GlowingAprilSky | journey backwards| does it get easier? no. @GlowingAprilSky | Uploaded 6 years ago | Updated 8 minutes ago
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I can't believe i finished this video, it's been in sv for way too long, and the main inspiration for it goes to the contestants of my wya contest, as the last round theme was their 'journey backwards'. So i wanted to challenge myself, after seeing all the incredible entries, and do my own journey from when i'm standing today back to when it all started. I gotta say i thought it would be WAY easier haha

Anyhow it took me forever to find a song, and then i watched this video [youtube.com/watch?v=NEBaFlVyHqI&t=39s] and realised that this part of the song it's perfectly matched with the situations in my life, and its timing, so i decided to go for it. It may seem really messy, but it's really matched time wise. I will do the whole 'analysis' thing, and i won't judge if you couldn't care less and want to skip it haha Main point is that there is so much more i wanted to use, so many important things, but i couldn't match them with other scenes and the song, so there is a lot of the story missing, but i tried to put as much of those things that made me into who i am today. Hope you enjoy this.

-So, the first part of this video [around minute, right before graduation] shows some important events from last 2,3 years.It's missing on a lot of things..

-Second minute, before the 'you were happy once', are last 2 years of high school. I had some major breakdowns at the time, and the most dominant once were me feeling like i'm constantly letting everyone[especially my family] down, and not being able to figure out who i am and who i want to be. So i used a lot of those scenes with characters having trouble with picking their majors, because i felt like i wasn't really good at anything, and that i never will be, like i didn't have 'my thing'. I think the closest to me was that joey&dawson scene with : 'what's your true north? I don't think i have one'. And of course the being alone thing, but i feel like i talked about this topic so many times, and vidded it so often that it doesn't need explaining.

-Finally the last part of this video is based on the time between my childhood to the first 2 years of hs. i feel like those first 2 years were the 'calm before the storm.' They were troubly, but nothing in comparisn to what was coming. And years before that were just a little bit of everything, which is why i used that Charles Dickens quote, because those really were the best and worst of times. And even in the moments when i felt numb, and like nothing can make me feel anything, if i would find my writings from many years back, the fact that i was just a kid and feeling all sorts of ... blah, just kept breaking my heart over and over again. And when i heard that voiecover with being misunderstood by people you love the most, it just took me back to those days, and i felt it's perfect for what i went trough in my childhood. I feel like i should make a new video on my whole family situation, because i think that was my breaking point, something i never really recovered from, or got over. Anyhow i wanted to show that my childhood was a mix of good and bad, which made it a happy time, and it trully was a happy childhood.

-The last scene of this, the 'does it get easier' one, is really important, and this was something i wanted to show. Things never really got easier, but they did get a lot better, and i am def not living the life i planned or pictured, but i am sure now that that's the good thing.

If you read through all that nonsense THANK YOU, you are a trully caring person haha I hope it makes video more clear.

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