Thexangeldits | Mom i'm tired // multifandom (vent) @thexangeldits | Uploaded August 2024 | Updated October 2024, 19 hours ago.
Well i'm not the type of person of doing this, but thought i do it anyways to express myself, i barely tell people how i fell, and true is i'm not okay since january, this year my mental health returned to be on a dark place, this year yeah sure some good stuff happened, but what it's truly hurting me a lot, is the fact i haven't been able to find a job :) i'ts been 6 months and i'm struggling a lot, my parents always tells me " do not worry, a door will be open soon " but true is, i feel awful, like i feel i'm making them to pay for everything and i feel so frustrated about it, i'm a lawyer, my title should be here soon, but yet i haven't found a job yet:/
why this song? well, i love both my parents but there was a period of time my dad had to travel to other city for work, so i grew to be so close to my mom, and i feel i'm disapointing her by not having yet a job :) she says i'm not, but it's just how i feel myself, i have closed myself to not tell anyone how i feel and it's kinda hurting me even more, i feel not enought, i question everything i do, i sleep so late cause i can't do it more early, and just well like i said i'm fighting my own mind :)
And don't feel bad for me, thought doing this would help expressing the chaos on my mind.
song: Mitski - class of 2013
Well i'm not the type of person of doing this, but thought i do it anyways to express myself, i barely tell people how i fell, and true is i'm not okay since january, this year my mental health returned to be on a dark place, this year yeah sure some good stuff happened, but what it's truly hurting me a lot, is the fact i haven't been able to find a job :) i'ts been 6 months and i'm struggling a lot, my parents always tells me " do not worry, a door will be open soon " but true is, i feel awful, like i feel i'm making them to pay for everything and i feel so frustrated about it, i'm a lawyer, my title should be here soon, but yet i haven't found a job yet:/
why this song? well, i love both my parents but there was a period of time my dad had to travel to other city for work, so i grew to be so close to my mom, and i feel i'm disapointing her by not having yet a job :) she says i'm not, but it's just how i feel myself, i have closed myself to not tell anyone how i feel and it's kinda hurting me even more, i feel not enought, i question everything i do, i sleep so late cause i can't do it more early, and just well like i said i'm fighting my own mind :)
And don't feel bad for me, thought doing this would help expressing the chaos on my mind.
song: Mitski - class of 2013
