Zeruk | heartache . animation meme . vent @Zeruk | Uploaded 3 years ago | Updated 8 minutes ago
2021 / nov / 24 /- i decided ill tell u the meaning behind this animation/ [tw] i might delete it

its only the police, that ever come looking for you -
i felt like i was a waste of space, where no one would find me if i was to ''go'' because no one cared about me no one truly really cared of me i was spiraling down ending it for real, it then got really bad in January when someone i considered a close ''friend'' told me how worthless i was nd kept going nd i decided u know what ur right my whole life has been terrible, i lach onto youtube a lot because its one of the things that gave me happiness. i feel bad ignoring people because ive been ignored for like.. ever. i would not wnna go back to child hood no thank u im wh- noPE
i remember sitting in class, my fave class, not doing anything just staring at the screen for hours thinking what's the point of even trying over and over i felt so sick it was awful, i pretended like i was fine [uploading normally etc] but really everything was so terrible, all them uploads in them time were me just feeling sick the whole time thinking why am i doing this again
i decided ill tell someone before i really do something andddddd
then it got better, i cut out them ''friends'' . i am really gullible and like thinking people can change and be nice, but sometimes people really dont even after chance after chance and i shouldn't stick around to let someone hurt me over and over, im still bad at it but i think i got better and identifying whos toxic... i hope erm

this is me about a year later, one day i'd like to vent about my actual life and not keep it so vague, i just feel i have to until i can go

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just a vent but just enjoy the animation ♡ sorry

also the amv umm ill reupload it eventually

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song - moment by lildeath DAYCORE

original animation meme - Rxsethorn

inspired - speedybud

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24 FPS
paint tool sai
toon boom harmony
sony vegas pro
xp pen pro 13

character - zeruk

was gonna make it an amv but not anymore ;;
i feel like i shouldn't vent hhhng