Uploaded July 2012 | Updated September 2026, 1 week ago

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This is my first vent.
The video goes sporadically back and forth in time with me as a kid and me now.

My family isn't exactly the most supportive/loving family out there. My parents blow up over little things at me, my sister, and each other. Everybody is always angry; everybody's always fighting. Due to that, from a young age I became more stoic, solemn, observant, and depressed, but also wishful, compassionate, accepting, and brave.

My parents allow no mistakes, and when I used to joke with them using the cliche phrase "everybody makes mistakes" they replied "but everything you do is a mistake." I'm never good enough, someone's always better. But isn't that the point? There's always going to be someone better than me, and I know I've made a lot of mistakes, but look at yourselves. I've accepted I've screwed up, and fucked up, but I keep getting better and I keep trying. You don't notice that, and you don't know me at all.