Uploaded January 2022 | Updated September 2026, 1 hour ago
I have been philosophizing about why the demons/old gods whatever u wanna call them, just show up, without me having to conjure them or practicing any black magic/any magical craft at all.. And why they are not kind to me, when I’m really kind myself, always greet them with love and respect etc!? And why Belial has been so severely abusive towards me. And i came to a conclusion that maybe its because I don’t aim to be a black magician. Im just a woman who got spiritual, woke up spiritually and got manic/obsessed with studying all things spiritual like everything from all forms of astrology to the gods/planets/magic/black magic/theosophy/ religion/archetypes/the psychology of it all/white magic/the starseeds and empath community, everything and all things occult and then i synchronize it all!! And since my awakening i just went shiva or no thing as it means. So i define myself as nothing! Trying to get to know oneself after an awakening is really hard cause you are litterally born again! You have dismantled your hole ego and neural wiring and all of the old you is gone, so you have to get to know a completely new you that you dont know who it is. And you live in abundance flow out of the karmic cycle, the karmic cycle also known as the ego or hell. So u live in infinity! And you have to follow and learn from shamans like Teal Swan or The thunderwizard to know what i speak about, cause i had to learn myself from them while everything just happened to me in total chaos! But anyway so I don’t know what i am, since i am lable less, as shiva, and I’m fine as just being no thing, with no title. But maybe i have to go as the boodi sattva and come back and try to define my self again. And not atay at the bhudda too much, too long.. Cause I’m channeling so I’m obviously a channel since i can channel spirits. But I’m learning about my new self as i go! I should make a separate video about this how confusing it is to wake up spiritually!! Cause i got alot to say about it! But anyway! Just wanted to do a video on the question why the spirits are not nice, to me, since the black magician says there nice, although all I’ve talked to hints or admits to have been abused themselves by these spirits more or less, but they seem to excuse it all the time like its fine to let the demons traumatize you a bit!?? Really strange!?? Guess it’s cause they do them favors, and i want nothing from anyone who is going to abuse me ever. So i want nothing from these demons! But anyway! Just a short video, a short thought on the matter!!🙏🌹. #Belial#demonicabuse
I have been philosophizing about why the demons/old gods whatever u wanna call them, just show up, without me having to conjure them or practicing any black magic/any magical craft at all.. And why they are not kind to me, when I’m really kind myself, always greet them with love and respect etc!? And why Belial has been so severely abusive towards me. And i came to a conclusion that maybe its because I don’t aim to be a black magician. Im just a woman who got spiritual, woke up spiritually and got manic/obsessed with studying all things spiritual like everything from all forms of astrology to the gods/planets/magic/black magic/theosophy/ religion/archetypes/the psychology of it all/white magic/the starseeds and empath community, everything and all things occult and then i synchronize it all!! And since my awakening i just went shiva or no thing as it means. So i define myself as nothing! Trying to get to know oneself after an awakening is really hard cause you are litterally born again! You have dismantled your hole ego and neural wiring and all of the old you is gone, so you have to get to know a completely new you that you dont know who it is. And you live in abundance flow out of the karmic cycle, the karmic cycle also known as the ego or hell. So u live in infinity! And you have to follow and learn from shamans like Teal Swan or The thunderwizard to know what i speak about, cause i had to learn myself from them while everything just happened to me in total chaos! But anyway so I don’t know what i am, since i am lable less, as shiva, and I’m fine as just being no thing, with no title. But maybe i have to go as the boodi sattva and come back and try to define my self again. And not atay at the bhudda too much, too long.. Cause I’m channeling so I’m obviously a channel since i can channel spirits. But I’m learning about my new self as i go! I should make a separate video about this how confusing it is to wake up spiritually!! Cause i got alot to say about it! But anyway! Just wanted to do a video on the question why the spirits are not nice, to me, since the black magician says there nice, although all I’ve talked to hints or admits to have been abused themselves by these spirits more or less, but they seem to excuse it all the time like its fine to let the demons traumatize you a bit!?? Really strange!?? Guess it’s cause they do them favors, and i want nothing from anyone who is going to abuse me ever. So i want nothing from these demons! But anyway! Just a short video, a short thought on the matter!!🙏🌹. #Belial#demonicabuse
