Uploaded May 2017 | Updated September 2026, 2 days ago
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I feel like I have a lot to say about this video but I don't even know where to start.
When I started seeing Mack and being back at the barn where I leased Cheyenne, I expected everything to be very emotional. I expected to constantly be reminded of the memories I made there, but so far that hasn't been the case. And over the last few months I haven't felt the need to go and visit her. I haven't seen her at all this year so far, and it's going on 5 months since I last went. It's struck me lately that I truly have healed from everything. When I'm at her old barn where all our memories took place, all I'm focused on is Mack. Thinking about her doesn't feel painful.
For me, this is such a huge step. This horse meant so much to me and I feel she truly helped shape me into the equestrian I am today. Feeling like I no longer really need to keep her as a consistent part of my life, however much I still love her, has been such an important realization for me. I have been so wrecked for the longest time, but I honestly believe I finally cleansed myself of all the bad feelings and emotions and can start fresh.
This horse was my best friend once. I am so thankful for everything that she was when we were together. I feel like being with Mack is the start of a new chapter of my life, in the same place, just with a new horse and a new me. I am nowhere near the person I was 3 years ago, and I hope that I can now make new and happier memories there.
In another life I believe this horse was meant to be with me. But I know she's so extremely happy and well loved where she is now. Things worked out the way they should. I'm so amazed with how much improvement I've made as a rider in the past few years and I could not have accomplished that without losing her, however much it hurt.
Anyway, this song has been tugging at my heart the past few days so I felt like making this to express what I've finally realized. Hope you all enjoy!
{ hd makes things pretty }
I feel like I have a lot to say about this video but I don't even know where to start.
When I started seeing Mack and being back at the barn where I leased Cheyenne, I expected everything to be very emotional. I expected to constantly be reminded of the memories I made there, but so far that hasn't been the case. And over the last few months I haven't felt the need to go and visit her. I haven't seen her at all this year so far, and it's going on 5 months since I last went. It's struck me lately that I truly have healed from everything. When I'm at her old barn where all our memories took place, all I'm focused on is Mack. Thinking about her doesn't feel painful.
For me, this is such a huge step. This horse meant so much to me and I feel she truly helped shape me into the equestrian I am today. Feeling like I no longer really need to keep her as a consistent part of my life, however much I still love her, has been such an important realization for me. I have been so wrecked for the longest time, but I honestly believe I finally cleansed myself of all the bad feelings and emotions and can start fresh.
This horse was my best friend once. I am so thankful for everything that she was when we were together. I feel like being with Mack is the start of a new chapter of my life, in the same place, just with a new horse and a new me. I am nowhere near the person I was 3 years ago, and I hope that I can now make new and happier memories there.
In another life I believe this horse was meant to be with me. But I know she's so extremely happy and well loved where she is now. Things worked out the way they should. I'm so amazed with how much improvement I've made as a rider in the past few years and I could not have accomplished that without losing her, however much it hurt.
Anyway, this song has been tugging at my heart the past few days so I felt like making this to express what I've finally realized. Hope you all enjoy!
![Small Victories [Willow XC]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/Ntl7rkg99kE/mqdefault.jpg "Small Victories [Willow XC]
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Something a little different and basic but it makes me happy. We did our first XC schooling yesterday and Im insanely proud of him. This is mostly GoPro footage but theres a few phone videos in there too. Were doing another show this Saturday on this course so Im very excited! Love my pony more than words can express.")
![Fighter [Our first show]](https://i.ytimg.com/vi/Osv6a3cNqkA/mqdefault.jpg "Fighter [Our first show]
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UPDATE: We placed 4th in Intro C! So proud of him!
Black Jack and I competed in our first show this weekend!
We did Intro B and C and I dont yet know how I placed because I didnt have time to wait but I am so unbelievably happy with how today went.
We had a freak accident when unloading him at the show grounds this morning however. It was pretty much a life or death situation but he walked away with a few minor cuts and he wasnt lame so we were still able to show. I had no time to warm up for Intro B but he still gave 110% so the test was followed with happy tears!
I love him so much and am absolutely over the moon with him. He made me so proud today and I am thrilled. Whether we placed or not I am so thankful for him and the effort he gave today. ♥")
