Uploaded May 2024 | Updated September 2026, 1 day ago
Ave, mortals!
I started working on this song when I decided to make a music video. I haven't done any music videos for years.
I didn't want to make any music videos for the songs that I made long time ago and decided to compose something new.
I had an old Horrorcore beat that I made in 2017 and decided to remix it with an Industrial pattern on the background.
In 2024 I used that instrumental for the song. I thought why not. I didn't want to make lyrics about the same stuff that I wrote about as a teenager, I took more mature approach and wrote about stuff that I'm familiar with.
It was a huge challenge to record this song because I didn't record Rap for 7 years and the subject of the song was very personal.
Why I made the lyrics in English? The reason is simple. It's because my YouTube channel is in English, thus I made music video in English.
The music video was inspired a lot by Ingmar Bergman's films.
Making this song and the music video was a real challenge, but it was worth it and I'm happy I've done it!
LYRICS
Verse 1:
Moths are flying over my lamp
Nostalgic uncanny valley
Is beating in my own head
Obsessive thoughts make me numb to reality
Every time I digress
I just find it so funny,
After feeling regret.
Ancient runes are drawn on my hands
While allowing this Earth to devour my flesh.
Feeling crestfallen
Searching for my Elysium
During ongoing rest.
My smile I’m using merely as a sheath
In attempt to hide my million shadows
That are following me from beneath.
Take away my filthy lust,
Allow me to keep my brain
I don’t wanna be the empty carcass
Dancing over my grave.
Chorus (x2):
Depression is gluttonous
Exasperation encourages it to eat
It wears armor of platinum
Cus it remains eternally thin.
Nevertheless it’s laughs mysteriously
Keeping angst on repeat
It howls hysterically as comes time to leave.
Verse 2:
Curled into a ball
Not feeling today like a man of steel
I’m a skincrawler holding a canister of kerosene
Sitting paranoid in the concrete corner
Of mezzanine with the borderline disorder
I don’t need a key
To move forward
I open the gate of Hell with the crowbar
Apathetically going to the streets
Seeing the walking scum
After the sleepless nights
Looking at the gloomy sky
When the winters come
Shutting the windows tight
To prevent suicide
I wish to have family monogamy
But my stress is like mahogany - red
I close my eyes and see pornography
Every time I’m going to bed
I opened up to you
And you saw nothing but guts
I still don’t understand
Why you are laughing at us
Self-reflections are always very weird
Just express with scary beat
My obsessive overthink
To humanity I do not have much to say
That’s why I have conversations only with myself.
Chorus (x2):
Depression is gluttonous
Exasperation encourages it to eat
It wears armor of platinum
Cus it remains eternally thin.
Nevertheless it’s laughs mysteriously
Keeping angst on repeat
It howls hysterically as comes time to leave.
Bandcamp: eoncatalyst.bandcamp.com/music
Song: youtube.com/watch?v=PE9XVbSiWrE
Albums: youtube.com/@UCpojqB-ex09vcGIRuzdc1ow
Songs: youtube.com/@UC9BNy2n69ASqASeTQNgUKvw
Farewell, stay out of Hell.
Ave, mortals!
I started working on this song when I decided to make a music video. I haven't done any music videos for years.
I didn't want to make any music videos for the songs that I made long time ago and decided to compose something new.
I had an old Horrorcore beat that I made in 2017 and decided to remix it with an Industrial pattern on the background.
In 2024 I used that instrumental for the song. I thought why not. I didn't want to make lyrics about the same stuff that I wrote about as a teenager, I took more mature approach and wrote about stuff that I'm familiar with.
It was a huge challenge to record this song because I didn't record Rap for 7 years and the subject of the song was very personal.
Why I made the lyrics in English? The reason is simple. It's because my YouTube channel is in English, thus I made music video in English.
The music video was inspired a lot by Ingmar Bergman's films.
Making this song and the music video was a real challenge, but it was worth it and I'm happy I've done it!
LYRICS
Verse 1:
Moths are flying over my lamp
Nostalgic uncanny valley
Is beating in my own head
Obsessive thoughts make me numb to reality
Every time I digress
I just find it so funny,
After feeling regret.
Ancient runes are drawn on my hands
While allowing this Earth to devour my flesh.
Feeling crestfallen
Searching for my Elysium
During ongoing rest.
My smile I’m using merely as a sheath
In attempt to hide my million shadows
That are following me from beneath.
Take away my filthy lust,
Allow me to keep my brain
I don’t wanna be the empty carcass
Dancing over my grave.
Chorus (x2):
Depression is gluttonous
Exasperation encourages it to eat
It wears armor of platinum
Cus it remains eternally thin.
Nevertheless it’s laughs mysteriously
Keeping angst on repeat
It howls hysterically as comes time to leave.
Verse 2:
Curled into a ball
Not feeling today like a man of steel
I’m a skincrawler holding a canister of kerosene
Sitting paranoid in the concrete corner
Of mezzanine with the borderline disorder
I don’t need a key
To move forward
I open the gate of Hell with the crowbar
Apathetically going to the streets
Seeing the walking scum
After the sleepless nights
Looking at the gloomy sky
When the winters come
Shutting the windows tight
To prevent suicide
I wish to have family monogamy
But my stress is like mahogany - red
I close my eyes and see pornography
Every time I’m going to bed
I opened up to you
And you saw nothing but guts
I still don’t understand
Why you are laughing at us
Self-reflections are always very weird
Just express with scary beat
My obsessive overthink
To humanity I do not have much to say
That’s why I have conversations only with myself.
Chorus (x2):
Depression is gluttonous
Exasperation encourages it to eat
It wears armor of platinum
Cus it remains eternally thin.
Nevertheless it’s laughs mysteriously
Keeping angst on repeat
It howls hysterically as comes time to leave.
Bandcamp: eoncatalyst.bandcamp.com/music
Song: youtube.com/watch?v=PE9XVbSiWrE
Albums: youtube.com/@UCpojqB-ex09vcGIRuzdc1ow
Songs: youtube.com/@UC9BNy2n69ASqASeTQNgUKvw
Farewell, stay out of Hell.
