Uploaded January 2022 | Updated September 2026, 2 weeks ago
Edgar Edge used to be a violent, abusive guy. But that was years ago. After he hurt someone he loved, he tried to change everything about himself, tried to become a better person. Earned a professor degree to make his world better. Worked hard, but still he feels like he can't balance the harm he has done in the past. And despite being a big softie, sometimes his bad side is showing again...
DOWNLOAD: marvyanaka.bandcamp.com/album/madman
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production: Marvyanaka
vocal: Cyber Songman (Vocaloid4)
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Lyrics:
need to preserve who I am now
cannot forget it's just a mask
I'm freaking out
will my demons come out again?
the same?
am I still there?
look at me now what do you see?
you should’ve known known that I am weak
I can't repay for all of my old sins
I've done and all my mistakes
I'm losing myself
I'm loosing again
this one time tell me
do I deserve this?
a waste of space a waste of time
a waste of air all the way
a waste of resoruces
need to embrace my own despair
I know its lair I am there
and I am the monster
I cannot explain it's pleasure or pain?
I'm drowning in shame living day by day
am I too afraid to go out and face
my tormented fate
I cannot be saved
help me
reaches for me with deadly claws
I know this voice from brutal past
who did I fail? who did I hurt again?
I had enough!
am I still there?
I wish I could just look away
to feel the love for which I crave
it's a disease that flows in my old veins
like hate and rage
I'm losing myself
I'm loosing again
no need to say it
that I deserve this
a waste of space a waste of time
a waste of air all the way
a waste of resoruces
need to embrace my own despair
I know its lair I am there
and I am the monster
maybe nothing's left and I haven't changed
that experiment will drive me insane
my anxiety to which I succumb
knows my real fate
this is how it ends
this is how it ends
find me at the end of the times
trust me you don't want to see me now
I've tried to change my mind and ways
yet here I am falling down down
I feel this rage inside
going mad I'm going mad
there is no time for debate now
without any doubt I am
a waste of space a waste of time
a waste of air all the way
a waste of resources
need to escape degrading chains
I'm no monster nor lair
I'm simply a madman
this is something else, it's pleasure and pain
running in my veins this is who I am
my anxiety is calling my name
do you hear me now?
I cannot be saved
help me
♥SOCIAL MEDIA!♥
BandCamp: http:///marvyanaka.bandcamp.com
DeviantArt: marvyanaka.deviantart.com
Instagram: instagram.com/marvyanakap
Twitter: twitter.com/MarvyanakaART
SoundCloud: soundcloud.com/marvyanaka
Edgar Edge used to be a violent, abusive guy. But that was years ago. After he hurt someone he loved, he tried to change everything about himself, tried to become a better person. Earned a professor degree to make his world better. Worked hard, but still he feels like he can't balance the harm he has done in the past. And despite being a big softie, sometimes his bad side is showing again...
DOWNLOAD: marvyanaka.bandcamp.com/album/madman
♥♥♥
production: Marvyanaka
vocal: Cyber Songman (Vocaloid4)
♥♥♥
Lyrics:
need to preserve who I am now
cannot forget it's just a mask
I'm freaking out
will my demons come out again?
the same?
am I still there?
look at me now what do you see?
you should’ve known known that I am weak
I can't repay for all of my old sins
I've done and all my mistakes
I'm losing myself
I'm loosing again
this one time tell me
do I deserve this?
a waste of space a waste of time
a waste of air all the way
a waste of resoruces
need to embrace my own despair
I know its lair I am there
and I am the monster
I cannot explain it's pleasure or pain?
I'm drowning in shame living day by day
am I too afraid to go out and face
my tormented fate
I cannot be saved
help me
reaches for me with deadly claws
I know this voice from brutal past
who did I fail? who did I hurt again?
I had enough!
am I still there?
I wish I could just look away
to feel the love for which I crave
it's a disease that flows in my old veins
like hate and rage
I'm losing myself
I'm loosing again
no need to say it
that I deserve this
a waste of space a waste of time
a waste of air all the way
a waste of resoruces
need to embrace my own despair
I know its lair I am there
and I am the monster
maybe nothing's left and I haven't changed
that experiment will drive me insane
my anxiety to which I succumb
knows my real fate
this is how it ends
this is how it ends
find me at the end of the times
trust me you don't want to see me now
I've tried to change my mind and ways
yet here I am falling down down
I feel this rage inside
going mad I'm going mad
there is no time for debate now
without any doubt I am
a waste of space a waste of time
a waste of air all the way
a waste of resources
need to escape degrading chains
I'm no monster nor lair
I'm simply a madman
this is something else, it's pleasure and pain
running in my veins this is who I am
my anxiety is calling my name
do you hear me now?
I cannot be saved
help me
♥SOCIAL MEDIA!♥
BandCamp: http:///marvyanaka.bandcamp.com
DeviantArt: marvyanaka.deviantart.com
Instagram: instagram.com/marvyanakap
Twitter: twitter.com/MarvyanakaART
SoundCloud: soundcloud.com/marvyanaka
