Alice Phantom | My Reaction To Ending School Yesterday @AlicePhantom | Uploaded 9 years ago | Updated 14 hours ago
Yesterday was my last day of school, and I kid you not I did what Wally did when I got out of the school. xD Hello 3 months of Summer Vacation! :3
Yesterday was my last day of school, and I kid you not I did what Wally did when I got out of the school. xD Hello 3 months of Summer Vacation! :3
![{Terra x Beast Boy} Missing [Vent]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/qGR26TYu1Ds/hqdefault.jpg "{Terra x Beast Boy} Missing [Vent]
Oh, what a shock another vent.
First point: The voice over in the beginning is from Last of Us. I only used it because Ellie has the same voice as Terra. (I dont play the game.) Also the idea came to me when I saw another editor use it on Tumblr.
I also finished this in like 8 hours. Guess I really need to vent or something.
Trigger Warning!!!! (I feel the need to put it since I explain shit.)
Vent: Okay sooooo basically Ive been binge listening to this song. I knew I wanted to edit with it and eventually I did. Its another vent about my one friend. Like I honestly feel like he wouldnt care about the stuff Ive been doing. Guess Ill do the same thing as I did with the last video.
I know what you do to yourself. This is more directed at him telling me that, not me telling him. /If he ever bothered to confront me about all the things I do./ Or hell confront me about the shit Ive posted to Snapchat. Like gosh saying I dont want to eat. And saying if I cant starve myself Ill do something else, aka throw it back up, doesnt send alarm signals? (Altho I guess Im not your responsibility so why would you care? Why would you care about the girl whos doing the same shit you did?)
Even though Im the sacrifice, you wont try for me not now. I thought Id be dead by now. I did not expect to make it through senior year and graduate. I thought I wouldve killed myself. Not for the lack of trying because I have, they just failed.
Isnt someone missing me? Honestly I wonder if anyone does miss me. I wonder if anyone ever randomly thinks about me throughout the day like, oh hey maybe I should text Allie, or look at her Snapchat. (Since I post daily, mostly stupid shit.)
Terras dialogue: I added that in because I have done horrible things. Other than self harm, binging, and purging, there are a shit ton of things Ive done this year. Stuff that I should regret, but dont. Sure I hate how I resorted to that, but I dont regret it. Not at all.
And if I bleed, Ill bleed. Pretty much self harm when I try and go deep to where it bleeds. Can never get it to bleed heavily tho, dunno if thats a good or bad thing tbh.
Is there something missing? Is there something- Sometimes I question if anything is missing. Like is there something in my life Im missing to be happy? It seems shit keeps piling on one after another. I do something to myself, then I hear bad news about someone I know. Or something bad happens to them. (Not them dying, other stuff.)
Though Id die to know you love me, Im all alone. Regardless of everything, Im still alone. It seems you only know people love you if you do in fact die. Sure as hell cant feel it when youre in your hole. When youre so far down, you cant see anything and just listen to those voices in your head. They tell you youre better off by yourself. They tell you youre better off cutting, starving, and throwing up.
Years ago I never thought my life would end up like this. Im honestly scared to go to Vermont next week with the Crew because I dont know if I can trust myself. I sure as hell wont be able to skip meals, but I sure as hell dont have to eat much. Hell once I know where the bathrooms are I could throw it up if I get the time. Im way worse than I was last year. When we went to Erie, I didnt think of self harming or trying to die. Sure I did it at my house before the trip, but once I got there I didnt do anything. I was happy.
I should be excited to get out of this town for a long weekend, but Im not. I think theres an odd number of youth going and Im the odd one out. I dont want to intrude on the others if I have to be the third wheel. (I think Im the only girl going now? Not counting my sister.) Even then Im not really friends with the other girl in the group.
I still think Im better off dead. Probs would be by now if I didnt like food so much or if my dad wasnt home. Probs would be if there was Aleeve and Tyenlol here. Probs would be if I used a sharper thing to cut. Probs would be if I threw up after meals instead of waiting until before I go to sleep. Most people just probs think I wont do anything since Ive said I was going to do it but it hasnt worked.
Anyway Im rambling, if you read all of this thanks. And if someone who knows me personally is reading this. Im not sorry you found out this way.
If the person a lot of this is directed to is reading this. Sorry? I didnt feel like I could text you about all this when youre busy with whatever youre doing. And most certainly if you were hanging with your girlfriend. Just dont mention this video but keep an eye on me. Im not entirely trustworthy since I can lie with a straight face.")
