a difficult person Especially when I'm always working Behind that closed curtain I’m feeling like a burden, uncertain Why I’m still searching Overworking Why I’m still hurting I guess I’m still learning So I’m returning Like a phoenix burning
1st Verse: I heard the weatherman say it’ll be cold, cold weather You know as long as we are together I don’t need no one other No matter the rain and thunder
I will write the story line For my dearest valentine Cause baby you make the sun shine
I wanna wrap you up and kiss your lips I wanna feel your fingertips
Marked on the calendar, September 26th, 2020 Palms will be sweaty Knees will be weak, arms will be heavy But on that day, I promise, I’ll be ready
From now until infinity I want to make you feel wanted Unconditionally Just you and me
2nd Verse: Peanut and Hiccup forever and ever To the moon and back forever, together
You are mine until the last star dies In every galaxy all across the skies So I vow to compromise To always harmonize All these butterflies That I feel when I look in your eyes
Thank you God, I finally found my nemo And I can’t wait to call her Mrs. Luppino
I vow to always love you each and every day I vow to never walk away Through sickness and in health For better or for worse I vow to always love you beyond this verse
Love is patient and love is kind And in my mind With every kiss, hands intertwined Our stars have finally realigned
And when the ink fades, I’ll be here for you, dancing in the rain And these vows will always remain I love you peanut, more than I can ever explain These are my ink stains
Truly yours... Every minute with you is like watching the sunrise Baby you got me so hypnotized
I’ll love you until our hearts are empty And on that day I will kiss you so gently These are just my ink stains
1st Verse: Yeah babe I gotta say I love you lots If I was Tony Stark you’d be my Pepper Pots Butterflies in my stomach tied in knots
Whenever I look in her eyes She’s got me hypnotized
Her love got me tongue tied As she rides by my side
Love at the speed of sound You’re my smile when I frown You’re my rock when I’m feeling down
My entire world, everything that I need The world spins at a different speed I only need you to succeed So take my hand and I’ll take the lead
You’re my angel sent to me Sentimentally And Potentially My wife to be
We accidentally fell in love endlessly And now I can’t believe we fell hard for our chemistry You’re my peace and serenity And now you’re my remedy Every melody Yeah I think we are meant to be
2nd Verse: So I Spent some nights in the hospital, waiting Hating myself, contemplating If I was good enough, depreciating Trying to balance a depressed life while suffocating
Doing my best to cope, operating With no sleep, I fought, still creating
I took a step forward, I was motivating Trying to get stronger, by concentrating And working hard to start communicating And then one day I met you ice skating
Been through mountains I doubt you’d want to climb I’ve written over 100,000 rhymes And I’ve crossed over every line Gone through depression about a million times
But I’m stronger now because I have your therapy You carry my heart in every melody Your love is my ecstasy And honestly,
You brought me back to life I can’t believe it, can’t explain it; I just know that you’ll one day be my future wife
3rd Verse:
I think I’ve had to say too many goodbyes Living inside a mind that wants to die
Under a beautiful moon, I sat distressed With my heart nearly beating out of my chest I suffocated, trying to impress But she understood I was not like the rest I suffer panic attacks, especially when I’m stressed So I confess Even when I’m having one, I’m still trying my best Yeah, she told me not to worry, because I’m blessed And I guess She’s right I think back to that night The night we first met Back to all the times I could never forget
Her love makes me reminisce Back to our first kiss The feeling of complete bliss But it’s her smile that I always miss
Her smile lights up my world And no matter where I go, I know she’s my girl She’s my girl eh
1st Verse: Living life in the extremes Manic bipolar is what I mean
Have you ever taken a loss? Gave it everything you had and still failed Been knocked down, take a deep breath, and inhale This is just a classic tale Of an underdog, back against the rail Let me tell you why you'll prevail
So you've lost of all hope And you're backs against the ropes Down and out, so I ask you what's next? Yeah okay, okay I guess I'm perplexed That answer is So complex
I know it's hard, but don't give in, think back to your aspirations Your inspiration, your motivation, What was your salvation? Why are you quitting on the dream you've been chasing?
