Uploaded March 2010 | Updated September 2026, 2 hours ago

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*my first real AU video.*

"Freddie Mclair,
you are just a figmant of my imagination.
you were never real.
you were never real.
you were never real.
you were never real.
and you never broke my heart."
(Written by Natalia)

***Starts with a therapy session and somewhat goes backwards, When she re-opens her eyes after the montage of Freddie is when its back to where the beginning started.

After tony dies from the bus accident Effy can't cope so she begins going out doing drugs and nobody seems to understand.

thats when her hallucinations start of a boy "Freddie" someone who's perfect and takes care of her, she tells her best friend Cook about "Freddie" who she believes is real, he on the other hand is getting worried about her and decides its time to take her home.

on the way home Cook starts saying how "Freddie" isn't real andthis causes Effy to panic and images of "Freddie" flash showing her a better place she could be.

In a panic she runs into the street knowing she will be with "Freddie" soon which is why she's not scared. Cook shoves her out the way and she begs him to take her to "Freddie", he's still confused and she passes out.

In her "dream", "Freddie" is helping her get ready to take her to the park and they have fun but the voice of her mom keeps intterupting her fantasy, finally shes snapped from it and her mom finds her under the bed scared looking for a "Freddie"

she wakes up in a mental instution and "Freddie" is there, he's telling her he has to leave, breaking her heart.

she is in there for about half a year "Freddie", is never seen again.

Her doctor John Foster decides its time for her to go home. upon her release Effy goes to the park thinking back about "Freddie" finally coming to terms with him not being real and ultimatly Tony's death