![[Tim Drake] How Could This Happen To Me?](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/qdV-U1aCgVQ/hqdefault.jpg "[Tim Drake] How Could This Happen To Me?
Edit #1: 1/15/17 Wow so many likes. And yes I am aware that parts of this video appears in Tiny Titans Feel Invincible video about Tim. It was stolen from here because I sure as hell didnt give her permission to use this video.
Note: I am so sorry for the flashes! That was accidental on my part. I rendered my watermark separately on a white screen since its black/red, for reusing purposes, and there was a black blank clip in the beginning of it. I didnt catch it till it rendered and there was no way I was rerendering it again. (It took an hour.)
After 3, technically 4 if you count today, days I finally got this CMV done. Oh my god. Wow its been so long since Ive made a full song video. o.o
Okay so this kind of follows Tims mind after he killed the Joker among other things.
Yes I put Annie in here because I felt so sorry for her. I know she was part of Clayface, but seriously did she have to die? I shipped her and Tim so hard!
Making this video made me fall in love with this Tim Drake. xD He looks so smug in like every episode I have of him. xD I think hes the only one who can get away with telling Bruce off.
I only wish there were more Dick and Tim scenes though.... :P
And after I uploaded this I get more episodes which in turn more Dick and Tim scenes.... Mhm. Tots fair.")
![[Albedo] Horrible Kids](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/rwhH1rvAD-Q/hqdefault.jpg "[Albedo] Horrible Kids
Its 2023 and Albedo STILL deserved a redemption arc.
This video happened because I was putting music in my Sony Vegas at midnight on August 28th of 2022. Randomly put this song in and all the wheels started turning, since this is the perfect song for how Albedos character went in UAF. Cause everytime he tried to go back to being Galvan, it was always screwed up due to ignorance on others parts.
What about Omniverse? I have Albedo Omniverse episodes, hell I even downloaded Trouble Helix a bit back because Galvan Albedo, they just didnt fit the vibe I was going for with this video cause his character was changed in OV to where hes more evil than sympathetic. (Which I could do a whole essay on.) I also downloaded Malgax Attacks to for more Omniverse Albedo, but thats not important to this video either just felt the need to mention that.
Want to give a few shoutouts in this description:
I was inspired by @WitchofMinds two Ben 10 videos:
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uP5vhZ2Nc9M (How Far Weve Come)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5G_tFKKklg0 (We Dont Have To Dance)
Kept watching the We Dont Have To Dance one specifically when I was hyperfixating on Albedo, and ended up loving the song so thanks for that.
A shout out to @Nightjewel-rp1bl too, no special reason, I just love her Ben 10 videos.
And a final shoutout to the the two Ben 10 Discords Im in for putting up with my Albedo hyperfixation bullshit the last few months, and highly encouraging me on it at some points.
This video was 64 layers, excluding the audio track and the layer for my watermark, because of everything I did. I dont think I worked this hard on a full song video since High Hopes. [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JwUAr4srPOE] (Despite having other full song videos, they didnt have this much of a grind put into them.)
I almost just left this description as ahhhhhhhhh but I had things to say lmao. Allie making a full length music video in 2023? Anyone had that on their bingo cards? Well if I posted this months ago, like it shouldve been, that wouldnt have been on my bingo card for 2022 lol. My hyperfixation on Albedo died, and the motivation for this video was still there but text was hard. Finally got around to fully finishing it today, and its an amazing feeling.
I had all the clips done months ago, but text was a pain to figure out how I wanted to do things. And some stuff I wanted to do I couldnt cause I didnt want to spend more time masking stuff so I figured out an alternative way to do it which worked better than what I was thinking of doing.
When this was all done, I actually squealed because holy fuck this months long project can finally be done. Theres still some issues with this, but its just nitpicks that I wasnt waiting another half hour to render just to fix.
Cant believe I finally have a video that tops High Hopes that I can put on my profile now lol, nothing else compared to how much I grinded on that video until now.
Fun fact: I only used Albedo UAF episodes here. If youre looking for a scene its one of five episodes so you got a 1/5 chance of finding the scene from one of his appearances lol.
This video made me love this song, I didnt really listen to it that much until I made this video. (Even though I did have it downloaded.) Funny how that works out lol.")
