Neeks | Addressing My Absence Honestly | Bonus Cooking Stuffs @Neeks | Uploaded March 2020 | Updated October 2024, 1 hour ago.
TLDR; Early the Monday morning before the mass panic, my rat Atlas got super sick. We rushed him to the emergency pet hospital and ultimately made the decision to stop his suffering. I cried for the rest of the week. His cage still sits with a full food bowl and full water bottle because I do not have the heart to "clean" the area. It was his home, his area and I still can't do it.
Then the mass panic happened. I am already heavily averse to touching people/being in close proximate with people and suddenly I was going over every little detail of every interaction I had in the past month. Everyone is feeling the effects of this, I am but a drop in the anxiety going around BUT I did not want to address this irresponsibly. Yes, I saw the many "Covid Reads" videos. No, I do not judge anyone for expressing themselves that way. That just was not something I was able or willing to do. To me, addressing my own feelings first before attempting to calm anyone else was responsible.
All in all, I hope you are all SAFE, HAPPY and VIGILANT. I believe we can do a lot of good with some empathy and humanity. Do not panic, I believe in you.
☀Website - NekaMarie.com
☀Twitter - twitter.com/itsNeeksYeah
☀Instagram - instagram.com/NeeksReadsStuff
☀Twitch - twitch.com/NeeksGames
TLDR; Early the Monday morning before the mass panic, my rat Atlas got super sick. We rushed him to the emergency pet hospital and ultimately made the decision to stop his suffering. I cried for the rest of the week. His cage still sits with a full food bowl and full water bottle because I do not have the heart to "clean" the area. It was his home, his area and I still can't do it.
Then the mass panic happened. I am already heavily averse to touching people/being in close proximate with people and suddenly I was going over every little detail of every interaction I had in the past month. Everyone is feeling the effects of this, I am but a drop in the anxiety going around BUT I did not want to address this irresponsibly. Yes, I saw the many "Covid Reads" videos. No, I do not judge anyone for expressing themselves that way. That just was not something I was able or willing to do. To me, addressing my own feelings first before attempting to calm anyone else was responsible.
All in all, I hope you are all SAFE, HAPPY and VIGILANT. I believe we can do a lot of good with some empathy and humanity. Do not panic, I believe in you.
☀Website - NekaMarie.com
☀Twitter - twitter.com/itsNeeksYeah
☀Instagram - instagram.com/NeeksReadsStuff
☀Twitch - twitch.com/NeeksGames
