Uploaded March 2020 | Updated September 2026, 2 hours ago

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❛❛If I ain't got you I ain't got nothing at all... ❜❜

✎This doesn't seem real guys.....It feels like a horrible dream. I wake up in a fog and ask myself, "Why are my eyes aching so much?" The answer dawns on me: I've been crying. "Why have I been crying?" As everything floods into my mind and I remember why.... WHY?? This Corona Curse. I AM SO HURT!! I have literally been GRIEVING since the news was announced, Thursday, March 12, 2020, our school was closing its doors, moving online, and sending everyone home.

This was my Senior Year, now cut short, RUINED, and totally robbed of my time there with everyone. I miss and love them so much! I wasn't ready to say goodbye! I know I must sound odd; but I LOVE college, I LOVE going to my classes, and working late in the lab, and being around my friends/professors. I didn't even want a spring break - I was going to work - and now we got two freakin weeks. I HATE IT! College life is virtually over for me. I was nervous about graduating for this very reason: having to say goodbye and switch life gears in May. But now its HERE, suddenly, a slap to the face, I wasn't ready IDK how to handle it... And graduation? Pfff, who knows now with everything being canceled or postponed. Even if it happens later this year IDK if I'll even be able to graduate working remotely now.... WHY??

Out of the 4 stages of grief, I've swiftly moved to stage 3 depression, and stumbling blindly towards stage 4, accepts.....and do the next right thing. *sobs* Oh GOD that song is a word for word description of what I am feeling right now - I wanted to edit with it but it's so sacred the way it is sung through Anna. I couldn't... But this song surprising fit in a number of ways.
I just pray things go back to normal soon, but even then nothing will ever be the same again. That one line guys: "And with the dawn...what comes then? When it's clear that everything will NEVER be the same again." Is just on repeat in my head. I can't go back.

I know I am not alone and that there isn't a SOUL on this plant now that isn't being affect in some way by all this. My problems and feelings are nothing compared to people actually sick, or under strict quarantine. My heart goes out to those people and families affected. BUT with all due respect, I can't help but feel what I feel and see that all of this is nothing but overblown, media driven FEAR and panic that NEEDS TO FUCKING SHUT UP!!! I am sorry for the language, but I needed to vent...

And now I do feel better after pouring all my heart out editing this. It's been awhile since I've made something from pure angst. (yeah, I know, last week...MY how quickly things change?) *sighs*
Remember guys: God's got this! I believe with all that's left of my broken heart He is going to bring goodness and healing. Maybe, just maybe, it will be better than we had envisioned in the end. Take a deep breath, turn off the news, pray and focus on the only thing that is true and unchanging in this world: The peace and love from Jesus Christ.
Verses in the vid ( Psalm 23:4 and John 14:27)
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🎬 Video #192
🎼 Footage: Frozen 1-2, Frozen Fever, Olaf's Frozen Adventure
🎵 Song: "Can You Hold Me?" by Britt Nicole (ft. NF)
🕒 Time: 1 week
🎧 Editor: Vegas Pro 16
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