Uploaded October 2023 | Updated September 2026, 1 hour ago

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My song "Backbone" is now available on all major platforms!
Listen to audio here - li.sten.to/backbonejanelnabong
Backbone Merch - janelnabongofficial.com/collections/backbone

Sometimes when we face our monsters and inner demons, it’s a journey through ups and downs, where we learn to stand tall and find strength even when things are crumbling all around us. To dance with our deepest fears and to come out on the other side and emerge stronger than before. 💖 Hope you enjoy 🙏🏼~

HUGE Thanks to Arsacre for the video art and animation! You're absolutely amazing!!
Check out Arsacre's channel: @Arsacre

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Check out Janel's:
Story: janelnabongofficial.com/pages/about-janel-nabong
Music: li.sten.to/JanelNabongMusic
Merch: janelnabongofficial.com/collections

Instagram: instagram.com/janelnabong_
Twitch: twitch.tv/nelnellynel
TikTok: bit.ly/TikTokJanelNabong
Patreon: patreon.com/JanelNabong
Linktree: https://linktr.ee/janelnabong

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Come hang with me on Twitch! 💖
twitch.tv/nelnellynel

Twitch Live Stream Schedule:
- Sundays at 1pm Pacific
- Thursdays at 7:30pm Pacific
- Fridays at 8:30pm Pacific

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LYRICS:
I will not hide
This side of my mind
Sometimes, it goes

Up, down, hurled to the ground, now
Choke out all my sounds
Out, and watch me drown, now
Bleeding from my mouth, how'd
I get into this, somehow
Cut me up
And silence me but I'll

Give everything
Wipe off the blood and grit my teeth
Armor up and watch me swing
Under my nerves below
I’ll grow, grow a backbone

Oh no, oh no, oh no what did just happen
Fell out of my skin
See my whole world shaking
Ground underneath is breaking
My nightmares are now waking
Fear now seeping in

Pause everything
Keep on moving, don’t cave in
Don’t listen to these voices
Block out all these screams

Keep on moving forward
Stronger I will be
Though my world is spinning

Up, down, hurled to the ground, now
Choke out all my sounds
Out, and watch me drown, now
Bleeding from my mouth, how'd
I get into this, somehow
Cut me up
And silence me but I'll

Give everything
Wipe off the blood and grit my teeth
Armor up and watch me swing
Under my nerves below
I’ll grow, grow a backbone

Oh why, oh why, oh why, why did this happen
Never should have been
Don’t think I deserve this
Just making me feel worthless
Cracking at the surface
Fear now seeping in

Pause everything
Keep on moving, don’t cave in
Don’t listen to these voices
Block out all these screams

Keep on moving forward
Stronger I will be
Though my world is spinning

Turn off, the lights
The brightness stings and burns my eyes
Just want to go away, tonight but I
Jolt up, see myself go down a deep and downward spiral
But things won’t be the same
Won't be the same this time

Up, down, hurled to the ground, now
Choke out all my sounds
Out, and watch me drown, now
Bleeding from my mouth, how'd
I get into this, somehow
Cut me up
And silence me but I'll

Give everything
Wipe off the blood and grit my teeth
Armor up and watch me swing
Under my nerves below
I’ll grow, grow a backbone

Up, down, hurled to the ground, now
Choke out all my sounds
Out, and watch me drown, now
Bleeding from my mouth, how'd
I get into this, somehow
Cut me up
And silence me but I'll

Give everything
Wipe off the blood and grit my teeth
Armor up and watch me swing
Under my nerves below
I’ll grow, grow a backbone

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