So you lost the drive, not the destination Now that your hearts racing Trust that sensation That is the foundation To your every creation
Hook: Yeah I know it's hard to proceed when you’re in defeat But just believe what is meant to be will be Back against the rope, it’s just me vs. me So find that hope and let it set you free
I know you’re lost in the dark, but don’t let your spark run out of light Just get back up and fight Back against the rope it’s just me vs. me So find that hope and let it set you free
2nd Verse: So when I won my first award, I was an inspiration But as I got better, the awards lost their sensation And I kept winning, but it’s like I lost the celebration And with every creation I was waiting For a new vibration
Some days I'm in this mood I can't break And sometimes I'm falling deeper in mistakes
I’m just a rapper with a dream Watching the stars as they gleam Shining like I’m designing My rhyming And I’m just defying Gravity
Now I’m Falling apart I gotta get back up and start Creating that art With all my heart
I’m just a diamond in the rough waiting for my time But people tend to throw rocks that always seem to shine So I’m just under pressure, following my design
So don’t give up in something you can’t see Have faith and find hope in what’s meant to be
Hook: Yeah I know it's hard to proceed when you’re in defeat But just believe what is meant to be will be Back against the rope, it’s just me vs. me So find that hope and let it set you free
I know you’re lost in the dark, but don’t let your spark run out of light Just get back up and fight Back against the rope it’s just me vs. me So find that hope and let it set you free
1st Verse: Feeling hopeless Holding moments I notice This rope it’s Tightening, I’m losing focus Knots in my stomach, at my lowest I feel explosive Loaded the gun, devoted But still frozen With diagnosis Broken, searching For motive I’ve opened Emotion, Corrosive Commotion, my head is ferocious I need a Higher dosage No, I can’t be homeless, ahhh
Yeah, I can’t seem to escape it I just ignore it and keep sedating; Like I’m chasing These faded Eraser shavings The raging Thoughts keep racing Pacing These halls Changing Within these walls
I’m sitting in the aftermath Like a maniac Flashing back To your photograph
I’m going under, I’m starting to drown I’m looking all around I guess I did let you down Damn
Hook - Alex M. Brinkley: Wonder what you think of me now? Wonder if if i’ll turn around Wonder what you think of me now? Wonder if i let you down
2nd Verse: I carry myself like I have things all together But deep inside, I am lonelier than ever
I can’t seem to get this off my chest I often wonder why I’m still depressed But every morning, I get dressed Look in the mirror, and say I’m just stressed
You gotta know it’s hard to start Creating art With all my heart When it feels like I lost that spark
But my passion is still lurking in the dark So I’m trying to make my mark While the world is still trying to drown this shark
Yeah, I know, I let myself down and Damn near a thousand times
But one moment Will not define My life, I need a line Within my mind Searching but cannot find I guess I’m still searching for closure with these rhymes
So I switched up my style, pushed back the album Focused on myself just to see a difference in the outcome
Hook - Alex M. Brinkley: Wonder what you think of me now? Wonder if if i’ll turn around Wonder what you think of me now? Wonder if i let you down
1st Verse: Compulsive, obsessive All these curses I've been blessed with Keep me on the ledge, but emotion just gave me a death wish Searching for my ghost but I'm left breathless Fuck if I know where I'm headed, truth is I'm helpless
He said, it's getting harder to find people that understand The voice of genius that plays inside these grains of sand Tiny moments he holds within the palm of his hand Contemplating life in past tense, there he goes off the rails again
Because this love don't feel right anymore And I am once again forced to close another door This pain is just something I can't ignore I'm just a lost soul with trapped wings, trying to soar
And as my thoughts keep me company in this abandoned realm, my tears fall like acidic rain Destroying everything in my path with dark, demonic pain Dark demonic pain Inside my brain Help me Lord, I’m going insane
2nd verse: Waiting for my mind to drift away Like my body is at the gateway Am I in hell? Could this be the day? Could it all end in disarray?
