Uploaded October 2022 | Updated September 2026, 2 weeks ago
I didnt plan on uploading it today but stuff happened and I just want this off my chest.
I think the song really says it all.
Citizen Soldier has so many songs that just hit so damn close and describe the feelings so well. They making the best songs for vents imo
Used Vi for this because she is like the main persona of my channel IF YOU COULDN'T TELL-
While editing though I realized how well this song fits for her character actually and I was like "Woah :O"
And she is my biggest comfort character so using her for this vent just helped so immensively. I really wish I could be more like her though... I could really need her confidence and such (and the good looks-)
This edit is basically every of my emotions thrown into one edit and I hope it shows.
But yeah, I think the song pretty much explains everything really well. I can't stress that enough. The song describes EXACTLY how I feel, 100%. I just keep being the disppointment and failure in my family. I'm never good enough, I let everyone down and I just feel unwanted and unwelcomed in my enviroment, because I'm just different. I'm trying so damn hard to please everyone. I sometimes do stuff I don't want to do, just so that the other one is happy. Yet it is never enough, never appreciated. I dare to do something I prefer doing, I'm instantly the bad guy. EVERY SINGLE TIME AND I JUST CAN'T ANYMORE
Im literally doing stuff for my mom so she doesnt have to because I wanted to surprise her and make her happy because she had so much stress lately. What does she do? Doesnt even notice it and just yells at me again for being so lazy and for only making mistakes. She yelled at me 6 times today and still didnt notice that I did her chores. She yelled at me while I was buying her fucking birthday present. I was close to crying while I purchased it. I'm just so fucking done with all this.
Sorry mom that you only managed to give birth to one successful, functioning child. Sorry that the second child is just a complete failure. Sorry that her mental health fucked her up so much that she can't function without help. Sorry that everything I do is just wrong and I keep making mistakes while trying to please you so you just have to yell at me all the time.
Sorry everyone I know for being the weird and anxious one everywhere. Sorry for hating myself so much that I doubt myself so I barely speak up in a group of 3+ and get overwhelmed. Sorry for constantly needing approval and being annoying. Sorry for not knowing how to properly interact with people so I come off as rude or uninterested. Sorry for rarely writing first because I'm afraid I will bother or annoy you and I literally have no idea what to say. Sorry for trying and failing to keep up friendships. Sorry that my attempts to please everyone except me are never good enough. Sorry that I dare to want feeling appreciated and wanted.
Sorry for literally being too fucking stupid to be able to live.
Sorry for exisiting.
Sometimes I really just think I'd be better off dead. There are like only a handful of things that are holding me back at this point.
Can you imagine though that I am still one of those people who think they don't deserve or need therapy because they are just exaggerating things anyway in their opinon? I have people telling me that I need help but I'm just like "Nah, I'm sure I'm just making issues up so it surely isn't a severe mental illness, im just exaggerating probably :)"
I'm not telling them that, but I think it. Ironic, isn't it?
I originally wrote a long ass description for this that explained everything a bit further but I ended up cringing about sharing that so I deleted it again lmao now you have the summary
I took a screenshot of it though because it explained everything so well LOL-
Watch this video barely get any attention because Youtube hates me lately and doesnt show my edits anymore lmao
I took the lyrics from the official lyrics video from the song. I didnt make it. I also cut the audio a lot.
I own nothing. I just edit.
Copyright Disclaimer, Under Section 107 of the Copyright Act 1976, allowance is made for ‘fair use’ purposes such as criticism, comment, news reporting, teaching, scholarship, and research. Fair use is a use permitted by copyright statute that might otherwise be infringing. Non-profit, educational or personal use tips the balance in favor of fair use.
#arcane #viarcane #arcaneedit #arcaneedits
I didnt plan on uploading it today but stuff happened and I just want this off my chest.
I think the song really says it all.
Citizen Soldier has so many songs that just hit so damn close and describe the feelings so well. They making the best songs for vents imo
Used Vi for this because she is like the main persona of my channel IF YOU COULDN'T TELL-
While editing though I realized how well this song fits for her character actually and I was like "Woah :O"
And she is my biggest comfort character so using her for this vent just helped so immensively. I really wish I could be more like her though... I could really need her confidence and such (and the good looks-)
This edit is basically every of my emotions thrown into one edit and I hope it shows.
But yeah, I think the song pretty much explains everything really well. I can't stress that enough. The song describes EXACTLY how I feel, 100%. I just keep being the disppointment and failure in my family. I'm never good enough, I let everyone down and I just feel unwanted and unwelcomed in my enviroment, because I'm just different. I'm trying so damn hard to please everyone. I sometimes do stuff I don't want to do, just so that the other one is happy. Yet it is never enough, never appreciated. I dare to do something I prefer doing, I'm instantly the bad guy. EVERY SINGLE TIME AND I JUST CAN'T ANYMORE
Im literally doing stuff for my mom so she doesnt have to because I wanted to surprise her and make her happy because she had so much stress lately. What does she do? Doesnt even notice it and just yells at me again for being so lazy and for only making mistakes. She yelled at me 6 times today and still didnt notice that I did her chores. She yelled at me while I was buying her fucking birthday present. I was close to crying while I purchased it. I'm just so fucking done with all this.
Sorry mom that you only managed to give birth to one successful, functioning child. Sorry that the second child is just a complete failure. Sorry that her mental health fucked her up so much that she can't function without help. Sorry that everything I do is just wrong and I keep making mistakes while trying to please you so you just have to yell at me all the time.
Sorry everyone I know for being the weird and anxious one everywhere. Sorry for hating myself so much that I doubt myself so I barely speak up in a group of 3+ and get overwhelmed. Sorry for constantly needing approval and being annoying. Sorry for not knowing how to properly interact with people so I come off as rude or uninterested. Sorry for rarely writing first because I'm afraid I will bother or annoy you and I literally have no idea what to say. Sorry for trying and failing to keep up friendships. Sorry that my attempts to please everyone except me are never good enough. Sorry that I dare to want feeling appreciated and wanted.
Sorry for literally being too fucking stupid to be able to live.
Sorry for exisiting.
Sometimes I really just think I'd be better off dead. There are like only a handful of things that are holding me back at this point.
Can you imagine though that I am still one of those people who think they don't deserve or need therapy because they are just exaggerating things anyway in their opinon? I have people telling me that I need help but I'm just like "Nah, I'm sure I'm just making issues up so it surely isn't a severe mental illness, im just exaggerating probably :)"
I'm not telling them that, but I think it. Ironic, isn't it?
I originally wrote a long ass description for this that explained everything a bit further but I ended up cringing about sharing that so I deleted it again lmao now you have the summary
I took a screenshot of it though because it explained everything so well LOL-
Watch this video barely get any attention because Youtube hates me lately and doesnt show my edits anymore lmao
I took the lyrics from the official lyrics video from the song. I didnt make it. I also cut the audio a lot.
I own nothing. I just edit.
Copyright Disclaimer, Under Section 107 of the Copyright Act 1976, allowance is made for ‘fair use’ purposes such as criticism, comment, news reporting, teaching, scholarship, and research. Fair use is a use permitted by copyright statute that might otherwise be infringing. Non-profit, educational or personal use tips the balance in favor of fair use.
#arcane #viarcane #arcaneedit #arcaneedits
