Uploaded June 2018 | Updated September 2026, 2 weeks ago

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Oooof, what have I done B')


Forgive me, I literally did this in 4 hours and just blasted through at the speed of light with some funky brush tools before the idea faded! Sagu's "I'm Not Ready" Swiftpaw MAP (Link: youtube.com/watch?v=b2El99FYO6Y&t=0s ) DESTROYED ME. I was hit in the feelings so hard the first time I watched it I couldn't breath. Especially those forget me nots at the end, oooooooohhhhhh boi.

So I made a lil something. Inspired by "I'm not ready," but also this poem I happened to listen to by chance this morning. It's really incredible, check out the whole thing!!
youtube.com/watch?v=QL3J6IoWzsM

Idk if I'm going to keep it up or not bc it's so rushed/not particularly well edited, but if nya'll like it I will ^u^


The lyrics:

Some thoughts are kept in closets,
hanging next to skeletons and boogeymen.

Sometimes when we believe in monsters,
they take up residence under our beds.

Our heads filled with the dread needed to keep them fed.

We tread our fear,
because we somehow thought it was better off
being kept secret.

It should come as no surprise that some hearts are like dark bedrooms.

Tombs that we allowed ourselves to shut,
because we thought that way everything would be alright.

I think of my grandad's laugh.

I think often about that night.

About how some people are waiting for people like us,
to slide their hands against their walls and say,
"close your eyes....."

"I'm going to turn on a light."




This was a collab with my cat Bella who laid on half my laptop for four god forsaken hours and kept switching my tools every time she shifted her weight.