Uploaded April 2025 | Updated September 2026, 2 weeks ago

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Been wondering every day if my heart's lighter than a feather, been wondering every day if my decisions even matter when it ends. Am I too far gone? (Far gone) it's hard to tell, when you've been to and from hell!

Lighter than a feather means it’s certain that I’ve done all that I could do to redeem myself,
And it’s clear that behind all the curtains that I’m not who I seem to be

They say fake it till you make it, never made it though I faked it, lies beneath all your feet like the cracks on the pavement
Trapped like an animal though I escaped my containment, and as time went on I started gettin complacent.

Had voices in my head who said the most impolite things to me, it was a crystal clear memory. It said, and I quote, “you’re a suicidal maniac”

Been wondering every day if my hearts lighter than a feather, been wondering every day if my decisions even matter when it ends.

Am I too far gone? (Far gone) It’s hard to tell, when you had it all and fell!

Lazy with my lies, careless with the rolling of the dice.

I played twice, both times I rolled snake eyes, I can't keep up the lies throughout my lows and highs I guess there's no surprise.

They're becoming wise, I cannot advise, keeping the disguise...

Can't tell if its been getting worse, I'm sad to say I'm not the first, to go through this, it feels as if I won't be missed when I go!

"Suicidal maniac" is harsh but it isn't too far from the truth, not sure from where but I gotta feeling it'll all get better soon.

Been wondering every day if my hearts lighter than a feather, been wondering every day if my decisions even matter when it ends.