highgreenbunny | castle walls { R A N T } @highgreenbunny | Uploaded August 2013 | Updated October 2024, 1 hour ago.
M A J O R . R A N T

Lately I have been kinda down. I have been wanting to move forward with my life, but it seems like every time I try ... i keep getting pulled back in the same spot I was before. I'm kinda stuck between a rock and a hard place. I'm 23 years old and I feel like I have absolutely NO control of my own fucking life!!! People younger than me have SOME control, I feel like a fucking 13 year old

I have never been a fighter. I do not like fighting with anyone, but it seems to me like that's going to have to change. And the bad thing is.... it is hard to talk about this. Outside of YouTube I only have 2 friends... and one I haven't talked to in almost a year. The other... she has her hands full with her child and work, so... I don't really feel like I can talk to anyone, except my sister and some times it's not easy.

I don't like putting this up for public eyes to see, but it seems like I have reached my breaking point, you know? Some of my videos I have put up, this one included, have really been ways of expressing feelings I can't seem to express any other way. I hate being this way, but I don't talk to a lot of people on a daily basis on here. There are a few, but some seem like I am someone to talk to just when there is no one else to talk to. =(

Anyways, I just wanted to get some things off my chest....
I know my problems aren't as bad as some people's problems... but feeling lonely is just a terrible thing in itself.

Song: Castle Walls (Solo Version)
Artist: Christina Aguilera