Alice Phantom | My Reaction To My First Day At College @AlicePhantom | Uploaded 7 years ago | Updated 20 hours ago
That's something I never thought I'd write lol.
But yea. Had my first day of college today. All things considered, it went well. Had lunch with some friends, one of which I found out today that went there, and kinda didn't feel like everyone hated me.
...Sorry I haven't uploaded anything in like a month and a half. Life kinda sucks. Now that I'm in college, things may still be slow because of all the crap I have to do this semester. I have a research project due at the end of the semester for history and it kinda blows, because I don't like history. But I've been good at research projects so hoping for the best.
Hopefully by the time the semester is over, I'll have made a friend. (Besides the people I know there.) Like today went by so fast, and honestly it feels like a blur but yeah.
Anyway, to anyone else going back to school today/tomorrow.
GOOD LUCK! If you're in high school, that shit goes by fast. Honestly, the last 4 years flew by so fast I can barely remember it. But yea. Good luck my fellow students! :D
That's something I never thought I'd write lol.
But yea. Had my first day of college today. All things considered, it went well. Had lunch with some friends, one of which I found out today that went there, and kinda didn't feel like everyone hated me.
...Sorry I haven't uploaded anything in like a month and a half. Life kinda sucks. Now that I'm in college, things may still be slow because of all the crap I have to do this semester. I have a research project due at the end of the semester for history and it kinda blows, because I don't like history. But I've been good at research projects so hoping for the best.
Hopefully by the time the semester is over, I'll have made a friend. (Besides the people I know there.) Like today went by so fast, and honestly it feels like a blur but yeah.
Anyway, to anyone else going back to school today/tomorrow.
GOOD LUCK! If you're in high school, that shit goes by fast. Honestly, the last 4 years flew by so fast I can barely remember it. But yea. Good luck my fellow students! :D
![[DC/Marvel] Not Alone Collab w/TheIron GhostGirl {Happy Birthday StarlightRaven!}](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/AqZ432dDxFU/hqdefault.jpg "[DC/Marvel] Not Alone Collab w/TheIron GhostGirl {Happy Birthday StarlightRaven!}
First off I want to say:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY STARLIGHTRAVEN YOU ARE LEGAL IN THE US OF A!
Jens message for Star: Be honored Star, I downloaded Deadpool just for you. It costed me almost 3GBs. Anyway, happy birthday! ^-^ (Ps: shell probs comment on here with a better message.)
My theme: Family relationships.
Jens Theme: Friends and family being there for each other.
Since Star likes DC and Marvel I decided to grab my friend Jen and pose we do a collab. I chose DC since I have no Marvel, and I told Jen to use Marvel because of that.
Jens channel: https://www.youtube.com/user/TheThinkShow1 (Go sub my awesome collab partner)
Stars channel: https://www.youtube.com/user/BurningBlazetheCat28 (Please sub the bae! Shes like me, but less cooler.)
Fun Fact: I actually fucked up. I was supposed to do Evens, and Jen was supposed to do Odds. She did part 3, and I finished part 1. I was like, Crap. So I gave her 2. Normally its cut and dry, but I fucked up. But hey its an awesome part, so yay for me fucking up.
FF #2: The Jason and Bucky thumbnail was actually a render Star made. I just added the text. So thanks boo for not asking why I needed this. xD
FF#3: I used so much blue because thats Stars favorite colour. :)
Part 1: Alice Phantom: Batman: Bad Blood, Son of Batman, and Comics
Part 2: TheIron GhostGirl: Deadpool
Part 3: TheIron GhostGirl: Ant-Man
Part 4: Alice Phantom: Under The Red Hood and Comics
Part 5: TheIron GhostGirl: Civil War
Part 6: Alice Phantom: Young Justice Invasion, The New Batman Adventures, Return of the Joker, Batman Unlimited, and Comics
We dont own anything, please dont sue. Were just two teenage girls trying to make a living editing.")
