Uploaded August 2022 | Updated September 2026, 8 hours ago

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A song about autistic masking for your listening pleasure.

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Lyrics:
God I hate this
When does it get easy?
Is there palatable people pleasing?

I love you so much
The way that I’m supposed to
With one foot out the door
And the other one in your shoe

I won’t get caught
I play me well
When you teach me how to be myself

It’s all I’ve got
To raise some hell
So you teach me how to be myself

Pleased to meet you
Give me just a moment
Gotta fill my cup up with whatever you’ve got going

I’m so unnaturally me
And you’re a shoe in
What the fuck does everybody know that I’m not doing?

I won’t get caught
I’ll play you well
If you teach me how to be myself

It’s all I’ve got
To raise some hell
So you teach me how to be myself

I practiced you so well
I even fooled myself
I paid my dues on the long road to ruin

I’m by my fruitless self
Without a soul to sell
Nobody told me I’m only one human

I won’t get caught
(I won’t get caught)
I play me well
(I play me well)
When you teach me how to be myself

I won’t get caught
(I won’t get caught)
I play me well
(I play me well)
When you teach me how to be myself