Raw emotion weeping in pain Rawest potion deep within my veins Carry my burden oh father, I exclaim Help me fight the darkness inside my brain
Been through this ring of fire once before But now I have to cross the devil once more Up against the wall, bagging on the floor Help me stop this devilish game, please just restore On the front lines, but I've always been this prisoner of war
I'm in hell, this could be my day It could all end here, death is underway Flesh turned to ash, my soul left to decay Burning in the fires of hell, my mind is left to fade away
I'm a problem child drowning in a think tank Releasing venomous ink but my page still remains blank
1st Verse: Maybe it’s my fault, maybe I did this Go back and forth, what did I miss? Go over it all again, let’s reminisce You passed out in my bed, I gave you a kiss
On the forehead as I tucked you in the covers Took me a few years to uncover Your true colours
I’m digesting What you did to me, it was plain disgusting I was down and out and felt like nothing I turned to you, was I wrong for trusting?
Or were you wrong for keeping me your secret? Hiding me for no apparent reason Running back to whoever was more convenient Still believing that you were not cheating When you were sleeping With me and him in the same evening You played with my heart, you messed with my feelings You really are so deceiving I guess the truth is finally leaking Pinch me, I’m no longer dreaming Now everyone knows you are the real demon
Hook: I’m overthinking again these words inside of my head repeating, repeating I’m overthinking again these words inside of my head they never, they never end
2nd Verse: I’m overthinking again, so I sit and ponder You brought the worst out in me You turned me into a monster It’s like you had the power to alter Anything I conjure
Every time you went behind his back You suddenly had these awful panic attacks
Every time we had sex, you cried No, you crawled into the corner and lied Said you were done with him, all teary eyed And every night you were by his side
But now I got you in the spotlight Nowhere left to go I got you locked in my sights Time to expose this hoe You’re a lying, cheating parasite I hate you more than you will ever know The clock strikes midnight I’m pulling the trigger and even so Maybe I’m wrong, maybe you’re right
Maybe I’m the one to blame But remember, you were the one playing the game Now I get to cock back and aim So I take your picture out of the frame And watch your name burst into flames
Hook: I’m overthinking again these words inside of my head repeating, repeating I’m overthinking again these words inside of my head they never, they never end
1st Verse: I'm so tired of the hatin' The constant fakin' Makin' False accusations Just be real, we could be amazin' Because my heart is still achin' Missing my pieces, waitin' Not loving what I’m creating So we’re Isolating
Yeah, we stopped communicating I love you but you ain’t reciprocating It’s devastating No, it’s fucking intoxicating Your love was so damn captivating So hate me, just know that I'm suffocatin' I am here for you, no matter what I'm facin'
Yeah, I’m still high off the butterflies I’m still drunk on your lies Sinking ships, drowning in your whisky eyes Why does love always have to die?
Blood in the water, we will never cleanse There’s truly no way to make amends I guess all good things must come to an end And I guess now we are no longer friends
Chorus: Remember all the memories we used to create? Now your memories of me have warped into hate And every time I think of you, I patiently await The day you'll want me back, sadly it will be too late
I've tried to go back and retrace But I've lost the memory of your face So I guess in life we just create and erase Yeah, we just create and erase
2nd verse: Take it from me, nothing feels the same I still see your face in my empty picture frames I guess my mind likes to play these little games Inside my brain, I'm burning by my own flames When can I erase your name?
