Uploaded June 2012 | Updated September 2026, 1 week ago

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~~SPOILER LYRICS~~
Try and understand them before peeking at them!!

Song: 戯言スピーカー (Joking Speaker / Nonesence Speaker)
Original: nicovideo.jp/watch/sm14387746
Song by Nekoboro

UST by Umbrellaguns
Edited by me (PaintedCz / Chezziechan)

UST Download: box.com/s/9b1f3be6a5c7c8d22ac1

MP3 Download: box.com/s/2585479e8cc1f33fcfb8

--Lyrics:--

The feelings I thought, I'd thrown away.
They cut, they burn, they kill so slow.
A smile like mine, is all for show.
The tears, I cry, I hate them so.

The wounds that I tried, to hide inside.
They bruise, they scar, silently bleed.
I've conculded that, you've failed to grasp.
You don't, catch on, it's you.

Words you speak, they cut so deep.
Can't you see they're killing me?
There's no way you could comprehend.
The cripled shape my soul is in.

Light I thought you'd guide me by, had faded long before my time.
At least now "I" can say my "lies" make up all of "me".

If day came too soon, as morning rose.
You'd gone, moved on, that's fine with me.
Yet still you left behind, such hurtful words.
Striking deep, wounds so real, they won't heal.

Just as it has always been.
You turn to me and laugh again.
Somewhere deep inside my heart,
I've hated this right from the start.

"It's too much, please stop, it hurts."
I cannot say these words to you.
A joke is what I'll always be. Let's laugh.
Do laugh, go laugh.

Right now, dissappear, am I gone?
It's just a lie, another lie.

Words you speak, they cut so deep.
Can't you see they're killing me?
Somewhere deep inside my heart,
I've hated myself from the start.
If you'd like to take away.
The life you gave, it'd be ok.
In the end "I" can say my "lies" make up all of "me", after all.

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I referenced the lyrics from here: animelyrics.com/doujin/vocaloid/tawagotospeaker.htm
and here: youtube.com/watch?v=U6srUoONdUc (PockyxLuvsxRamune)
And I wrote some on my own to try and best fit what I felt like was the meaning of the song.

I really love this song!

Art by me, referenced from this PV - nicovideo.jp/watch/sm14640234