Uploaded August 2020 | Updated September 2026, 55 minutes ago

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Track 6 from my album Turbulence


LYRICS


Verse:
I lied about growing up
I didn’t get enough love
I didn’t say it upfront
I was still accepting it
I wanna wind back the clock
Secure it with a lock
But we can’t do that
Indecisive combat

Chorus:
When they ask what makes me happy
I don’t know how to include family
Cause I grew up not holding that close
When I think of family I think of woes
I’ve heard happiness is a choice
But why would I choose otherwise
I ain’t used to using my voice
To talk to my mom and dad
I’ve been independent for so long
It’s hard to accept these emotions
Used to doin’ things on my own
But I know I can’t grow…
Well…like that…

Verse:
There’re many reasons why
I don’t let myself excite
Always busy with somethin’ else
That’s why I keep to myself
Sometimes I wish I were dead
But I’d never pursue it
And when I chopped off my hair
Needed a change it was there

Chorus:
When they ask what makes me happy
I don’t know how to include family
Cause I grew up not holding that close
When I think of family I think of woes
I’ve heard happiness is a choice
But why would I choose otherwise
I ain’t used to using my voice
To talk to my mom and dad
I’ve been independent for so long
It’s hard to accept these emotions
Used to doin’ things on my own
But I know I can’t grow…
Well…like that…

Bridge:
I’m trapped emotionally
Psychologically

Self-sacrificial
My mind’s uncivil
I’m too aware of myself
Let other people overwhelm
How I wanna act
Even though I’ve already snapped
I don’t wanna hurt others
But I’ve been hurt so much I’m barely even alive

Chorus:
When they ask me what makes me happy
I don’t know how to include family
Cause I grew up not holding that close
When I think of family I think of woes
I’ve heard happiness is a choice
But why would I choose otherwise
I ain’t used to using my voice
To talk to my mom and dad
I’ve been independent for so long
It’s hard to accept these emotions
Used to doin’ things on my own
But I know I can’t grow…
Well…like that…







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