You and I had a love that defied logic We almost had it but we fucking lost it And together we were psychotic We brought the best and worst out in each other, how ironic That we were so toxic A catastrophic Bittersweet Heartbeat
We had a love I still can’t explain And you and I went through so much pain Every fight, every storm, every hurricane But you and me, we were fucking insane
2017 Bonnie and Clyde And the truth is I’d Always stand by your side So just know I’m truly satisfied Because at least we can say we fucking tried
Chorus: Remember all the memories we used to create? Now your memories of me have warped into hate Every time I think of you, I patiently await The day you'll want me back, sadly it will be too late
I've tried to go back and retrace But I've lost the memory of your face So I guess in life we just create and erase Yeah, we just create and erase
Written, Recorded, Mixed and Mastered by: Matthew Luppino Produced by Multi-Platinum producer Freek van Workum
Starring: Matthew Luppino
Directed By: Matthew Luppino Director Of Photography: Matthew Luppino
Edited By: Matthew Luppino Visual Effects By: Matthew Luppino
Special Thanks To: Laura Holman Aaron Demars Jesse Miceli
Official Lyrics:
1st Verse: 2019, supposed to be equal But it's a human kind of evil When stress changes people Telling someone their not good enough should be illegal
The dust had settled, and of course I recovered But mentally, I was still stuck in that summer And no one truly knows how much I've suffered Been told all my life I'm nothing and I'm discovered The sad true colours Of my once true lovers
I got back up, started writing again I picked up the pen, I did it for me And made some sort of attempt To vent
And lay it all across the page Once and for all, finally release the rage Though it's just a phrase, maybe wounds heals with age
Years of therapy thought it would heal But the truth is what's lurking needs to be revealed And though love is a battlefield I can't seem to contain these demons that I've concealed
2nd Verse: Yo I ain't scared of the dark Because I've lived with monsters right from the start
I guess you could say I was bullied or abused What's the difference, see I am still confused? I was bullied by kids in school that disapproved I was different, so I made it my sole purpose to prove And when I got successful, you still refused To show gratitude Instead you tore me down, told me I was nothing
But no more patterns, I'm ending this discussion You’re not loving You're disgusting And I'm brushing you off Like you are the one that's nothing Because the truth is, I know I'm something
Everyone will doubt me, I don't give a fuck At the end of the day, I know I make my own luck
Back against the wall, I'm forced to start over I guess I'm going to have to heal with no closure
3rd Verse (Exclude): Despite your opinion of me, I know I'm imperfectly perfect But all of your neglect Has left me with this defect And mentally, I can't accept 100 percent And nothing is good enough for what I expect So I guess I have you to blame for this mindset But when I resurrect I promise you’ll go to repent But I won't forget The times you’ve left me wrecked and depressed Going back to reflect On the demons that left me in torment
Directed By: Matthew Luppino Director Of Photography: Matthew Luppino
Edited By: Matthew Luppino Visual Effects By: Matthew Luppino
Special Thanks To: Laura Holman Aaron Demars Jesse Miceli
Official Lyrics:
1st Verse: 2019, supposed to be equal But it's a human kind of evil When stress changes people Telling someone their not good enough should be illegal
The dust had settled, and of course I recovered But mentally, I was still stuck in that summer And no one truly knows how much I've suffered Been told all my life I'm nothing and I'm discovered The sad true colours Of my once true lovers
I got back up, started writing again I picked up the pen, I did it for me And made some sort of attempt To vent
And lay it all across the page Once and for all, finally release the rage Though it's just a phrase, maybe wounds heals with age
Years of therapy thought it would heal But the truth is what's lurking needs to be revealed And though love is a battlefield I can't seem to contain these demons that I've concealed
2nd Verse: Yo I ain't scared of the dark Because I've lived with monsters right from the start
I guess you could say I was bullied or abused What's the difference, see I am still confused? I was bullied by kids in school that disapproved I was different, so I made it my sole purpose to prove And when I got successful, you still refused To show gratitude Instead you tore me down, told me I was nothing
But no more patterns, I'm ending this discussion You’re not loving You're disgusting And I'm brushing you off Like you are the one that's nothing Because the truth is, I know I'm something
Everyone will doubt me, I don't give a fuck At the end of the day, I know I make my own luck
Back against the wall, I'm forced to start over I guess I'm going to have to heal with no closure
3rd Verse (Exclude): Despite your opinion of me, I know I'm imperfectly perfect But all of your neglect Has left me with this defect And mentally, I can't accept 100 percent And nothing is good enough for what I expect So I guess I have you to blame for this mindset But when I resurrect I promise you’ll go to repent But I won't forget The times you’ve left me wrecked and depressed Going back to reflect On the demons that left me in torment
Starring: Matthew Luppino Directed By: Matthew Luppino and Jesse Miceli
Director Of Photography: Matthew Luppino
Camera Operator: Jesse Miceli Edited By: Matthew Luppino Visual Effects By: Matthew Luppino
Special Thanks To: Laura Holman Aaron Demars Jesse Miceli
Official Lyrics:
1st Verse: Yeah it’s crazy… That I still look back, and it hurts all the same The door's locked, but I still peak through the window pane Watching lost time play inside the frame I guess you could say you still live inside my brain
Passion turns into pain and pain back into passion It's just a chain reaction When I look for satisfaction In another distraction Tell me what happens When that tragic magic Turns back to ashes? So…
I’m trying to move on, not sure who I’m becoming But I guess I’m still missing something I guess what they say is true, time heals nothing
Still stuck in this loop, lost in my feelings I wish I didn’t feel things I guess I had the real thing But will my heart ever stop bleeding?
