Uploaded August 2020 | Updated September 2026, 1 day ago

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Track 9 from my album Turbulence


LYRICS


Verse:
Fear, pain, indecision
Head, heart, hard collision
Lately I’ve been constantly out of hope

Life, love, the world around me
Poor, rich, the bourgeoisie
Everyone’s fighting ‘bout the wrong things

Pre-chorus:
Growing up I wasn’t tough
Mentally wore iron handcuffs
These last few years I’ve hardened up
Making myself anew

Chorus:
Though I’ve always been more like water
Malleable to a fault
I know I need to kill her with fire
Throw her out on the asphalt
Let the flames consume all of me
Allow myself to choke
Watch my skin burn into debris
Drown myself in the smoke

Verse:
Death, loss, of the child
Men,tal, depression mild
Took over my brain at just fourteen

Deaf, blind, were those around me
Un,clear, just what I need
Unable to communicate well

Pre-chorus:
Growing up I wasn’t tough
Mentally wore iron handcuffs
These last few years I’ve hardened up
Making myself anew

Chorus:
Though I’ve always been more like water
Malleable to a fault
I know I need to kill her with fire
Throw her out on the asphalt
Let the flames consume all of me
Allow myself to choke
Watch my skin burn into debris
Drown myself in the smoke

Bridge:
I know I’m not perfect
But dammit I am worth it
Not happy with my life
But I believe I can change my life

Chorus:
Though I’ve always been more like water
Malleable to a fault
I know I need to kill her with fire
Throw her out on the asphalt
Let the flames consume all of me
Allow myself to choke
Watch my skin burn into debris
Drown myself in the smoke

Ending:
I set my past self on fire
Killed her cause I had ta
Now I need a renaissance
Welcome to my renaissance







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