BloodyCookie | One More Day | For Bärli 💖🕊🐾 @BloodyCookie | Uploaded April 2023 | Updated October 2024, 9 minutes ago.
Long, and depressive description incoming. Read at own risk
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Today is not such good day. Today marks the day my dear baby boy Bärli got put to sleep a year ago and of course I had to make an edit for him.
I originally planned something different but then I found this song again and changed my mind. This song just explains the situation so much better.
I would do anything to have my boy back, if just for one more day. I'd trade anything for it. I'd be ready to leave my own life behind to be with him again, I miss him so much. It feels like a part of me died with him.
The events of his deathhday sometimes play on repeat in my head randomly and then I just spent my night crying and on the edge of giving up. The pain is just too much sometimes.
Thinking about how I woke up that day, knowing it is my doggo's last day, I just woke up and instantly cried, which confused him of course. He walked up to me on the bed and lied down next to my head so he was breathing into my ear, something he never did before, he never cuddled THAT close to me. As if he was trying to cheer me up, trying to make the best out of it. I, of course, cried even more because of that but I also was so touched that he chose to do this.
The waiting for the vet to arrive of course was pure agony too. We all were in physical pain seeing this happen. Him getting the syringe and slowly becoming more and more loose, his eyes becoming more and more dull and lifeless as I stared into them.
One thing that comforts me a bit though is that Bärli was visibly happy as he saw the vet. He was always scared of him, he never liked to see him, but on this day, he was jumping at him best he could, wagging his tail and looking into the bag the vet brought along. It almost seemed like as if he knew his pain would be over soon, his suffering would finally end. Bärli seemed... almost content.
I'm praying, every night, that Bärli wasn't too scared, that he knew we all loved him and forever will, that he was our dear baby boy, and that he is now safe, pain-free and happy.
And, of course, that we will meet again. That once I die, he will be among the first faces I see.
I'm so scared of the day I have to say goodbye to my remaining doggo Panky. She is still kicking well, even with her blindness now, but you can clearly tell that she is old and one day, her day would come, and I'm terrified of it. I can't go through this pain again, I just can't. I dont know what I will do once she is gone too.
After all this depressing rambling, let me address the edit itself.
I made a few edits already which feature my Bärli so I decided to take these character again for it. Vi, my persona, and Balto, the representation of Bärli.
Mixing these two medias might sound weird at first, but they do look oddly pleasing together.
I focused on mostly how a reunion could look like and how it would be spent together, I hope you also get a feeling of how much I long for this to happen while watching.
So yeah, I think I said everything I wanted to say. Sorry for this long description but thank you if you read it to this point.
I hope you enjoy.
Rest in Peace, Bärli 🕊
I love you so much 💞
(3.1.2010 - 14.4.2022 ✝)
Maskings: SaraChanLionWolf, Munelight, binniewabbit, wasted, Nightdreamer, me
Let me know if I forgot someone
I own nothing. I just edit.
Copyright Disclaimer, Under Section 107 of the Copyright Act 1976, allowance is made for ‘fair use’ purposes such as criticism, comment, news reporting, teaching, scholarship, and research. Fair use is a use permitted by copyright statute that might otherwise be infringing. Non-profit, educational or personal use tips the balance in favor of fair use.
#animash #arcane #viarcane #tribute #deathanniversary #dog
Long, and depressive description incoming. Read at own risk
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Today is not such good day. Today marks the day my dear baby boy Bärli got put to sleep a year ago and of course I had to make an edit for him.
I originally planned something different but then I found this song again and changed my mind. This song just explains the situation so much better.
I would do anything to have my boy back, if just for one more day. I'd trade anything for it. I'd be ready to leave my own life behind to be with him again, I miss him so much. It feels like a part of me died with him.
The events of his deathhday sometimes play on repeat in my head randomly and then I just spent my night crying and on the edge of giving up. The pain is just too much sometimes.
Thinking about how I woke up that day, knowing it is my doggo's last day, I just woke up and instantly cried, which confused him of course. He walked up to me on the bed and lied down next to my head so he was breathing into my ear, something he never did before, he never cuddled THAT close to me. As if he was trying to cheer me up, trying to make the best out of it. I, of course, cried even more because of that but I also was so touched that he chose to do this.
The waiting for the vet to arrive of course was pure agony too. We all were in physical pain seeing this happen. Him getting the syringe and slowly becoming more and more loose, his eyes becoming more and more dull and lifeless as I stared into them.
One thing that comforts me a bit though is that Bärli was visibly happy as he saw the vet. He was always scared of him, he never liked to see him, but on this day, he was jumping at him best he could, wagging his tail and looking into the bag the vet brought along. It almost seemed like as if he knew his pain would be over soon, his suffering would finally end. Bärli seemed... almost content.
I'm praying, every night, that Bärli wasn't too scared, that he knew we all loved him and forever will, that he was our dear baby boy, and that he is now safe, pain-free and happy.
And, of course, that we will meet again. That once I die, he will be among the first faces I see.
I'm so scared of the day I have to say goodbye to my remaining doggo Panky. She is still kicking well, even with her blindness now, but you can clearly tell that she is old and one day, her day would come, and I'm terrified of it. I can't go through this pain again, I just can't. I dont know what I will do once she is gone too.
After all this depressing rambling, let me address the edit itself.
I made a few edits already which feature my Bärli so I decided to take these character again for it. Vi, my persona, and Balto, the representation of Bärli.
Mixing these two medias might sound weird at first, but they do look oddly pleasing together.
I focused on mostly how a reunion could look like and how it would be spent together, I hope you also get a feeling of how much I long for this to happen while watching.
So yeah, I think I said everything I wanted to say. Sorry for this long description but thank you if you read it to this point.
I hope you enjoy.
Rest in Peace, Bärli 🕊
I love you so much 💞
(3.1.2010 - 14.4.2022 ✝)
Maskings: SaraChanLionWolf, Munelight, binniewabbit, wasted, Nightdreamer, me
Let me know if I forgot someone
I own nothing. I just edit.
Copyright Disclaimer, Under Section 107 of the Copyright Act 1976, allowance is made for ‘fair use’ purposes such as criticism, comment, news reporting, teaching, scholarship, and research. Fair use is a use permitted by copyright statute that might otherwise be infringing. Non-profit, educational or personal use tips the balance in favor of fair use.
#animash #arcane #viarcane #tribute #deathanniversary #dog