So, I'm still searching for closure, I'm lost in the dark And even though it's over, I know I’ve lost my spark
2nd Verse: I want you to know I’ve been struggling with shit every single day And I can’t write what I need to say
My first love ripped me apart But God gave me my art And helped me pick up the pieces to restart Healed with no closure and fixed my broken heart
But I guess I still wear my heart on my sleeve Yeah I guess I never know when to leave
So I can agree What we perceive Is what we believe And without it, life’s not as complete In between Proceed or retreat? Admit defeat and hit delete Should I succeed in deceit? Searching way back to summer sixteen
We would share our scars Sitting in that car We talked about life under the stars
I was at my lowest when I lost focus I’m still a broken poet Looking back at life, I guess all we have is moments
3rd Verse: So yeah I’ll admit I’m still searching Yeah I guess I’ll admit I’m still hurting
I’m just a starving artist Just a man working his hardest To harness The darkness That still makes me heartless
My first love tainted my perception It’s like what I created I’ve learned to question I feel like I’ve wasted my perfection But it’s complicated when you go through depression
So many faded reflections Led to an elevated obsession Of Infatuated affection So frustrated with my direction All I painted was valentine’s deception
You know I used to think we would last But now I’ve left you back in the past
I told you one day I’ll explain The pain That lives inside my brain
I know everyone’s got their demons, but mine are taking over And even though I’m still hurting, I’m still searching for closure eh
Directed By: Matthew Luppino and Jesse Miceli Director Of Photography: Matthew Luppino Camera Operator: Jesse Miceli
Special Thanks To: Laura Holman Aaron Demars Sandwich Brewery
Location: Sadlers Pond, Essex, Ontario, Canada
Official Lyrics:
1st Verse: I’m so lost in the moment I have to pinch myself to stay focused Kind words left unspoken It’s Left me heartbroken And the closest Thing to you is a distant memory I don’t wanna reflect on it mentally I can’t believe we turned into enemies Can’t believe I put your love in jeopardy But honestly, If I could restart the page and throwback to that track Flip the disc and relive our synergy I would do so many things differently To see you once more, to end this misery This shit is true Ain’t a day that goes on that I don’t miss you
I’m still searching for what used to be Stuck in the past, it was just you and me Now were distant memories Trapped in a bottle, forgotten A colossal, coffin, that’s still rotting Filled with a broken promise At the bottom of the sea, I see A Goddess that’s left demolished
Hook: Haunted by these memories Of you and me Haunted by the very possibility Of destiny But honestly
I will love you from afar No matter where you are
But honestly, I’m haunted by these memories Of you and me I have to let you go, I have to set you free So now there’s no you and me I have to let you go, I have to set you free So now there’s no you and me There’s no you and me
2nd Verse: She said smile because it happened But now I’m sitting here rapping
Thinking about me and you And all shit we put each other through But when sorry doesn’t cut it Sometimes you gotta walk away I’m torn between a rock and a hard place Gave her my heart but she wanted space So I left the pages open, Hoping to return Closed our chapter, but then she burned The book And now I look For her in every face In every smile, in every place Only to find the empty space In my heart where memories are now erased
So Will you remember me when I’m gone? Or will this just be another sad song?
