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Vent. Vent in so many ways.

First, I´m sosososo happy that I finally edited something with Tokyo Ghoul. Especially with Kaneki Ken. He is one of my favorite characters so, yes! Which also leads to my heart break cuz Kaneki didn´t deserve any of this and I love him. It´s just so sad. I just want this baby to be happy. I would love to go on a bookstore date with him, since I love books and I wouldn´t eat him. And I so wanna warp a blanket around him, set him on my bed, get a good book we both love and cuddle with him while reading said book. THAT’S ALL I WANT.

Also Tokyo Ghoul took over my life because:

- I crack my fingers like Kaneki now. Before I NEVER cracked my fingers. And now I do it. I tend to do it during Left 4 Dead 2 Promod matches quite often. (Yeah I just did it as well cuz oh well.) But yeah, maybe I should play less L4D2 or I end up in crazy centipede mode.

- I had a dream about two big centipedes. I´m not scared of them. But these two really, really big centipedes were coming towards me so I just got up and ran into another room. The next thing I know from this dream is that I was in an old, broken bathroom, brushing my teeth and still thinking about these two centipedes. I still knew they were in that room from before. (It had a big sofa so I guess it was a living room? But not ours.) YES, that dream was weird.


The other reason that this is a vent is because I can relate. To the lyrics, to Kaneki to a degree.
“I long for that feeling to not feel at all” yes. Please. Just take all these stupid emotions from me that would be easier. At least I have break from them while sleeping. But yeah “I can´t drown my demons, they know how to swim.” Jup. The monster pulling strings. I hate being tortured by my own mind. If I drown myself everything would just shut up.

“Why was I seeing beauty in death rather than in life?” – Kaneki Ken

I can only keep on quoting the one quote I tend to use a lot lately:
“I´m a deeply unhappy person.” - Alaska Young

Oh and don´t bother. Don´t even dare to write a comment with stupid empty “encouraging” words saying that you care. If you do I´m tempted to delete you. I´m so sick of all these people who pretend to “care” about me. Cuz, hey, when it matters and I´m in my own centipede mode nobody cares or is there for me. I have no Hide as a friend. So hey, just lemme kill myself. The world still goes on.



Anime: Tokyo Ghoul {Kaneki Ken}
Song: Can you feel my heart
Artist: Bring Me the Horizon


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