Uploaded May 2020 | Updated September 2026, 3 weeks ago
so originally this was the intro I was doing for Challenge Me 3; April had challenged me to make an intro with only the 5 OG girls' solos, but the catch was that they all had to wear the same color costume.
I had a lot of fun doing this challenge cause it was about making a simple, clean intro with only the 'og' and one color, it was not going to be all over the place like the intros I've made lately.
ANYWAYS.
I had initially recorded myself making the intro, but I just can't bring myself to edit it. Everytime I try, I just close filmora and just walk away, cause I just can't be arsed really. (sorry for the language) And I've noticed that everytime I open filmora to start making videos, I just get fed up with it extremely easily, like one minute in and I'm just done. Like I don't want to do it anymore.
But it isn't the case with intros. It isn't the case with audioswaps. And apparently I can still find it in my heart and brain and whatever I have left to make RPs from time to time. But I just don't want to make videos anymore.
I've talked a little bit about it with one of the most amazing person I have ever met in my life and I've mulled it over since and I think I'm just going to stop.
Like, I'm still going to make intros and audioswaps (I have a few planned and some going up tomorrow actually) and occasionnally RPs, but I'm not going to force myself to make videos when I don't want to make them, cause that's a shortcut to quitting town and I don't want to stop editing just yet. I'm working on other, I guess more 'grown-up' editing projects and that fills me up with joy. Videos about dance moms do not spark joy anymore, and we all know what Marie Kondo would say. (All hail Marie Kondo)
SO WHAT TO EXPECT?
Well, basically just going to be business as usual I guess - I have one video that I hadn't uploaded but had made so that will be coming up, as well as a few audioswaps I have ready. I have a few projects, like I have a couple Dance Moms Swapped I want to make, a few intros I already have music for, I might still make the challenges you guys gave me - I'm not done yet. But I might take a break, we'll see how I feel.
IN ANY CASE, I WILL CONTINUE MY COMP! The videos might be shorter like last week's but I promise I aim to keep going until it's done :)
ALSO
I wanted to touch on the drama that's been going on lately. I usually don't involve myself in drama and in general try to stay from it, but I do see the #fixthefandom vids and I've seen Insane for ALDC2's vids as well - in this case, however, I feel lile I want to say something.
I haven't talked about it because I wanted to give myself time to think about it. As a pasty white girl, I feel like it's easy to be offended and go all defensive 'but i'm not a racist' because let's be real, none of us want to be labeled as a racist. However, because we come from priviledge (us white folks, although, yes, there are exceptions but in this case it don't matter ok), we have to constantly reevaluate how decisions, choices, and the way we view things or people.
I have always thought that the way the show dealt with people of color (like abby's comments on nia's braids or how she always picked her for the ethnic dances and how she has to work for the role of rosa parks when she is the only one on the team at that point who can portray rosa parks, down to the costumes themselves. yes, looking at you ballet tights from the red bow) was wrong. I could make an essay about it but i'm not gonna cause it's late and we ain't here for that. I will say however that I cannot be sure that Nia's skin color has affected (or not) my view of her; I may have been dismissive of her (or Carmryn) because of it, too, and not realize it. But I think the point here is not to point fingers at individuals and say: you're doing wrong!! you're bad!! no. I think what was trying to be said was, guys, maybe as a group we should revisit our choices and reflect on them every so often, and try to figure out how we can be better next time. So maybe, I guess, what I'm trying to say is let's stop reacting in the heat of the moment and think about things for a while. Which also ties into the new rules of the fandom I guess, before you speak or post, think about it and evaluate your choices and your words.
IN CONCLUSION
to stop this hella long essay on who cares really time is dying anyway let's all eat pasta at three am, I'm just going to say I hope you guys are okay. Coronacation is starting to affect me deeply, and I'm one of the peeps who don't enjoy the society of others much, so I can't imagine what it's like for some of you. Please reach out to someone if you're feeling antsy or upset or any type of way. Self care is still important, your mental health is still important, you are still so, so important.
byeee xx
so originally this was the intro I was doing for Challenge Me 3; April had challenged me to make an intro with only the 5 OG girls' solos, but the catch was that they all had to wear the same color costume.