Hook: Haunted by these memories Of you and me Haunted by the very possibility Of destiny But honestly
I will love you from afar No matter where you are
But honestly, I’m haunted by these memories Of you and me I have to let you go, I have to set you free So now there’s no you and me I have to let you go, I have to set you free So now there’s no you and me There’s no you and me
Starring: Matthew Luppino Director Of Photography: Matthew Luppino
Camera Operator: Jesse Miceli Special Thanks To: Laura Holman
Official Lyrics:
1st Verse: Ayo, Yo, look... I’ve grown and seen some nasty shit Old friends turned to ghosts real quick Fake hoes, with the fakest love, real friends turned to foes I guess that’s just how this shit goes
Whack haters, public enemies, I see all the fakes Turn to my direction; I can see all the hate
Inside the frame I can see you playing two different plains Good cop, bad cop, always switching lanes Trying to be one in the same
But I see right through the mask Right through the glass I will blast right through this past
So I gotta burn the bridge to never cross it again Look, I’d burn the world down if I never had to see you again Damn
I always knew you were a poser I’ll keep my friends close, and keep my enemies’ closer I used to overdose; and now it’s over And now it’s closure
I’m showing no remorse I’m just going to let karma take its course
Hook: You can run but you can’t hide In the sand, I’m drawing a line to divide The real from the fakes The grass from the snakes You ain’t gonna make or break I’m coming for you, no matter what’s at stake
I’ll make you wish that you never lied Choose your side I’m drawing the line to divide The real from the fakes The grass from the snakes You ain’t gonna make or break I’m coming for you, no matter what’s at stake
2nd Verse: Homies up and left like a bad habit It's got me hip hopping on these rhymes like a bunny rabbit But you know what though, I've had it Stop lying to me, you trailer trash maggot
Before, after and during Feelings recurring Stirring And transferring Emotions always blurring
And I’mma direct Thoughts into effect You just lost my respect I’m coming for all the times that you’ve wrecked
Whatever it takes I’m cleaning out the fakes It’s time to ghost all the snakes Eh
Hook: You can run but you can’t hide In the sand, I’m drawing a line to divide The real from the fakes The grass from the snakes You ain’t gonna make or break I’m coming for you, no matter what’s at stake
I’ll make you wish that you never lied Choose your side I’m drawing the line to divide The real from the fakes The grass from the snakes You ain’t gonna make or break I’m coming for you, no matter what’s at stake
1st Verse: Compulsive, obsessive All these curses I've been blessed with Keep me on the ledge, but emotion just gave me a death wish Searching for my ghost but I'm left breathless Fuck if I know where I'm headed, truth is I'm helpless
He said, it's getting harder to find people that understand The voice of genius that plays inside these grains of sand Tiny moments he holds within the palm of his hand Contemplating life in past tense, there he goes off the rails again
Because this love don't feel right anymore And I am once again forced to close another door This pain is just something I can't ignore I'm just a lost soul with trapped wings, trying to soar
And as my thoughts keep me company in this abandoned realm, my tears fall like acidic rain Destroying everything in my path with dark, demonic pain Dark demonic pain Inside my brain Help me Lord, I’m going insane
2nd verse:
Waiting for my mind to drift away Like my body is at the gateway Am I in hell? Could this be the day? Could it all end in disarray?
