Alice Phantom | [Ben Tennyson] Breaking The Habit (Vent) @AlicePhantom | Uploaded 8 years ago | Updated 1 hour ago
This took like 3 days to make this CMV. And I'm venting again so if you want to read the full vent i'll have a tumblr link to where I have it.

Normally for angst I would use Kevin, but I had more of Ben so Ben angst. Yes I used Omniverse, please don't dislike this just for that fact.

Story: Ben's breaking the habit of being arrogant and not being serious. (Idk, can't come up with an actual story.)

Vent: http://ninjadudettekira.tumblr.com/post/145078482233/i-got-to-tell-someone

TL;DR: Basically the gist of it my 'habit' came back. The habit is cutting. And honestly, I don't even know if I can stop this time. My 'cure' is the thing I use to cut myself, and 'tightly locking the door' is hauling myself into the bathroom.

"I'll paint it on the walls, cause I'm the one at fault." I blame myself for everything that goes on. I'm blaming myself for dragging all my friends into my problems. Hell I hate complaining to my friend about this, I hate myself for it. He already has enough damn problems, he doesn't need anymore.

"But now I've got some clarity to show you what I mean." -Me finally telling my friends about this, even though I've been lying about other stuff to all but one of them. He's been helping me, even though I'm being difficult. (I don't mean to, but it's hard for me to believe what he's saying.)

"I don't know how I got this way, I'll never be alright." I don't know how this happened, and I honestly don't believe that things won't change.

Media: Ben 10, Alien Force, Ultimate Alien, Omniverse