Uploaded September 2020 | Updated September 2026, 3 weeks ago
Below is a big talk about where I been, if you don't care;
I hope I cheered you up... Stay safe out there.
- First off: Stop using A.I. please... I'm not an A.I., I'm shitpost angel mom
Jokes aside: I'm being legit, I'm done with the stupid channel trope.
- This year I devoted to focusing on my physical health, which has been ignored for many suicidal years
- Focusing on my physical health unfortunately would sometimes hurt my mental health, which is why as of latest months I've been getting to streaming
- Streaming helps me socialize and interact with people, which is way healthier for the mind than just isolating in an editor for 2 months making a video
- This does not mean I dropped YouTube, I still prefer and love doing videos, its just that this year has demanded more streaming and interacting, than isolating and hiding
- Right around january I had to go to ER for heart issues, this gave me a good glimpse that I have yet a lot to live for
- So since then I worked on exactly that, building up a life that I never lived, got a boyfriend, we married in minecraft as a community joke
- I started finally speaking up and using my voice with my closest friends, this is something I had completely stopped doing for years out of self-hatred and trauma
- "the virus" has been beating up my family every now and then due to my mom being a medical worker, she even got infected around june, but she's well
- I nearly died again around July due to a different virus, its got me to ER and I spent nearly the entire month recovering
- This time it gave me a solid idea that I don't want to die in silence like this, I don't want to go without my community ever knowing about me, how I sound like, or knowing about my struggles and personal life, treat this as a first step, if it even works as one...
- Although this year sucks, it did not affect me as much, specially due to unfortunate past events that had me go through forced isolation on my teens, but I feel guilty, guilty that I could've kept making videos for people throughout this difficult year to help them and to be there for them...
- You could say I wasn't present because how much people around me needed me, my YouTube community doesn't know this, but I try to help everyone on a personal level, and too many people were needing that, including myself.
- One of the biggest conflicts around this year showed up: "my community cares about my work, not about me", this thought of mine has been the biggest obstacle to finding motivation to keep doing videos consistently, I haven't beaten this obstacle yet
- I just haven't been motivated to work on videos if anything I do that doesn't involve me using my voice or bringing my personality will just prolong this issue forward and solidify it further
- I want to be proven wrong but so far all the statistics about who watches me and why they watch me only reaffirm that it's always been about my hard-work, not about who I am...
- If you read this far I'll also point out for the first and only time that the discord link is a cipher, if you'd like to join and see a more humane side of me, that's been the place for that...
- But I've been trying to connect these together, I've been trying to make my content and my channel more human and more connected to myself
- No that was not my sneeze that was a sound effect.
🟊 I want to thank the Patrons that supported me in my darkest mindsets throughout this year, I apologize for not making up to it, but I appreciate you believing in me
► Patreon: patreon.com/arcangela
► Twitter: twitter.com/TheRedemptress
► Twitch: twitch.tv/arcangie
► Discord: 1123851325
❰ Things Used ❱
Noisestorm - Barracuda
youtube.com/watch?v=KKRRWQq5f5E
Check-out Telepurte
twitter.com/Telepeturtle
Default dance animation from SpoopySoup
twitter.com/Lilyofthelight
Timers:
00:00 I'm back
00:10 Accelerate
01:09 AI Death
01:28 Angel Shenanigans
01:45 Ascension
02:00 Redemption
02:30 Sneeze
⚠ Ads may appear in this video because the song is copyrighted, but it was worth it, its never been about the money I make off of these videos
Below is a big talk about where I been, if you don't care;
I hope I cheered you up... Stay safe out there.
- First off: Stop using A.I. please... I'm not an A.I., I'm shitpost angel mom
Jokes aside: I'm being legit, I'm done with the stupid channel trope.
- This year I devoted to focusing on my physical health, which has been ignored for many suicidal years
- Focusing on my physical health unfortunately would sometimes hurt my mental health, which is why as of latest months I've been getting to streaming
- Streaming helps me socialize and interact with people, which is way healthier for the mind than just isolating in an editor for 2 months making a video
- This does not mean I dropped YouTube, I still prefer and love doing videos, its just that this year has demanded more streaming and interacting, than isolating and hiding
- Right around january I had to go to ER for heart issues, this gave me a good glimpse that I have yet a lot to live for
- So since then I worked on exactly that, building up a life that I never lived, got a boyfriend, we married in minecraft as a community joke
- I started finally speaking up and using my voice with my closest friends, this is something I had completely stopped doing for years out of self-hatred and trauma
- "the virus" has been beating up my family every now and then due to my mom being a medical worker, she even got infected around june, but she's well
- I nearly died again around July due to a different virus, its got me to ER and I spent nearly the entire month recovering
- This time it gave me a solid idea that I don't want to die in silence like this, I don't want to go without my community ever knowing about me, how I sound like, or knowing about my struggles and personal life, treat this as a first step, if it even works as one...
- Although this year sucks, it did not affect me as much, specially due to unfortunate past events that had me go through forced isolation on my teens, but I feel guilty, guilty that I could've kept making videos for people throughout this difficult year to help them and to be there for them...
- You could say I wasn't present because how much people around me needed me, my YouTube community doesn't know this, but I try to help everyone on a personal level, and too many people were needing that, including myself.
- One of the biggest conflicts around this year showed up: "my community cares about my work, not about me", this thought of mine has been the biggest obstacle to finding motivation to keep doing videos consistently, I haven't beaten this obstacle yet
- I just haven't been motivated to work on videos if anything I do that doesn't involve me using my voice or bringing my personality will just prolong this issue forward and solidify it further
- I want to be proven wrong but so far all the statistics about who watches me and why they watch me only reaffirm that it's always been about my hard-work, not about who I am...
- If you read this far I'll also point out for the first and only time that the discord link is a cipher, if you'd like to join and see a more humane side of me, that's been the place for that...
- But I've been trying to connect these together, I've been trying to make my content and my channel more human and more connected to myself
- No that was not my sneeze that was a sound effect.
🟊 I want to thank the Patrons that supported me in my darkest mindsets throughout this year, I apologize for not making up to it, but I appreciate you believing in me
► Patreon: patreon.com/arcangela
► Twitter: twitter.com/TheRedemptress
► Twitch: twitch.tv/arcangie
► Discord: 1123851325
❰ Things Used ❱
Noisestorm - Barracuda
youtube.com/watch?v=KKRRWQq5f5E
Check-out Telepurte
twitter.com/Telepeturtle
Default dance animation from SpoopySoup
twitter.com/Lilyofthelight
Timers:
00:00 I'm back
00:10 Accelerate
01:09 AI Death
01:28 Angel Shenanigans
01:45 Ascension
02:00 Redemption
02:30 Sneeze
⚠ Ads may appear in this video because the song is copyrighted, but it was worth it, its never been about the money I make off of these videos
