Arystina - No Longer @Arystina

Uploaded April 2025 | Updated September 2026, 49 minutes ago

This is another personal song that ties into my song 'For You:' youtu.be/3X3__VEbcGA?si=dNIXy8gPFOlYQ_Go . It is a bit rough I'm afraid; Suno has been having issues with certain sounds as of late, but it's close to what I was going for. I wrote this after a relative reached out to me recently and told me that my abuser was looking for me after almost 15 years of no contact and wanting me to help him out.
My answer? Hell no.

This song is dedicated to anyone who may have been abused by a family member growing up. Remember that you are strong. You are a survivor. You are a fighter. You are NOT alone.

If you are currently in a domestic violence situation, I urge you to reach out for help. For anonymous, confidential help available 24/7, call the US National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-7233 (SAFE) or 1-800-787-3224 (TTY).

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Lyrics by me: @Arystina‬
Musical composition and voice made by Suno AI.
Video/visualizer by Vizzy.io.
Image provided by Adobe Firefly/ Edits by ‪@Arystina‬

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Lyrics:

Think you can just come crawling back into my life...?
That everything is grand, that it’s all right?

Ah, hell no!

A childhood spent suffering
Breaking under your abuse
Family you were not
Just a bully through and through
Tearing down my walls
Just to place yourself above
Doing the unthinkable
Skipping town to not be judged

Always called me useless, stripped me bare
Now you need me, you think I still care?
I'm not your backup plan, your backup life
You've lost your power
Now pay the price

(Ah, hell no!) Ah, hell no!
You don’t get to turn around
There’s no fixing what’s gone down
You were the monster in my dreams
No!
You don’t get to turn around
There’s no fixing what’s gone down
Ah hell no! (Hell no!)
Demanding that I help you?
Ah hell no..
You must take me for a fool

(You must take me for a fool)

Think you can waltz in
But your song is wearing thin
Your deceit is not my sin
Your con will never win
Times have changed
The tables have turned
Your bridges all burnt
With nothing learned

(Ah, hell no!) Ah, hell no!
You don’t get to turn around
There’s no fixing what’s gone down
You were the monster in my dreams
No!
You don’t get to turn around
There’s no fixing what’s gone down
Ah hell no! (Hell no!)
Demanding that I help you?
Ah hell no...
You must take me for a fool

(You must take me for a fool)

You played your games
Now tables flipped
I rule my life
Don’t need your script
You want forgiveness
But wounds run deep
Your shallow praise
Is yours to keep

Remember when you broke me down
Laughed at me while I drowned
Now your smile's turned upside down
Guess who's the useless fool now

This girl has grown up!

You were the monster in my dreams
You don’t get to turn around
There’s no fixing what’s gone down
Ah hell no! (Hell no!)
Demanding that I help you?
Ah hell no...
You must take me for a fool
But I am no longer your tool

I am no longer your tool...

$Arystina - Take a Pill Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/2eljHUtaiegmSTi1qM885m?si=d929d9c680554230 Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/us/song/take-a-pill/1831925564 ~ A song for those who feel over medicated. ~ Lyrics by me: @Arystina Musical composition and voice made by Suno AI. Video/visualizer by Vizzy.io. Template by German. Image provided by @Raging_Raven_Music and edited by Arystina‬ ~ Lyrics: Feeling low, can’t sleep at night Doctor says, “You’ll be alright” One for pain, one for blues An extra for the one you lose Oh, they say it’s just a phase But they’ve got something anyway Take a pill, take a pill Tell me how I’m supposed to feel Dull the pain, make it fade Now I’m numb in every way Take a pill, take a pill Tired thoughts behind my eyes Memories fractured by incoming lies Morning light, still feel the same Chasing highs to kill the pain If this is living I’m not sure What’s the sickness what’s the cure One for nerves, one for weight One to keep my mood sedate Something new with every call I’m stacking bottles on the wall Take a pill, take a pill Make it better, make it still Fix the cracks, patch the scars Doesn’t matter who you are Take a pill, take a pill Is this fake or is it real? Tell me how I’m supposed to feel Smiles come, but not from me Stitched together by a pharmacy Yet doctors say I’m calm and tame Even if I am not the same I forget what I saw them for What I needed, and what I swore They fixed the hurt, but not the why Now I just float and can only sigh Take a pill, take a pill All these meds, I must be ill Tiny tablets that count the days Lined up perfectly in numbered trays Take a pill, take a pill Doctors promise that it’s the cure But I feel trapped upon this carousel Take a pill... Take a pill... Just to feel... Anything still...$

$Arystina - Bury the Innocent Spotify: pending Apple Music: pending ~ You can only trust and be betrayed so many times before your heart begins to harden. Should you give up trusting people? No, but dont allow yourself to be swayed so easily by a pretty smile and sweet words. ~ Lyrics by me: @Arystina Musical composition and voice made by Suno AI. Video/visualizer by Vizzy.io. (Video assistance by @Raging_Raven_Music. Thank you!) Image generated in ChatGPT and edited by @Arystina. ~ Lyrics: You said “You’re safe here” I believed every word Built my whole world On the promise I heard I handed you silence I handed you truth You studied the fracture Then sharpened the proof I didn’t see the shift Till the ground gave way You didn’t break your promise You just bent it that day I buried the innocent part of me Somewhere under your authority You called it necessary I call it brutality There’s no resurrection in loyalty No sanctuary left in me I laid it down in the dark The part that still believed I buried the innocent part of me I learned to read danger In the calm of a room Learned how to smile When the tension would bloom I speak in disclaimers I double-check doors You taught me the language Of invisible wars I didn’t lose my faith I watched it being trained You never raised a weapon You just made me afraid I buried the innocent part of me Somewhere under your authority You called it necessary I call it brutality There’s no resurrection in loyalty No sanctuary left in me I laid it down in the dark The part that still believed I buried the innocent part of me I buried the innocent part of me It still whispers when I close my eyes Paints every truth in thin disguise But I remember how it burned The moment trust and fear both turned You didn’t strike me down with a gun You simply taught my soul to run I buried the innocent part of me Somewhere under your authority You don’t get to grieve What you reshaped in me There’s no resurrection in loyalty No sanctuary left in me I laid it down in the dark Sealed the grave with memory I buried the innocent part of me And I won’t dig it up for you (No!) You don’t get the silence You don’t get the grief You don’t get the echo Of what you took from me Oh no...$