![Monster (Big Hero 6) [Paramore]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/Bg_9Wn02GDg/hqdefault.jpg "Monster (Big Hero 6) [Paramore]
I waited 4 months for this movie to pop up on the interwebs. 4. Freaking. Months. As soon as I realized it was on DVD I went to download it from the interwebs. I spent all of last night and today finishing this for you lovely folks. But seriously if you havent seen Big Hero 6... Go and watch it! :3
I knew how I was going to do most of this while watching the movie in theaters. xD I did revolve this around Big Hero 6 along with Professor Callaghan because you know villains need a little love as well. Along with Aunt Cass, Tadashi, and Abigail... xD")
![[Ben Tennyson] Why Is Everything So Heavy? {Vent}](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/BtrXKtnnphM/hqdefault.jpg "[Ben Tennyson] Why Is Everything So Heavy? {Vent}
.....Am I ever going to make a video thats not a vent? (Besides MEP parts.)
First off, dont turn away just because this is all Ben 10 Omniverse. I respect if you dont like it, please respect the time I took to make this video. (Altho, it only took me like less than 24 hours to make, but not the point.) If you respect me as an editor, you should respect my work regardless of the media.
Anywho, had to say that because some people may be like that since I havent worked with strictly Omniverse in such a long time. I kinda threw some Ben x Rook there but its subtle.
Vent: *Like the song, this has some swears. Never said I was a family friendly editor. Trigger warning for self harm/suicidal thoughts.*
Holy. Fucking. Shit. This fucking week.
Okay so first it started with not being invited to, what I thought was, a good friends graduation party. I actually thought we were closer than just causal friends who see each other at Crew/events. Apparently I was wrong in thinking that. I guess Im just the girl he uses to make him laugh at his jokes. I cant just ask about it because Id just be fishing for an invite like how my ex tried to do with my girl friend. I assumed I wasnt invited last crew meeting when he talked about it with someone else. Its on Sunday, so hed have his invites out already. (My cousin tried saying he just didnt get the chance to invite me.) The next morning I slept in until about 2:30pm. (When I only went to bed at 1am, even still I never sleep in that long.) My father woke me up because he thought something was wrong with me.
Next thing. On Tuesday a fellow crew member posted about the lockin, we were supposed to have, asking who can make it. My sister, and the other girl in the group couldnt make it. One of the leaders pointed out that there needed to be a female leader in order for me to spend the night. For a while I thought I was going to be fucked over and not be able to spend the night.
Yesterday that leader posted that the Flag Retirement, the reason we have the lock in, was postponed and moved to the 23rd. There was a poll in the group if we should move the lock in. Ultimately it was moved. So hey I guess I didnt need to feel bad about it at all. :)
Another thing happened on Tuesday. My stepdad called me at about 10:30pm. He talked to me and told me that him and my mother are planning on moving to North Carolina the second week of August. He explained how she wants to move to have a fresh start, and how it would be better for her. He told me how my oldest brother was upset about it and glad I was okay with it. No, I understand why you guys are moving but Im not okay with it.
Like I honestly get why they have to move. Its cheaper and itll help my mother. But literally telling me this not even a week after I finished high school? Then telling me that once you guys move, you want to see me at least once a year. I spent half the night crying, well I wouldve if my grandma didnt go up to bed right after I did.
Originally my plan was to maybe live with them for college since they lived so close to where Im attended. (I said maybe because I didnt figure it out yet.) Now I guess I dont have to make that choice anymore. Going to that fucking college is going to kill me because they live in that town. My stepdad said that once I get done with community college I can go down there for the rest of my college years.
Im sorry, but I have friends here. Do you not understand how hard it is to make friends? Do you not get that Id have to start over? That shit is hard. I cant just pack up my shit and move states. He also said that he may try and get my oldest brother down there. No. Dont you fucking dare. Dont you fucking dare take away one of my siblings. Bad enough I wont see my mom once they move, but I will not fucking not see my oldest brother. (I am the youngest, so I have no say.)
I actually was telling the girls I hang out with about them moving. One was like, Oh you can go and visit them. ...No shit Sherlock. I wasnt asking for a solution. Then she went back to talking about her not-boyfriend. Like I know Im not the center of the universe, but this is the kind of shit that makes me want to kill myself.
I probably wouldve tried ODing again if I had the pills here. Im practically out of Tylenol and Im out of Aleve. And Im not fucking around with my grandmas and dads pills. (Theres still some smartness in my head not to mess with shit I dont know.) Doesnt stop me from cutting my shoulders though.
At this point Im questioning if Im ever going to have anything good happen. All this shit is piling up at once. Its so much more than I can carry.
But seriously, why is everything so heavy?
....Its rhetorical so dont bother answering. Thanks for reading I guess. Idk.")