I had a lot of fun doing this challenge cause it was about making a simple, clean intro with only the 'og' and one color, it was not going to be all over the place like the intros I've made lately.
ANYWAYS.
I had initially recorded myself making the intro, but I just can't bring myself to edit it. Everytime I try, I just close filmora and just walk away, cause I just can't be arsed really. (sorry for the language) And I've noticed that everytime I open filmora to start making videos, I just get fed up with it extremely easily, like one minute in and I'm just done. Like I don't want to do it anymore.
But it isn't the case with intros. It isn't the case with audioswaps. And apparently I can still find it in my heart and brain and whatever I have left to make RPs from time to time. But I just don't want to make videos anymore.
I've talked a little bit about it with one of the most amazing person I have ever met in my life and I've mulled it over since and I think I'm just going to stop.
Like, I'm still going to make intros and audioswaps (I have a few planned and some going up tomorrow actually) and occasionnally RPs, but I'm not going to force myself to make videos when I don't want to make them, cause that's a shortcut to quitting town and I don't want to stop editing just yet. I'm working on other, I guess more 'grown-up' editing projects and that fills me up with joy. Videos about dance moms do not spark joy anymore, and we all know what Marie Kondo would say. (All hail Marie Kondo)
SO WHAT TO EXPECT?
Well, basically just going to be business as usual I guess - I have one video that I hadn't uploaded but had made so that will be coming up, as well as a few audioswaps I have ready. I have a few projects, like I have a couple Dance Moms Swapped I want to make, a few intros I already have music for, I might still make the challenges you guys gave me - I'm not done yet. But I might take a break, we'll see how I feel.
IN ANY CASE, I WILL CONTINUE MY COMP! The videos might be shorter like last week's but I promise I aim to keep going until it's done :)
ALSO
I wanted to touch on the drama that's been going on lately. I usually don't involve myself in drama and in general try to stay from it, but I do see the #fixthefandom vids and I've seen Insane for ALDC2's vids as well - in this case, however, I feel lile I want to say something.
I haven't talked about it because I wanted to give myself time to think about it. As a pasty white girl, I feel like it's easy to be offended and go all defensive 'but i'm not a racist' because let's be real, none of us want to be labeled as a racist. However, because we come from priviledge (us white folks, although, yes, there are exceptions but in this case it don't matter ok), we have to constantly reevaluate how decisions, choices, and the way we view things or people.
I have always thought that the way the show dealt with people of color (like abby's comments on nia's braids or how she always picked her for the ethnic dances and how she has to work for the role of rosa parks when she is the only one on the team at that point who can portray rosa parks, down to the costumes themselves. yes, looking at you ballet tights from the red bow) was wrong. I could make an essay about it but i'm not gonna cause it's late and we ain't here for that. I will say however that I cannot be sure that Nia's skin color has affected (or not) my view of her; I may have been dismissive of her (or Carmryn) because of it, too, and not realize it. But I think the point here is not to point fingers at individuals and say: you're doing wrong!! you're bad!! no. I think what was trying to be said was, guys, maybe as a group we should revisit our choices and reflect on them every so often, and try to figure out how we can be better next time. So maybe, I guess, what I'm trying to say is let's stop reacting in the heat of the moment and think about things for a while. Which also ties into the new rules of the fandom I guess, before you speak or post, think about it and evaluate your choices and your words.
IN CONCLUSION
to stop this hella long essay on who cares really time is dying anyway let's all eat pasta at three am, I'm just going to say I hope you guys are okay. Coronacation is starting to affect me deeply, and I'm one of the peeps who don't enjoy the society of others much, so I can't imagine what it's like for some of you. Please reach out to someone if you're feeling antsy or upset or any type of way. Self care is still important, your mental health is still important, you are still so, so important.
byeee xx
