Uploaded July 2026 | Updated September 2026, 2 weeks ago
In this episode, Augustine shares a real one-on-one consult from the very first Midwifery Wisdom Fellowship cohort — a conversation with Emmelia.
Emmelia is navigating a question many apprentice and student midwives face: what does a sustainable path in this work actually look like? She's processing betrayal by a preceptor who left her stranded without signed-off skills, wrestling with whether solo practice or a birth center model fits her life, and trying to figure out if she can be both a hands-on provider and a business owner without losing herself — or her family — in the process.
Augustine and Emmelia talk through the Dunning-Kruger effect and why that crash in confidence after early competence is actually a sign of real growth. They talk about processing trauma from an unsupportive preceptor relationship, the difference between scarcity and abundance mindset in a competitive field, and why so many birth centers close within a few years while others last for decades. It's an honest look at the tension between calling and capacity — and a reminder that building something sustainable is its own form of midwifery.
Emmelia generously gave us permission to share this consult, believing other students and apprentices working through similar struggles might find something useful in it.
To learn more about the next cohort of the Midwifery Wisdom Fellowship starting September 1, 2026, visit our website midwiferywisdomcollective.com/midwifery-wisdom-fellowship-2
In this episode, Augustine shares a real one-on-one consult from the very first Midwifery Wisdom Fellowship cohort — a conversation with Emmelia.
Emmelia is navigating a question many apprentice and student midwives face: what does a sustainable path in this work actually look like? She's processing betrayal by a preceptor who left her stranded without signed-off skills, wrestling with whether solo practice or a birth center model fits her life, and trying to figure out if she can be both a hands-on provider and a business owner without losing herself — or her family — in the process.
Augustine and Emmelia talk through the Dunning-Kruger effect and why that crash in confidence after early competence is actually a sign of real growth. They talk about processing trauma from an unsupportive preceptor relationship, the difference between scarcity and abundance mindset in a competitive field, and why so many birth centers close within a few years while others last for decades. It's an honest look at the tension between calling and capacity — and a reminder that building something sustainable is its own form of midwifery.
Emmelia generously gave us permission to share this consult, believing other students and apprentices working through similar struggles might find something useful in it.
To learn more about the next cohort of the Midwifery Wisdom Fellowship starting September 1, 2026, visit our website midwiferywisdomcollective.com/midwifery-wisdom-fellowship-2





![Midlife Awakening: Breaking the “Good Girl” Cycle with Kristen Brickl
Are you managing your life instead of living it? Many women reach midlife only to realize they’ve spent decades as Good Girls, over-functioning and people-pleasing until their bodies—and souls—hit a wall.
In this episode, intuitive counselor Kristen Brickell joins Augustine to discuss the profound shift from martyrdom to sovereignty. We explore why midlife is only a crisis if you miss the awakening and how caregivers, especially midwives, can move from being the source of everyone’s needs to a channel for divine service.
In this episode, you’ll learn:
The somatic impact of the Good Girl narrative.
Why your body keeps the score through autoimmune and fatigue issues.
The Pause practice for immediate nervous system regulation.
How to navigate the liminal space (the uncomfortable gap between who you were and who youre becoming).
Timestamps:
0:00 - Cold Open: The moment you realize you’ve lost yourself.
2:15 - Meet Kristen Brickell: 20 years of intuitive counseling.
8:40 - The Good Girl Arc: From people-pleaser to midlife martyr.
15:22 - When the Body Says No: The link between over-giving and health.
22:10 - Tool: The Pause & Practice of Receiving.
30:45 - Navigating the Liminal Space: The Birth Canal of Midlife.
42:30 - Channel vs. Source: A new mindset for caregivers and midwives.
55:00 - Closing: How to come home to yourself.
Resources & Links:
Kristen’s Website: [KristenBrickl.com]
Follow Kristen on IG: [@kristen.brickl]
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