Uploaded September 2024 | Updated September 2026, 2 weeks ago

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Music Video Produced by : JT Ibanez
Production Assistants : Adrian Gomez, Ajay Marshall & Micala Austin
Hair & MUA : Jessie B

Song written by: Ryan Nealon, Bret Paddock, Andie Case & Ajay Marshall
Produced by: Bret Paddock
Mixed by : Justin Hergett
Mastered by: Gabi Grella

Lyrics:
Grew up with hand-me-downs, middle child of seven 
If I stepped out of line, wouldn’t get into heaven
How can control get played off as protection  
When it leads to a sip of resentment

Lost count of the bottles, blackouts, and prescriptions
I’d go out at 10, then wake up in the kitchen
Numb all the pain with a self-made condition     
Til it leads to my last bad decision  

A dead end disguised as a way out 

What am I looking for?
Another close call? 
Another memory to push down?
To run from the storm
Like it’s never my fault
That I’m stuck in a merry go round
It’s not like I don’t hate it here
I’m one foot closer every year
To the final pour
What am I looking for? 

Got kicked out of school, never graduated
I changed who I was til I became who I hated
Someone who forgot how the hell they got home
Someone who tempts being six feet below 

A dead end disguised as a way out

What am I looking for?
Another close call?
Another memory to push down?
To run from the storm
Like it’s never my fault
That I’m stuck in a merry go round
It’s not like I don’t hate it here
I’m one foot closer every year
To the final pour
What am I looking for? 

What am I looking for?
To feel like myself in my own skin 
What am I looking for?
To find all the pieces I’m missin'
What am I looking for?
A purpose, or some kind of reason to live
When will I stop giving in?

What am I looking for?
Another close call?
Another memory to push down?
To run from the storm
What am I looking for?