Uploaded April 2020 | Updated September 2026, 4 hours ago

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Lyrics:
Hug me and tell me you don't wanna go
Your skin is thin ice but I've seen through your soul
I wouldn't go back after all that I've learned
But I can't ignore the heart shattering yearn

Mmmmm
Mmmmm

Toxic, but I miss the thrill you overthrew
Safer, but I'm looking for something to do
Can't say I miss you now all these years passed
I've got better things for my heart to combat

Ohhhhh
Ohhhhh

Oh, I don't want to admit that I'm better off
Happier without the heartache
I can't stand being told that I was wrong
Lessons better learned by partake
Ignoring better friends 'cause they
Don't make stories to be told during old age
Just a poor excuse, covered tracks, that I'm bored of mundane
And I can't make good friends stay

Took another subway line just to see you
Walking home alone at night, over the moon
Took me seven years, but I'd got a clear view
Just for you to shatter it
What did I do?

Mmmmm
Mmmmm

Walking through the cars at all hours of the night
Life I'd always wanted in front of my eyes
Just like in the movies, but nothing good stays
I hope you took a piece of me just to replay

Ahhhhh
Ahhhhh

Oh, I don't want to admit that I'm better off
Happier without the heartache
I can't stand being told that I was wrong
Lessons better learned by partake
Ignoring better friends 'cause they
Don't make stories to be told during old age
Just a poor excuse, covered tracks, that I'm bored of mundane
And I can't make good friends stay

The life that I want
Just on the precipice
Go back and then forth
No space for residents to stay too long
I'm just a hostess for memories to fester until they're gone