Uploaded March 2021 | Updated September 2026, 2 weeks ago
'Ten Of Swords' is taken from Antagonist A.D's new 7" Vinyl EP 'All Things' out now via Greyscale Records.
Buy 'All Things' now at store.greyscalerecords.com
Stream 'All Things' now at grysclrec.lnk.to/allthings
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Recorded and Mixed at God City by Kurt Ballou
Assistant Engineering by Zach Weeks
Guest vocals Recorded by Christopher Vernon
Mastered by Brad Boatright at Audiosiege
Director/Cinematographer/Editor - Third Eye Visuals
www.thirdeyevisuals.com.au
Artwork by Patrick Galvin @ Hollow Bones Studio
Additional footage shot by Jared Leibowitz
Music written by Antagonist A.D.
Lyrics written by Sam Crocker
Guest vocals and additional lyrics on 'Ten Of Swords' performed and written by Matt Honeycutt
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LYRICS:
WHEN I OPEN MY EYES I AM BARELY AWAKE
I TRY TO LEAVE BUT I ALWAYS STAY INSIDE MY MIND
I LOVE SO MUCH IT HURTS MY HEART
AND WHEN THE LIGHTS GO OUT
I ALWAYS HEAR MY DOUBT
I'VE LOST MY FUCKING MIND
I'M STUCK INSIDE
I'VE LOST MY MIND
AND I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE ANYMORE
I TRY SO HARD TO PRETEND
THAT IT DOESN'T HURT BUT IT HURTS SO MUCH
HOW CAN I FEEL SO STRONG AND BE SO FUCKED
WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES I CAN'T SLEEP
A TRAIN WRECK GREAT TRAGEDY
I'M RUNNING I’M NOTHING I'M SUFFERING
I'M HOLDING ON TO SOMETHING
I'M DROWNING AND SLIPPING AND SLIPPING AND DROWNING
AND I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE ANYMORE
I TRY SO HARD TO PRETEND
THAT IT DOESN'T HURT BUT IT HURTS SO MUCH
HOW CAN I FEEL SO STRONG AND BE SO FUCKED
I WILL PUSH THROUGH
WITH STRENGTH
DIVIDE MY PRIDE
DISSECT MY MIND
I WILL PUSH THROUGH
THROUGH YOU
DESTROY YOU FUCKER
BUST THAT BITCH THROUGH THE FLOOR BOARD
WE SWING FIRST THING OH LORD
BANG OUT ONE THROUGH TEN SWORDS
NINE LIVES NO MORE FOR YOU COWARDS
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If you would like to talk to somebody about your mental health we suggest contacting the following organisations:
New Zealand
Lifeline (open 24/7) - 0800 543 354
Depression Helpline (open 24/7) - 0800 111 757
Healthline (open 24/7) - 0800 611 116
Samaritans (open 24/7) - 0800 726 666
Suicide Crisis Helpline (open 24/7) - 0508 828 865 (0508 TAUTOKO). This is a service for people who may be thinking about suicide, or those who are concerned about family or friends.
Youthline (open 24/7) - 0800 376 633. You can also text 234 for free between 8am and midnight, or email talk@youthline.co.nz
0800 WHATSUP children's helpline - phone 0800 9428 787 between 1pm and 10pm on weekdays and from 3pm to 10pm on weekends. Online chat is available from 7pm to 10pm every day at www.whatsup.co.nz.
Kidsline (open 24/7) - 0800 543 754. This service is for children aged 5 to 18. Those who ring between 4pm and 9pm on weekdays will speak to a Kidsline buddy. These are specially trained teenage telephone counsellors.
Your local Rural Support Trust - 0800 787 254 (0800 RURAL HELP)
Alcohol Drug Helpline (open 24/7) - 0800 787 797. You can also text 8691 for free.
Supporting Families in Mental Illness - 0800 732 825.
For further information, contact the Mental Health Foundation's free Resource and Information Service (09 623 4812).
Australia
1800 Respect national helpline: 1800 737 732
Lifeline (24 hour crisis line): 131 114
Beyond Blue: 1300 224 636
Headspace: Centres in each state and territory or check out eheadspace for online support.
The Kids Helpline: 24-hour support on 1800 55 1800.
Relationships Australia: Support for individuals, families and communities on 1300 364 277.
Lifeline: 24-hour support for all Australians on 13 11 14.
Lifeline on 13 11 14
Kids Helpline on 1800 551 800
MensLine Australia on 1300 789 978
Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467
Beyond Blue on 1300 224 636
Headspace on 1800 650 890
ReachOut at au.reachout.com
Care Leavers Australasia Network (CLAN) on 1800 008 774
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Follow Antagonist A.D. on social media:
Facebook: facebook.com/antagonistad
Instagram: @antagonist_ad
Twitter: twitter.com/antagonistad
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#AntagonistAD #GreyscaleRecords #AllThings
'Ten Of Swords' is taken from Antagonist A.D's new 7" Vinyl EP 'All Things' out now via Greyscale Records.
