Uploaded June 2020 | Updated September 2026, 2 weeks ago
Ahaha how am i gonna explain this vent now? Considering i have a stinky mass of moldy goo for a brain i cant put anything i feel into words but ill try:
So yes. I like to animate, i do not intend to STOP animating, but the progress i take while animating is coming along slower and slower. Now the reason i post animations to here is bc i want ppl to see, but theres another reason..
I lack love from people irl, so i pretty much depend on yt for what i dont really have irl. Ik, it sounds pretty pathetic, but its true. If i cry, they dont even ask why im crying in a calm voice, they yell at me why am u crying, saying they will give me a reason to cry, and it doesnt help, and do i give a fuck if they see this? No. I pretty much lost my ability to care a while ago. Along with emotions. Idk anymore. I rely on others i dont even know to give the one thing i lack. Moi maman doesnt even care, Moi gran-mere doesnt care, no one cares irl, but online, i post somthing, and people like it! i try to show ppl irl, and they say, "what is that supposed to be?" and while i try to explain, they turn away! So i keep it to myself, and never tell.
I never tell.
I never
Tell.
Ahaha how am i gonna explain this vent now? Considering i have a stinky mass of moldy goo for a brain i cant put anything i feel into words but ill try:
So yes. I like to animate, i do not intend to STOP animating, but the progress i take while animating is coming along slower and slower. Now the reason i post animations to here is bc i want ppl to see, but theres another reason..
I lack love from people irl, so i pretty much depend on yt for what i dont really have irl. Ik, it sounds pretty pathetic, but its true. If i cry, they dont even ask why im crying in a calm voice, they yell at me why am u crying, saying they will give me a reason to cry, and it doesnt help, and do i give a fuck if they see this? No. I pretty much lost my ability to care a while ago. Along with emotions. Idk anymore. I rely on others i dont even know to give the one thing i lack. Moi maman doesnt even care, Moi gran-mere doesnt care, no one cares irl, but online, i post somthing, and people like it! i try to show ppl irl, and they say, "what is that supposed to be?" and while i try to explain, they turn away! So i keep it to myself, and never tell.
I never tell.
I never
Tell.
