OwONekko | help @OwONekko | Uploaded 6 years ago | Updated 11 minutes ago
its hard as fuck. i never leave my room let alone the house and when i finally get up to brush my hair after 2 weeks to 3 months, i end up cutting it out because it hurts so much. now i have bald patches and uneven hair. i can barely pull it in a ponytail. its sitting in bed not knowing what day it is ever and when your friends try to drag you out, you try to deny them every single time. its not talking to anyone because you dont want to deal with anyones voice or having to fake your personality because it tires you the fuck out. its not opening your mouth for DAYS because you know your breath stinks but you dont have the energy to get up and brush your teeth. its having your mom cry and not understand and you cant even explain it to her that its not her fault. its explaining to yourself every single day that you
dont belong here and if you kill yourself,its fine because you read in an article once the government will pay for it when your family cant. its having a happy day with your boyfriend but he knows something is wrong and you cant stop from frowning or crying just because your brain thinks you were too happy that day and dont deserve him. depression is literally killing me. im in tears right now because noone can really understand it and people who think they are depressed are just momentarily very sad. most peoples problems can be fixed by something or someone. depression its not anyones fault. and thats so hard to describe that to anyone.
noone can get rid of depression. there are no "happy" days. its not something to go to people bragging about. its not having a breakup and being upset over it for a few months. its not for little kids to just go around saying that they have. its thinking back to when your mom told you when you were born, you had your umbilical cord wrapped around your throat. and you wishing it would have killed you then. its a real disease that is KILLING ME. i am diagnosed with PTSD, Bipolar Depression, Anxiety, and Stuttering. And every day im struggling...
i thought i would try to describe what runs through my head every day. i want you to see what i see.
Edit: depression is a lifelong thing. it doesnt pass. its not bad weather that will go away. its a lifelong issue. please dont tell me time heals all wounds because it doesnt. its a disease.thats like telling someone with cancer to just go out for a run or pray and then they will get better. im not here for sympathy or advice. i want you all to shut up, listen, and understand.
its hard as fuck. i never leave my room let alone the house and when i finally get up to brush my hair after 2 weeks to 3 months, i end up cutting it out because it hurts so much. now i have bald patches and uneven hair. i can barely pull it in a ponytail. its sitting in bed not knowing what day it is ever and when your friends try to drag you out, you try to deny them every single time. its not talking to anyone because you dont want to deal with anyones voice or having to fake your personality because it tires you the fuck out. its not opening your mouth for DAYS because you know your breath stinks but you dont have the energy to get up and brush your teeth. its having your mom cry and not understand and you cant even explain it to her that its not her fault. its explaining to yourself every single day that you
dont belong here and if you kill yourself,its fine because you read in an article once the government will pay for it when your family cant. its having a happy day with your boyfriend but he knows something is wrong and you cant stop from frowning or crying just because your brain thinks you were too happy that day and dont deserve him. depression is literally killing me. im in tears right now because noone can really understand it and people who think they are depressed are just momentarily very sad. most peoples problems can be fixed by something or someone. depression its not anyones fault. and thats so hard to describe that to anyone.
noone can get rid of depression. there are no "happy" days. its not something to go to people bragging about. its not having a breakup and being upset over it for a few months. its not for little kids to just go around saying that they have. its thinking back to when your mom told you when you were born, you had your umbilical cord wrapped around your throat. and you wishing it would have killed you then. its a real disease that is KILLING ME. i am diagnosed with PTSD, Bipolar Depression, Anxiety, and Stuttering. And every day im struggling...
i thought i would try to describe what runs through my head every day. i want you to see what i see.
Edit: depression is a lifelong thing. it doesnt pass. its not bad weather that will go away. its a lifelong issue. please dont tell me time heals all wounds because it doesnt. its a disease.thats like telling someone with cancer to just go out for a run or pray and then they will get better. im not here for sympathy or advice. i want you all to shut up, listen, and understand.