Raw emotion weeping in pain Rawest potion deep within my veins Carry my burden oh father, I exclaim Help me fight the darkness inside my brain
Been through this ring of fire once before But now I have to cross the devil once more Up against the wall, bagging on the floor Help me stop this devilish game, please just restore On the front lines, but I've always been this prisoner of war
I'm in hell, this could be my day It could all end here, death is underway Flesh turned to ash, my soul left to decay Burning in the fires of hell, my mind is left to fade away
I'm a problem child drowning in a think tank Releasing venomous ink but my page still remains blank
"There Are 2 Sides To Every Story" Told through a mirrors perspective, showing 2 different thinking patterns, Max and Ashley reveal the effects of suicide.
Written, Directed, And Produced By: Matthew Luppino
Jan Branicki; DJ Pain1p/k/a DJ Pain 1 (Collaborator); Dar'rell Banksp/k/a Dar'rell Banks (Collaborator); Izk Jenkinsp/k/a IkeThaWrita (Collaborator) ("Songwriter")
Video Directed, And Produced By: Matthew Luppino Starring: Matthew Luppino Cinematography By: Matthew Luppino
Behind The Scenes Photography: Laura Holman Secondary Camera Operators: Jesse Miceli, Charlie Dupuis
Viper: Jesse Miceli Mustang: Charlie Dupuis
Special Thanks To: Gage Renaud
Official Lyrics:
1st Verse: I've been passing different levels Battling different devils
It’s like I'm still searching For what's still lurking And even though I've been working I can't find the right wording
Time is passing, and I find myself asking I keep looking to the old me, like that's where I'm supposed to be
Life was so different back then I was engulfed in passion every time I held the pen And when I created; I was in some sort of zen
Like within that moment I was frozen, I was so focused I was broken but I found enjoyment I was an open poet Then I lost the one component That kept me growing
I keep looking back, not knowing That I'm moving forward
And it's my duty to fulfill Some sort of thrill With my creations But I'm in the midst of transition I have to switch my position While still trying to accomplish the same mission
2nd verse: Do what you love, that's when you're the happiest But what is the price of happiness?
If I could see some perspectives Maybe if I take a second And watch my reflection But all I see is a bunch of different directions
See I've been buying time Writing down another line Like it's just another rhyme Without following my divine design So I go back to intertwine Every sign Redefine The story line
But no matter how much you love your craft Sometimes it just doesn't love you back
I'm so scared of the future and what it will hold Fighting for a dream that might not unfold I still believe in myself and my goals Going the distance with all my heart and soul
Where I will go, I don’t know But deep inside, I know I will grow
So as I write These words tonight Imma fight So that my fire doesn’t lose its light
1st Verse: Maybe it’s my fault, maybe I did this Go back and forth, what did I miss? Go over it all again, let’s reminisce You passed out in my bed, I gave you a kiss
On the forehead as I tucked you in the covers Took me a few years to uncover Your true colours
I’m digesting What you did to me, it was plain disgusting I was down and out and felt like nothing I turned to you, was I wrong for trusting?
Or were you wrong for keeping me your secret? Hiding me for no apparent reason Running back to whoever was more convenient Still believing that you were not cheating When you were sleeping With me and him in the same evening You played with my heart, you messed with my feelings You really are so deceiving I guess the truth is finally leaking Pinch me, I’m no longer dreaming Now everyone knows you are the real demon
Hook: i’m overthinking again these words inside of my head repeating, repeating i’m overthinking again these words inside of my head they never, they never end
2nd Verse: I’m overthinking again, so I sit and ponder You brought the worst out in me You turned me into a monster It’s like you had the power to alter Anything I conjure
Every time you went behind his back You suddenly had these awful panic attacks
Every time we had sex, you cried No, you crawled into the corner and lied Said you were done with him, all teary eyed And every night you were by his side
But now I got you in the spotlight Nowhere left to go I got you locked in my sights Time to expose this hoe You’re a lying, cheating parasite I hate you more than you will ever know The clock strikes midnight I’m pulling the trigger and even so Maybe I’m wrong, maybe you’re right
Maybe I’m the one to blame But remember, you were the one playing the game Now I get to cock back and aim So I take your picture out of the frame And watch your name burst into flames
Hook: i’m overthinking again these words inside of my head repeating, repeating i’m overthinking again these words inside of my head they never, they never end
Closure Luppo Studios Productions Inc. Copyright 2018 All Rights ReservedSummertime Sadness (Official Short Film)Matthew Luppino2018-10-19 | After losing her boyfriend and her best friend in the same summer, Savannah discovers the mystery behind the murder of her boyfriend last summer.