Buy 'All Things' now at store.greyscalerecords.com
Stream 'All Things' now at grysclrec.lnk.to/allthings
--
Recorded and Mixed at God City by Kurt Ballou
Assistant Engineering by Zach Weeks
Guest vocals Recorded by Christopher Vernon
Mastered by Brad Boatright at Audiosiege
Director/Cinematographer/Editor - Third Eye Visuals
www.thirdeyevisuals.com.au
Artwork by Patrick Galvin @ Hollow Bones Studio
Additional footage shot by Jared Leibowitz
Music written by Antagonist A.D.
Lyrics written by Sam Crocker
Guest vocals and additional lyrics on 'Ten Of Swords' performed and written by Matt Honeycutt
--
LYRICS:
WHEN I OPEN MY EYES I AM BARELY AWAKE
I TRY TO LEAVE BUT I ALWAYS STAY INSIDE MY MIND
I LOVE SO MUCH IT HURTS MY HEART
AND WHEN THE LIGHTS GO OUT
I ALWAYS HEAR MY DOUBT
I'VE LOST MY FUCKING MIND
I'M STUCK INSIDE
I'VE LOST MY MIND
AND I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE ANYMORE
I TRY SO HARD TO PRETEND
THAT IT DOESN'T HURT BUT IT HURTS SO MUCH
HOW CAN I FEEL SO STRONG AND BE SO FUCKED
WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES I CAN'T SLEEP
A TRAIN WRECK GREAT TRAGEDY
I'M RUNNING I’M NOTHING I'M SUFFERING
I'M HOLDING ON TO SOMETHING
I'M DROWNING AND SLIPPING AND SLIPPING AND DROWNING
AND I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE ANYMORE
I TRY SO HARD TO PRETEND
THAT IT DOESN'T HURT BUT IT HURTS SO MUCH
HOW CAN I FEEL SO STRONG AND BE SO FUCKED
I WILL PUSH THROUGH
WITH STRENGTH
DIVIDE MY PRIDE
DISSECT MY MIND
I WILL PUSH THROUGH
THROUGH YOU
DESTROY YOU FUCKER
BUST THAT BITCH THROUGH THE FLOOR BOARD
WE SWING FIRST THING OH LORD
BANG OUT ONE THROUGH TEN SWORDS
NINE LIVES NO MORE FOR YOU COWARDS
--
If you would like to talk to somebody about your mental health we suggest contacting the following organisations:
New Zealand
Lifeline (open 24/7) - 0800 543 354
Depression Helpline (open 24/7) - 0800 111 757
Healthline (open 24/7) - 0800 611 116
Samaritans (open 24/7) - 0800 726 666
Suicide Crisis Helpline (open 24/7) - 0508 828 865 (0508 TAUTOKO). This is a service for people who may be thinking about suicide, or those who are concerned about family or friends.
Youthline (open 24/7) - 0800 376 633. You can also text 234 for free between 8am and midnight, or email talk@youthline.co.nz
0800 WHATSUP children's helpline - phone 0800 9428 787 between 1pm and 10pm on weekdays and from 3pm to 10pm on weekends. Online chat is available from 7pm to 10pm every day at www.whatsup.co.nz.
Kidsline (open 24/7) - 0800 543 754. This service is for children aged 5 to 18. Those who ring between 4pm and 9pm on weekdays will speak to a Kidsline buddy. These are specially trained teenage telephone counsellors.
Your local Rural Support Trust - 0800 787 254 (0800 RURAL HELP)
Alcohol Drug Helpline (open 24/7) - 0800 787 797. You can also text 8691 for free.
Supporting Families in Mental Illness - 0800 732 825.
For further information, contact the Mental Health Foundation's free Resource and Information Service (09 623 4812).
Australia
1800 Respect national helpline: 1800 737 732
Lifeline (24 hour crisis line): 131 114
Beyond Blue: 1300 224 636
Headspace: Centres in each state and territory or check out eheadspace for online support.
The Kids Helpline: 24-hour support on 1800 55 1800.
Relationships Australia: Support for individuals, families and communities on 1300 364 277.
Lifeline: 24-hour support for all Australians on 13 11 14.
Lifeline on 13 11 14
Kids Helpline on 1800 551 800
MensLine Australia on 1300 789 978
Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467
Beyond Blue on 1300 224 636
Headspace on 1800 650 890
ReachOut at au.reachout.com
Care Leavers Australasia Network (CLAN) on 1800 008 774
--
Follow Antagonist A.D. on social media:
Facebook: facebook.com/antagonistad
Instagram: @antagonist_ad
Twitter: twitter.com/antagonistad
antagonistad.net
#AntagonistAD #GreyscaleRecords #AllThings
