Uploaded March 2026 | Updated September 2026, 2 weeks ago
CW FOR FLASHING LIGHTS, SH, implications of emotional abuse, dissociation, blood/gore, strangulation
EDIT: I MUST SAY THANKS TO FLUFFYFEMZ FOR SHOWING ME TS (THIS SONG)
BEFORE READING ALL THIS PLEASE DONT ASK IF IM OK IN COMMENTS. while i appreciate the concern I know ill be okay, Id appreciate more comments about the animation since i worked really hard on it and id rather comments be directed at that more than my own wellbeing due to how proud of it i am.
This is deeply personal to me so I’ll be pretty vulnerable in the description. and it’s about similar patterns I keep seeing in friendships over the past decade since i started being online about 2016 or so. But it sucks when some of these patterns mirror how I’ve been treated throughout my irl life and childhood. Being diagnosed autistic hinders you from ever being taken seriously. Convincing you you’re the crazy one when glaring issues are there and it hurts when you’ve internalized that for so long you began avoiding communicating because you felt it was rude to and started getting abused or unintentionally neglected in friendships once you stop being a child. You start to ignore your own Boundaries and limits due to being punished for expressing such and get blamed for getting pushed to your edge. This pattern I notice in hindsight when I think back to how I was emotionally and physically abused in school. I’d be constantly punished for justified crashout when the warning signs were there beforehand and nobody bat an eye. Despite all this linking to how my past abuse still effects me this is also about internal feelings that Dont always mean someone is hurting me maliciously, I don’t believe everyone I’ve had bad experience with is an abuser to me aside from my awful teachers and then some. Regardless of how I’ve been hurt I am definitely aware I still have things to work on and definitely have messed up along the way but My heart breaks for those who grew up similarly to me taht have been pushed into ostracization especially back in the day when autism wasn’t talked abt enough. In a way being treated this way as a child feels as though it’s both deeply stunted me yet also made me had to grow up too quickly and having to remain constantly vigilant. With all this being said, my violent dreams animation from 2024 was about similar themes I was dealing with. As well as my excuse me animation from that year.
Song: youtu.be/V379Hr-_-Z8?si=RDWILw8ZDRpQv3TL
programs: flash cs6, animate 2018, toonsquid
FPS: 8 for beginning, 16 for end
CW FOR FLASHING LIGHTS, SH, implications of emotional abuse, dissociation, blood/gore, strangulation
EDIT: I MUST SAY THANKS TO FLUFFYFEMZ FOR SHOWING ME TS (THIS SONG)
BEFORE READING ALL THIS PLEASE DONT ASK IF IM OK IN COMMENTS. while i appreciate the concern I know ill be okay, Id appreciate more comments about the animation since i worked really hard on it and id rather comments be directed at that more than my own wellbeing due to how proud of it i am.
This is deeply personal to me so I’ll be pretty vulnerable in the description. and it’s about similar patterns I keep seeing in friendships over the past decade since i started being online about 2016 or so. But it sucks when some of these patterns mirror how I’ve been treated throughout my irl life and childhood. Being diagnosed autistic hinders you from ever being taken seriously. Convincing you you’re the crazy one when glaring issues are there and it hurts when you’ve internalized that for so long you began avoiding communicating because you felt it was rude to and started getting abused or unintentionally neglected in friendships once you stop being a child. You start to ignore your own Boundaries and limits due to being punished for expressing such and get blamed for getting pushed to your edge. This pattern I notice in hindsight when I think back to how I was emotionally and physically abused in school. I’d be constantly punished for justified crashout when the warning signs were there beforehand and nobody bat an eye. Despite all this linking to how my past abuse still effects me this is also about internal feelings that Dont always mean someone is hurting me maliciously, I don’t believe everyone I’ve had bad experience with is an abuser to me aside from my awful teachers and then some. Regardless of how I’ve been hurt I am definitely aware I still have things to work on and definitely have messed up along the way but My heart breaks for those who grew up similarly to me taht have been pushed into ostracization especially back in the day when autism wasn’t talked abt enough. In a way being treated this way as a child feels as though it’s both deeply stunted me yet also made me had to grow up too quickly and having to remain constantly vigilant. With all this being said, my violent dreams animation from 2024 was about similar themes I was dealing with. As well as my excuse me animation from that year.
Song: youtu.be/V379Hr-_-Z8?si=RDWILw8ZDRpQv3TL
programs: flash cs6, animate 2018, toonsquid
FPS: 8 for beginning, 16 for end