Written, Directed and Produced By: Matthew Luppino
Starring: Melissa Montaleone as Savannah Jesse Miceli as Ben Kristen McMillan as Savannah's Mother
First Verse: I heard the weatherman say it’ll be cold, cold weather You know as long as we are together I don’t need no one other No matter the rain and thunder
I will write the story-line For my dearest valentine Cause' baby you make the sun shine
I wanna wrap you up and kiss your lips I wanna feel your fingertips
Marked on the calendar, September 26th, 2020 Palms will be sweaty Knees will be weak, arms will be heavy But on that day, I promise, I’ll be ready
From now until infinity I want to make you feel wanted Unconditionally Just you and me eh
Second Verse: Peanut and Hiccup forever and ever To the moon and back, forever, together, yeah...
You're mine until the last star dies In every galaxy all across the skies So I vow to compromise To always harmonize All these butterflies That I feel when I look in your eyes
Thank you God, I finally found my nemo And I can’t wait to call her Mrs. Luppino
I vow to always love you each and every day I vow to never walk away Through sickness and in health For better or for worse I vow to always love you beyond this verse
Love is patient and love is kind And in my mind With every kiss, hands intertwined Our stars have finally realigned
And when the ink fades, I’ll be here for you, dancing in the rain And these vows will always remain I love you peanut, more than I can ever explain These are my ink stains
Truly yours, yeah...
Every minute is like watching the sunrise Baby you got me so hypnotized
I’ll love you until our hearts are empty And on that day I will kiss you so gently These are just my ink stains
Written By: Matthew Luppino Produced By: RockIt Productions
Lyrics: 1st Verse: Yeah babe I gotta say I love you lots If I was Tony Stark you’d be my Pepper Pots Butterflies in my stomach tied in knots
Whenever I look in her eyes She’s got me hypnotized
Her love got me tongue tied As she rides by my side
Love at the speed of sound You’re my smile when I frown You’re my rock when I’m feeling down
My entire world, everything that I need The world spins at a different speed I only need you to succeed So take my hand and I’ll take the lead
You’re my angel sent to me Sentimentally And Potentially My wife to be
We accidentally fell in love endlessly And now I can’t believe we fell hard for our chemistry You’re my peace and serenity And now you’re my remedy Every melody Yeah I think we are meant to be
2nd Verse: So I spent some nights in the hospital, waiting Hating myself, contemplating If I was good enough, depreciating Trying to balance a depressed life while suffocating
Doing my best to cope, operating With no sleep, I fought, still creating
I took a step forward, I was motivating Trying to get stronger, by concentrating And working hard to start communicating And then one day I met you ice skating
Been through mountains I doubt you’d want to climb I’ve written over 100,000 rhymes And I’ve crossed over every line Gone through depression about a million times
But I’m stronger now because I have your therapy You carry my heart in every melody Your love is my ecstasy And honestly,
You brought me back to life I can’t believe it, can’t explain it; I just know that you’ll one day be my future wife
3rd Verse: I think I’ve had to say too many goodbyes Living inside a mind that wants to die
Under a beautiful moon, I sat distressed With my heart nearly beating out of my chest I suffocated, trying to impress But she understood I was not like the rest I suffer panic attacks, especially when I’m stressed So I confess Even when I’m having one, I’m still trying my best Yeah, she told me not to worry, because I’m blessed And I guess She’s right I think back to that night The night we first met Back to all the times I could never forget
Her love makes me reminisce Back to our first kiss The feeling of complete bliss But it’s her smile that I always miss
Her smile lights up my world And no matter where I go, I know she’s my girl She’s my girl eh