Uploaded July 2022 | Updated September 2026, 10 hours ago

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From the album "Punishing Myself Before God Does", out now on Facedown Records.

US Merch - facedown.merchnow.com/collections/Confessions-Of-A-Traitor
EU / UK Merch - confessions-of-a-traitor.myshopify.com
Spotify - open.spotify.com/album/222AtgmkJIArvoRoP5KC8S
Apple / iTunes - music.apple.com/album/punishing-myself-before-god-does/1617376556
Facebook - facebook.com/confessionsofatraitor

DIRECTED & FILMED BY Matt Daley clearwaymedia.co.uk
MIXED & MASTERED BY Andrew Wade
VOCAL RECORDING BY Justin Hill
DRUM RECORDING BY Mike Bennett
GUITAR/BASS RECORDING BY Jacob Brand

Lyrics:
Am I lying to myself,
Pretending to be someone else?
Will I be hated for holding on?
Will I be hated when I’m gone?

Breath in breath out
Drink in the air of doubt

Who am I?
Who should I be?
Forgive me God! What have I become?
She's drawn out the of worst of me (worst of me)

I put my trust in another
Only for lies to uncover
Not brave, not honest
You broke me like a promise

What did it cost
Everything I was, is lost
Breath in breath out
Drink in the air of doubt

Am I lying to myself,
Pretending to be someone else?
Will I be hated for hanging on?
Will I be hated when I’m gone?

Breath in breath out
Drink in the air of doubt

No death, no death
No doom, no doom
No anguish can awake the surpassing despair
Which flows from a loss of identity

Am I lying to myself,
Pretending to be someone else?
Will I be hated for hanging on?
Will I be hated when I’m gone?

What we do in life echoes in eternity
What we do in life echoes in eternity

I will not be defined by another
I will rebuild my sense of self
My mind and mental health
That is true wealth
Judge me, not where I started
But how far I’ve come
Our identities drives our actions
What we do in life echoes in eternity
What we do in life echoes in eternity
What we do in life echoes in eternity
What we do in life echoes in eternity

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